I cant stand it. Jazz says I cant keep doing this, but I cant help it. I havent left the house and I hardly show my face around the house. I just lay here and stare at his photo. It's all I have.I know it's a bad idea to sit here and mope but I do it anyway.

Is he's gone, is he's really gone? I might not have even believed it if I hadnt held him as he died. I cant even fully come to terms with it. First he's here now he's not, and somehow it's gotta be my fault. That ghost killed him, and it never would have happened if it werent for my profession.I should've acted quicker, should've run faster. If I had maybe he'd still be here...

It's late and I can feel drowsiness setting in on me. I dont want to sleep, I dont. Whenever I do I always have to relive that day. And I hate doing that, imagine having a nightmare every night that you cant escape ever. But whats worse when I wake up I cant go to my baby's room and find him there. Cause he's never there.

Sometimes I wish one day when I wake up I'll go to his room and find him sleeping peacfully under the covers, and that this all would've been a horrible nightmare. But this is only wishful thinking. He is never going to be there and I know that. But sometimes we all need dreams just to get through reality.

I've never wanted to be far away from here before but I feel like I cant stay here. But I wont ruin Jazz's or Jack's life. Although we all could use change and I'm sure none of us can stand it here, somehow leaving here would be like leaving Danny alone. I cant do that. And the last thing I want to do is uproot Jazz from her friends and school and make her life harder. Isnt it already hard enough?

Finally after the soft murmers from downstairs end I fall asleep. I really hoped Jack would come up here and keep me awake but it sounds like he went for a drive. And Jazz definately went to her room to cry. So now I'm falling asleep and going back to a few days ago...

"Maddie!" Called Jack happily. "Let's go, there's been a Phantom siting near the Nasty Burger, maybe we'll get him this time."

"Alright. The Nasty Burger? Isnt that where Danny is?" Maddie said thoughtfully.

"Um yeah." Jazz said nervously."Say, can I come with you guys?" Jazz aked putting on a fake smile.

"Sure Jazz get in the RV." Jack answered proudly.

It was strange how the two parents didnt notice how suspicous Jazz was acting but they were too excited about catching the ghost boy.

When they all got there the battle Danny was fighting had already died down. Soon it was just a matter of catching Skulker in the thermos. And maybe all those times of always winning made him cocky or maybe he was just distracted by something, but whatever it was it gave Skulker the upper hand.

When Jack and Maddie got there they saw a few more scattering people leaving the scene and that when they saw Sam and Tucker, but no Danny.

"Where's Danny?" Asked Maddie worriedly.

"Uhh," The two said each one out of excuses. Before they could answer they all heard a loud scream.

"Danny." Maddie said quickly looking behind her after that. "Jack where is that comming from!"

"That alley, the one the ghost boy went into." Jack said quickly.

Maddie was off like a shot and was soon follwed by Jack, Jazz, Sam, and Tucker. Maddie made it to the alley first and what she saw might have completely changed her forever.

Danny was laying face down on the cement with a fresh pool of blood forming beneath him. She immediately ran to his side and turned him over. He was hardly alive. She propped him into her lap and whispered he'd be ok, but he only groaned. His eyes were open but he he couldnt respond.

Jack had just turned the corner with the kids behind him and stopped dead in his tracks. Causing Jazz to slam into him, and Tucker into her, and Sam into Tucker.

"Somebody call an ambulance." Jack said to the kids knowing they had cell phones and he didnt.

Jazz grabbed Sam and Tucker and lead them away they didnt need to see this, and Tucker or Sam had to call for help.

Jack kneeled beside his wife and son and rubbed Danny's hair. Maddie now had Danny's blood all over her especially her gloves, because she was trying to stop the bleeding from the deep gash in her son's chest. The parents already knew, it was already too late. Infact the wound was so deep that it looked as if he was bleeding black.

"Please hold on Danny." She told him.

Danny's eyes flickered back and forth from his parents and he wore a sorry look, and maybe words may have been useless in this moment. But his look was an apology and they both could tell. Then he closed his sparkling blue eyes for the final time. And Maddie couldnt feel his breathing anymore. He was gone.

I awoke again. It came back again and it always does. But the dream isnt what distrubed me, it was a cool hand on my cheek and I couldnt sworn a felt cold kiss upon my forhead. I blame this spectral alarm on my own greif but I cant keep myself from going into his room.

She opened the door and noticed the strange temperture decrease in his room. There was no body she could see in there but she knew he had been there. That's when she noticed a small paper that hadnt been there before. She crossed the cold room and went to the letter.

How am I supposed to feel about the things I've done?

I don't know if I should stay or turn around and run

I know that I hurt you, things will never be the same

I dont know how to say this, but I'm just so sorry

Can you ever forgive me for what I've become,

I'm just so glad that I was your son.

Love always and forever,

Danny

I was crying as I read it, I didnt understand it fully, but it was a matter that he came back and did this. And he did it for me. I'll always love my son no matter what. Sometimes I know I"ll never know why any of this happened but at least I know he's ok. And hope he always knows that I love him, my one and only Danny.