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Chapter 19 – No More
Over the next few weeks Hailey talked herself in and out of approaching Tyler. Every time she talked herself in to it, she'd talk herself right back out of it. She didn't want to be rejected, that could be the worst thing that she would have to go through.
It was one of the reasons why she took her break up with Reid so hard.
Her older sister never accepted her, always called her the adopted child that was one of the reasons she chose to live in the dorms. Her baby brother, he was her mother's favorite, where as her older sister was her father's favorite.
Over the years, it settled in to Hailey's mind, and she began to accept it. She stopped trying to do extra little things for her siblings or for her parents and actually asked for them to send her away to boarding school.
Spencer was what she got. Yes, it was an upper class school, but it wasn't far enough away from her family.
She was rejected by the first boy she liked, and she stayed locked in a shell until Reid Garwin came along. Reid Garwin charmed his way in to her life, and then in to her pants.
Then Aaron picked up the pieces, Aaron pulled her back in to the girl she used to be. And she loved him for that, but she had never seen him as more than just a friend. It was hard to think of him in any different light, and now she didn't want to see him at all.
She realized that she screwed everything up. Her family she had screwed up years ago, her social life, yep down the drain… and now her love life was nonexistent.
She recalled a conversation she had with Aaron during their bet, and had to laugh at how true he was when he said what he did.
"It's perfect… you're like a disease…"
Everything she touched didn't turn to gold; it went to hell and back.
"There you are…" A male's voice tore her out of her thoughts.
She had spent ever lunch since the breakup outside by the lake. It was peaceful and no one ever bothered her, or could find her for that matter.
"Reid?" She shielded her eyes from the sun.
"What are you doing out here?" He asked leaning over to catch his breath. "You have been completely impossible to catch up with, you know that…"
"It's easy to be invisible when you don't want to be found…" Hailey shrugged her shoulders and squinted up at him.
"You're driving me and Tyler absolutely nuts…" Reid stated sitting down.
"Tyler?" Hailey questioned.
"He's been wanting to talk to you," Reid told her biting his lower lip. "Every time he tries to get your attention you disappear…"
"I've wanted to talk to him too, but I'm so afraid…" Hailey whispered. Hailey could feel the tears threatening as she held them back.
"You had better stop all of this crying…" Reid stated using the cuff of his sleeve to wipe the tears away. "Sarah told me about your crying fits…"
"I do not have crying fits…" Hailey felt embarrassed, her cheeks turned bright red as she glanced at the blonde. "I just happen to have random outbursts of tears…"
"God you're more of a baby than Tyler…" He groaned. "Will you come with me to talk to him?"
"R-Reid, I don't think I can do that…" Hailey stated shaking her head.
"If you don't agree to it… I'm going to pin you to the ground, text message him and make him come out here and talk to you while I've got you pinned…"
Hailey thought about denying his request, but then knowing Reid knew he would follow through with what he had just said, and that was a little too much body to body contact with the blonde. She gave him a slight nod and Reid grinned, he pulled himself off of the ground and pulled her up to her full height.
"I'm glad you see things my way," He smirked.
Hailey followed Reid back in to the school, he lead her towards the library and she grabbed his elbow, and glanced at him.
"You know where the library is?" She asked.
"Yep," He gave her a look and a naughty smirk appeared on his face.
"Oh, you are sick…" She slapped his shoulder and he laughed.
"You had to ask…"
Hailey shook her head at the thought and followed the blonde as he brought her to the second floor of the library, or the 'stacks' as the kids called them. She stuck her hands in to the pockets of her blue blazer and Reid nodded his head in one direction.
She gave Reid a small smile and went down an aisle of old dusty books, she saw Tyler leaning against he back wall and he was looking down as if trying to gather his thoughts. She cleared her throat as she got closer and Tyler's head snapped up.
"He found you," Tyler stated.
"He did…" She whispered.
Tyler looked her over and a small weak smile formed on his lips, "I've wanted to talk to you the last few weeks now…" He looked her dead in the eye.
"I've wanted to talk to you too," She could feel her hands shaking.
"Then why have you been avoiding me, and Reid?" Tyler asked.
"I'm terrified…" She admitted.
"Of?" Tyler questioned.
"Of what might happen if we talk… I'm just scared…"
Tyler reached out and lifted her chin to look at him, "You don't have to be scared with me…"
"I can't help it," She whispered.
Tyler looked at her almost scared to pull her towards him. He was hurting, but he could tell she was too. He thought against his better judgment and pulled her body in to his. He hugged her as tight as he could, and he felt her nails dig in to his back as she clutched on to him, tears falling from her eyes.
"Tyler, we shouldn't…" She whispered not wanting to let go.
"I know," He whispered resting his chin on top of her head. "I know."
He held her for what seemed like an eternity before letting her go, "I'm so sorry, so-so-so-so sorry…" She repeated over and over again pulling away from him to look up in to his blue eyes. "I miss you so much," She felt another round of tears choking in her throat.
"Hailey…" Tyler pulled away from her, looking down at her.
"Yes?" She asked letting go of him, and taking a step back.
"I want to talk to you about this," He stated putting his hands in his pockets.
"Ok," She took a deep breath, knowing that what he was going to say wasn't what she wanted to hear, but he had to hear it.
"I don't think we should be together…" He sighed and looked down at his hands, "I've been doing a lot of thinking, and I think we should rebuild our friendship before we do anything else…"
Hailey took another step back and her mouth fell open in disbelief, "Tyler,"
"I know it's now what you wanted to hear, but I don't think I can jump back in to this relationship… not after what happened… it wouldn't be fair to me or you…"
Hailey shook her head and smiled, "Are you crazy?" Tyler looked at her confused, "I was expecting for you to tell me you don't ever want to see me again… like ever…" She stated emphasizing her words by talking with her hands.
Tyler looked at her, "Are you crazy?" He asked. She nodded her head to be a bit sarcastic and he smirked, "I'm crazy about you… ok…" He cupped her face in his hands. "I care about you more than I should,"
"I know," She looked down and sighed.
"But, that's not a bad thing…"
"This means so much to me Tyler, you have no idea…"
"Look, if I can forgive my best friend for kissing the love of my life right in front of me, I think I can forgive you for this… those are two very farfetched things I never thought I'd have to forgive anyone for…"
"From now on, no lies, no secrets… I will be one hundred percent honest with you no matter what…" Hailey stated shaking her head.
"And that's another thing…" Tyler had finally let go of her face, "It's going to take some time for me to be able to build back the trust that we had…"
"Trust me I understand, but I won't ever give you a reason not to… ok?" She stated.
"No more secrets… no more lies…" He asked sticking out his hand.
"None, and definitely no more bets…" She stated shaking his hand with a grin on her face.
Tyler let out a small laugh and pulled her closer to his body, wrapping his arms around her in a comforting hug, "Definitely no more bets…"
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