Tommy quickly stood as she sat on the bed holding her arms around herself. He watched as she stayed still, not moving from her spot on the bed with eyes closed and her fingers digging into her arms. "Jude?" She still refused to look at him. "Don't Tommy." She then looked up at him "I have to get dressed" she said, hoping he would get the hint. Tommy stood there oblivious. She closed her arms more tightly around herself and stared behind him at the bedroom door. He turned behind him and realized what she was asking. He knew it was childish but he felt a little hurt by her request. Jude never cared whether or not he was in the room while she got ready. He nodded silently "I'll wait in the living room." then walked out.
Sitting in the living room, Tommy's mind had been replaying what had just happened, or what could have happened. He knew it was wrong, to ask for so much from her. But a part of him didn't care. He had been without her touch for so long, he couldn't help himself. It was like he was an addict and one taste of her sent him crazy for more. In that one moment he had turned into an animal.
Still drowned in his sinful thoughts of her, he turned his head as he heard the opening of a door. As he soon as he saw her, he stood, nervous as to what would happen.
Jude emerged from her room and walked into the living room, where she knew an anxious Tommy waited. Watching him stand when she entered to room made her think of those old movies she loved to watch. The ones where men would open doors and pull out chairs for the women. She felt herself falling once more. This was not what she expected. Her plan was for him to bring her to the doctor and then bring her back home. Almost having sex with him was not on her list of things to do. When she called him over she knew that there would be some level of awkwardness but that was nothing compared to what she felt now. Standing there in front of him, she still felt naked; vulnerable. Out of nervous habit, she pulled her shirt down over her belly. Walking into the living room, she noticed something in his eyes. Something she wished he didn't have because it was something she was lacking herself. Hope. She couldn't let him continue to believe that they would be together in the future, because she still didn't know herself. She knew that the only way she was going to get through this day, was to pretend those stolen moments in her bedroom didn't happen.
Putting a brave face, she continued moving into the room. "Let's go." She said as she walked to the closet. Tommy felt confused and stepped in front of her, blocking her path. "We're not going to talk about it?" Jude looked down at her feet. "No" "Jude...We can't pretend that didn't just happened" Tommy walked closer and she put a hand up. "Yes we can and we will" She looked up into his eyes. "We have to or else I can't do this." He glanced into her eyes and saw the fear and desperation in her eyes. As if one word from him would break her into thousands of pieces. He understood and nodded, stepping aside to let her pass. She hesitated, surprised he had let it go so easily, then walked to the closet and put her coat on. "Let's go." Tommy watched as her body disappeared out the door before following her.