The Essence of Love

AN: THIS IS THE FIFTH CHAPTER!! Please review.. Ireta is so going to kill me for this, but I have been converted. I have never really liked Sasuke, because of the whole abandonment issues thing. No worries! This is a SasuSaku with slight HinaNaru tidbits. But, my friend Kyrii has converted me to a... NaruSaku fan.. Yes, I have a reason!! Because they make SENSE! He's NICE to her, and she has a crush on him after the time skip!! (hides from Ireta)

Chapter Five: Whisper

I awoke from my nightmare, this time more rested than before. I felt a burning in my throat, and I let it go. The tears stringing from my eyes, burning my skin. It feels like a lifetime since I took the life of that little girl. I stumbled to the bathroom, and turn on my shower. I tilt head into the water, letting it fill my senses. I wash slowly, and dress slowly.

Also, I slowly noticed something I should have noticed immediately. Someone's chakra was in my home. I could sense it. A stupid feeling washed over me, I should have noticed it before. I pulled the first, and sharpest, thing I could find on my desk. A letter opener. Great, this would be great if I were fighting off a tax collector.

I walked slowly into my living room, the chakra growing stronger. I eased my grip on the letter opener as the chakra became familiar to me. "Sasuke, what do you want?" He looked over at me, an actual smile gracing his face.

"I was in the are, and I sensed your chakra acting strangely."

"So, you were checking up on me?" I asked, gripping the table to keep my tired legs from collapsing.

"I was worried." He looked at me oddly. "Are you alright? You look sick."

"Bad dream, no biggy." I stated, trying my best at nonchalance.

His face no longer held that rare smile that he had just given me. It had been replaced with something else. Worry, and guilt. "Was it me? My visiting you?"

"No! Of course not." I tried reassuring him, "It's just.. A mistake I made some time ago..."

Catch me as I fall
Say you're here and it's all over now
Speaking to the atmosphere
No one's here and I fall into myself
This truth drives me
Into madness
I know I can stop the pain
If I will it all away

"Would you tell me about it?" He cautiously approached me.

"I-I don't think I can Sasuke-ku...-san."

"That's alright, you don't have to tell me if you don't want." He walked towards me, and reached for my hand. Instinctively I swung at him, forgetting the letter opener in my hand. I managed to scrape the palm of his hand enough to draw blood.

"Dammit! I'm sorry." I took his hand in mine, using chakra to heal the small wound. He examined his hand, and a smile tugged at the sides of his lips. "I should make you kiss it better."

My face flushed, and my already jelly legs gave out below me. This sending me tumbling to the floor, and not at all graceful. In half a heart beat Sasuke was beside me. His arms lifting me off of the floor and walking me to my couch.

I fought back the urge to bash my head into the wall for being so weak in front of him.

"Tell me your dream." It wasn't a question, it was a demand. "Don't say it's not a big deal. You can barely stand."

"I-It's hard to tell without.."

He looked at me, and authentic concern written in his eyes. "Without what?"

"Looking worthless." I conceited bluntly- monotone.

"Is it just a nightmare? Or is it something that happened to you?" He asked, his eyes focused on the wall.

"It's something I've done." My throat was already tightening.

Don't turn away
(Don't give in to the pain)
Don't try to hide
(Though they're screaming your name)
Don't close your eyes
(God knows what lies behind them)
Don't turn out the light
(Never sleep never die)

I told him the story, breaking down into hysterical sobs when I told him about how I chose to save myself over the little girl. Instead of pushing me away, or deeming me as weak, he held me. He pulled me into his lap, and stroked my hair while I cried into his chest. I tried many times to stop the flow of tears, but most of them were unsuccessful.

I mumbled an apology into his shirt, and tried lifting myself from him. He was reluctant to let me go. His pity was worse than his ignorance of me. I avoided eye contact, and went to get him a clean shirt. He insisted on following me. Just in case I spontaneously burst into tears.

I did. He pulled me too him again. Into another one of his sympathy hugs. I hated this feeling. I feel weaker now, huddled up and crying, then I had the night this same raven headed boy left me stranded in the cold. The memory came back to me again, and a bubbling anger rose in my chest.


I'm frightened by what I see
But somehow I know
That there's much more to come
Immobilized by my fear
And soon to be
Blinded by tears
I can stop the pain
If I will it all away

My hands balled into fists and made contact with him. He withdrew from me suddenly, looking down at me surprised.

"Why are you doing this?" My voice was angry.

"What? Am I not helping?" He reached for me, but I jerked away from him.

"What are you doing? You never cared about me before. What makes now so different?"

"I've changed." He reached for me again, and I repeated the same action I had before.

"Nice try. People don't change. People break, and then mend. You weren't broken. You broke."

My mind twisted with anger, and he reached for me again. This time I couldn't release myself from his grip. "I hate that you haunt my dreams, Sasuke."

"You dream about me?"

"Every dream I have is about you. About you leaving me, about you coming back."

He stared at me, his eyes looked broken. I knew those eyes. They were like mine. Just like mine.

"I-I don't know how to fix this." Sasuke whispered. I wrapped my arms around his waist, and let my legs give in once again. He caught my fall, just like I knew he would. I let my eyes close, the last thing my memory holding was my falling asleep against Sasuke.

Fallen angels at my feet
Whispered voices at my ear
Death before my eyes
Lying next to me I fear
She beckons me
Shall I give in
Upon my end shall I begin
Forsaking all I've fallen for
I rise to meet the end

AN: Another one bites the dust!! I like this song. I'm really bored, so I'm making a series of AMV's based on this story.