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Angel had left to go to the butcher shop. He needed to get fresh blood for Buffy.

Willow's spell had worked. As soon as she had finished the spell, Buffy sort of collapsed in

the chains. Angel brought Buffy to his bed and let her lie down. Willow sat with her and

nervously watched her sleep until Buffy stirred again.

"Will," Buffy whispered.

"Hey you," Willow said, voice quivering a bit. She was a bit freaked out.

"I'm so sorry," Buffy said, beginning to cry.

When Willow saw the tears and heard the pain in her friend's voice, she pushed her fear aside.

She needed to help Buffy get through this.

"Shh. It's okay. You didn't hurt me," Willow said, coming to sit on the bed with Buffy.

"Please forgive me," Buffy repeated.

Willow leaned over and hugged her best friend. She didn't hesitate this time.

"There's nothing to forgive. It's alright," she said, crying too, now.

"I was gonna go after a little boy earlier today," Buffy said, looking straight into Willow's

eyes. "Something happened inside me, and I told him to run before I could hurt him."

"See," Willow smiled. "That was a good thing.," she said, wiping her eyes.

"I didn't touch him, but I did get an older man. I couldn't help it... I bit him. I dr- drank

from him, Will," Buffy said, deeply ashamed. "I think I could have killed him if Angel didn't

stop me."

"You didn't kill anyone," Willow whispered to her, rubbing her back. "It wasn't your fault.

You didn't even have your soul Buffy. It's okay now," she comforted.

Buffy wiped her eyes with the back of her hand. "So Will, what do you think?"

"What's to think about? You're still my best friend, and you're here. That's all I care about,"

Willow said, trying to put on a big smile, trying to forget the tragedy.

"There was more than twenty of them. I mean I'm good, but even I couldn't take on that

many vamps at once. One of them said that me and Angel had ruined their life, and now

they were all gonna ruin ours... They didn't lie... Oh God, how am I gonna tell Giles- and

Faith too... I can't do it, Will... I need you to do it for me, please. I know that it's asking

a lot, and I know that you're still trying to let the fact that I'm actually like this, sink in, but I can't

do it. I can't face them yet. I don't know what to do with myself. I don't know how to live like this."

"He'll teach you... Angel will help you," Willow reassured Buffy.

"Did I actually tell him it was his fault that this happened to me?" Buffy asked nervously.

"Yeah," Willow told her honestly.

Buffy shook her head, sadly.

"It wasn't his fault. I decided by myself to come here. I decided I was ready to find him and

tell him that I wanted to be with him... This is a punishment or something, you know,

like the universe telling me "Hey you think it's your time to be happy with Angel? Well it's

not, now your gonna get bitten."

"The universe didn't tell you anything. This happened because you and Angel pissed off the

wrong vamps and this is their revenge on you. But it's not gonna work, if you don't let it... I

think they turned you in the hopes that Angel would kill you in order to save people and then hate himself forever.

Well that and the fact that turning the Slayer into a Vampire is a big and potentially bad

deal... But they were wrong on both counts. You've got your soul, Buffy. They don't have to

win."

"I'm scared, Will," Buffy admitted.

"I know. It'll all be okay, though," Willow said kindly, slowly starting to believe the words herself.

"I love you, Will. So much. I don't know what I'd do without you."

"I love you too. Always, Always, Always," Willow smiled. Things would be okay eventually, not normal, but okay. This was still her best friend.

"I want you to stay here for awhile."

"Whatever you want, Buffy," Willow winked.

"But I think I'm going to need you to go. And I think you're going to need you to go. You need your own time to deal with this. You've been an angel for staying with me, for

still being my friend. But I know I need to give you your space right now."

"It's gonna take a bit of getting used to Buffy, I wont lie. But I don't need space from you. Just a bit of thinking time," Willow smiled.

"Thank you for saving me," Buffy said, taking her friend's hand.

"That's what you and me do, right? We save each other," the redhead replied, squeezing

Buffy's hand in return.

"You let me know when you're ready to come back. Take whatever time you need. I'll deal

with everyone back in Rome... I'm gonna head off now. I'm gonna leave you two alone,"

Willow said, giving Buffy one last hug, as Angel came back in.

Willow pulled Angel aside, before she headed out the door.

"Normally, I'd be smacking anyone who'd say this, but, you'd better take care of her. She

needs you now."

"Don't worry. I'll take care of her," Angel promised.

"Good man," Willow said, flashing him a smile, as she finally walked out the door.

"Here," Angel said, passing the jar of blood from the butcher shop, to Buffy.

"Thank you," she said, not looking at him.

"You okay?" Angel asked her.

"I feel horrible. I know it could have been worse, but I still can't stand what I did do. It's

constantly replaying in my head, Angel... That man's face won't leave me. He was so scared... I

think I finally understand how you felt when you got your soul back. Except it must have

been a million times worse for you."

"I'm sorry you're hurting."

"I'm sorry for what I said to you, before," Buffy said, quietly.

"Don't worry about it," Angel told her.

"I do, though, worry... What happened to me wasn't your fault, and I'm sorry for saying such a

stupid thing. I came here of my own free will. You're not responsible for anything that

happened."

"Why exactly did you come?" Angel asked.

"To see you, to tell you something," Buffy whispered.

"How did you find me?"

"I got your postcard, so I knew you were in Ireland. I just guessed that you'd be here. I

figured you'd want to see your home again... So I hopped on a plane and then I got a ride

here. I found a lady who knew the place on the postcard. She gave me directions, and I

followed them... You know the rest... The one who- the one who... turned me. Is he dead?"

Buffy asked, holding back her tears.

"I killed him... Most of them just ran off and laughed. Didn't even bother to fight."

"Why would they? They did what they set out to do. There was no need to stick around."

"You know why they did it?" Angel asked in awe.

"Apparently you and me ruined one of their lives, and they set out to ruin ours. End of

story. End of Buffy... Anyway, that doesn't matter anymore. What's done is done... I'm

gonna need to stay here with you for awhile if you don't mind. I'm gonna need you to help

me adjust," she said, sounding almost robotic.

"Of course I don't mind. You're definitely staying here. I wasn't gonna let you leave

anyway... Buffy, you need to drink what I brought you from the butcher's. You're gonna

need to drink a lot because this is so new for you. With time you won't need it so much."

Buffy just nodded her head.

"What did you want to tell me?"

"What?"

"You said that had something to say to me, before," Angel said.

"Never mind that."

"You said you came all this way to tell me something. I'm right here now, tell me."

"I said never mind," Buffy snapped at him.

"Okay," Angel said, giving up for the time being.

"So no more daylight strolls for me then, huh?" Buffy said sarcastically.

"No."

"No more enjoying food?"

"No," Angel told her.

"No more reflection," Buffy cursed.

"You never need to look at yourself. You're always beautiful," Angel said.

"Even now?" Buffy asked, sarcastically

"Of course," Angel complimented, gently.

"Hey, why don't you show me Galway?" Buffy said, quickly changing the subject.

"Whatever you want."