I saw him leave, after some new or old enemy I'm sure. And what do I do? Stand by, make up lies, and clean up. Watching him fight always makes me truly feel I've failed my role as a sister and human being.
How is it that he can charge head on into the wake of the battle without a second thought? Does he not understand the danger, or is it that he doesnt care? I know he knows he's not indestructible, although he has a bit more of a upper with his powers. Still, what could possibly be going through his mind? Does he fear that he will not return?
Or is that my job? Danny knows I fear for him every time, it's almost like he lets me do his worrying for him. I try to put myself in his position, I try to imagine that eveyone I know and others I dont are in danger and that I'm the only one who can do something. But I realize I have no courage.
I'm not a coward, but I could never face the paranormal in a battle to the death. I dont know if I could choose giving my life for everyone else, or even for just one person I dont know. But he can. That's what scares me, he doesn't seem to have a fear of death and he isn't bothered that a simple slip up could cost him his life.
Talk about pressure. Knowing that if you don't do a single movement just right that you will die. Once again I could never handle it, but he can. Yet he lets the pressures of failing a test freak him out. "Ghosts I can handle, but passing isnt so easy." He says that all the time. He's a liar.
I can tell, he doesnt think I can but I can tell. It's not school he's worried about, it's winning the next battle. And I think Danny just tells me that fighting is easier than reading to take my suspicions off of him. And I admit sometimes I can tell he is fearless, and I think that death isnt the major issue. Exposure is.
He doesn't want to be found out, he doesn't want to be thought evil, he doesn't want our parents to ashamed.He tries so hard, too hard if you ask me. But as much as it kills me to admit it, him being simple old Danny Fenton is more safer than being recognized as the ghostboy. As much as I'd love for him to recognized for his heroics, to be given the respect he deserves.
It's his neck he's sticking out, for what, for what? They certainly dont deserve what he does. He gives and gives and expects nothing in return. He gets picked on, yelled at, and horrible accusations, all so we can live another day, and so he can die for them. I fail to see the point, I know I wouldn't take it.
How long will he? Will he always let people step all over him? I can see him and the hate that is begining to taint his personality. Sudden fits of rage will over take him, and it seems no one can get through to him. I've heard the story from Tucker, about Danny's evil future self, he never became that or so I heard. But will Danny always be so self sacrificing or will the constant pressures and disregards push him to a breaking point.
Everyone has one. The limit in which they will snap. And it seems that my brother is being pused closer and closer to the edge, with every fall he hits twice as hard. What a fight his life is. What a waste this place he calls his home.He doesn't deserve this. For every good deed there is a reward, a lie. Everything is a lie.
I notice even I am growing a bitterness towards the world. I can only imagine how he feels. I see a flash of light and then I hear a bang sound in his room. Then silence. I rush in, I hope he is not hurt.
Danny sits stupefied on his floor. He looks ready to cry, but he holds back. "Danny?" He looks at me just noticing my presence.
"They shot at me," He mutters flatly. It surprises me because he always gets shot at.
"Who Danny?" I ask.
"The police, with bullets."
Why would they try to hit a ghost with normal firearms. Either they are idiots or they've figure Phantom is a halfa. Which means they were trying to kill his human side."They didn't know they were probably scared."
"They said they knew." He returns in that same flat tone. "They wan't to kill me, all of me. They don't care if I'm human either. They don't want me, no body does."
"That's not true." I protest kneeling beside him. I try to put my arm around him but he shrugs it off.
"And as soon as mom and dad find out, they'll either kill me or kick me out. They wont except me." He looks me in the eyes. Never had I seen something as dead and listless as those blue eyes. "Like Vlad said, I will always be unwanted."
"No, no you wont. You still have Tucker and Sam. And Danny no matter what you will always have me. Because I will always love you no matter what." I try again to put my hand around him and he doesn't protest.
"But I don't want to be the enemy anymore.I feel like giving up."
"You can't give up too many people are depending on you, even if they dont know it yet."
"But it seems like no matter what I do, it's shot down by something I've done wrong. Jazz I can't take it anymore."
"Danny, you have to promise me, you wont do something stupid because you are angry or depressed. You can always come to me, always. Please remember that I will never hate you, never be ashamed of you, and never stop loving you."
"Ok." He whispers and sits in my embrace for a while.
I dont mind, this isnt his first breakdown, he's had others even if I didnt see them all.I always help him through and try to comfort my little brother.But watching it always brings tears to my eyes and breaks my heart. I will always try to help him through his life. I'm his sister and this is my responsibilty.
Yeah I love all my reviews and yes to some I do kill off Danny a lot, but only because his death can cause more greif and pain and I like exploring how people would react. But dont get me wrong I love Danny, he's a great character.
Also I've noticed these one shot challenges about going to 100, I could probably do that, but I was planning on it anyway. So yeah thanks for reading, or skimming. More to come!