Listen to your heart when he's calling for you

Listen to you heart there's nothing else you can do

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"Sam! Wait!"

I squared my shoulders at his haunting voice. I don't want to do this anymore and I'm just so tired of this never ending chase. I want him to just let me go. He doesn't need dead weight like me dragging him down, he has a lot to handle. I'll slow him down. This is all a selfless act right?

And now I'm caught between my emotions and pride as I hear his feet hit the ground roughly while he catches up to me.

"What's wrong..." He panted tiredly as he tried to catch his breath.

Oh so you noticed. Funny for the past year you've been completely oblivious to this numbing depression I've been sinking into oh so gracefully.

"Nothing's wrong." I shrugged.

Aghh I'm a liar! Come on I've stood by your side for years and never left no matter what you've said or done, no matter what you were. But now that this whole you and Valerie thing is going on I'm not sure I even want to stand next to you, you repeatedly ignore my warnings and my concerns.

"You're lying."

I felt like clapping. You catch on, if not a little too late. I really can't stand you anymore. It's not that I don't love because I do, with every fiber of my very being. It's that I hate the way you are now, always trying to fit in and completely ignoring the fact that you're abandoning, not only us, but yourself.

"It's about Valerie isn't it?"

"Does it always have to be about her?" I snapped.

"So it is. Look I know that you don't like her for what she does but..."

"But what!" I've lost it. "Danny there's no way around this, she's trying to kill you and you aren't indestructible."

He's chuckling. Oh very funny. I fail to see the humor, I'm worrying everyday about him, and he...He's laughing! You know if he wanted to piss me off to no ends, he's definitely succeeded. Good for him. Let's see him laugh when I walk away and never turn back to look his way again.

"I don't think its funny..." I growled, I'm still not going to face you.

"Sam just look at me."

Nope, never, never. I shake my head.

"Sammy."

Ugh why is his voice so singsong when I'm mad? It's so adorable I...Gah no, you're mad, he clueless and heartless and you don't need him and he doesn't need you. No stay mad...

"Sam?" Mad...Staying mad... "Oh Sam just turn around." He's putting his hand on my shoulder, stay mad, he's making me turn around. Stay...

It's impossible, those beautiful eyes that wonderful smile, that face of which I adore. Did my glare melt, did my eyes sparkle? His gaze is so soft, am I still glaring, I think so.

"Sam this isn't about Valerie." His voice is so sweet and sincere, avert gaze, avert, avert! "Just look at me." No, hand under the chin, he's forcing me, no I can't look at you.

Come on say something Sam, say something that'll make him let go off you and make his gaze harden. Say something that you planned to say so he can hate you, say something. Anything? Where's that attitude, the goth indifference? What the hell is wrong with me?

That stare the wonderful stare...

"Danny..." Oh brilliant, a weak whisper, way to be Miss. Independent.

"Sam, I just wanted you to know, that this isn't about Valerie. It never was, she was helping me."

Liar, liar, now I don't even care how captivating you are. "Right. Now I'm going to help you say goodbye." I pulled away, oh his eyes did change, not to anger, but to sorrow. Pure heartbreak.

Ok Sam, you know what to do. Walk away don't look back, keep on going. On foot in front of the other, that's right gain distance.

"Sam I love you!"

Didn't plan for that one. Time for a one eighty.

yay. Music sure does invoke some strange ideas. Hope you liked it, it's not quite fluff or depressing, it's something and I'm not sure what.