Disclaimer: Unfortunately, I don't own Torchwood. Although, I do have about £20 if the BBC are willing to sell.

Pairings: Gwen/Owen, Gwen/Rhys, Jack/Ianto and Tosh OC.

Summary: Gwen has a hard decision to make, but what will she do?

Rated: T for some bad language and sexual references.

A/N: Obviously AU, Not beta'd, Some slash but nothing explicit. Ratings and reviews are always appreciated!

Gwen couldn't sleep. How had she let herself get into this position? She stared at the dark ceiling, running everything through her head. It was such a hard decision to make and she just couldn't do it. How had she got here? She thought back over everything….

3 Months previously

Gwen was happy, for once. Jack had returned from his "travels" and work was back to normal, whatever normal was. And, a bonus, things seem to back on track with Rhys. And just as she thought about him, she realised that she was home, so she parked her car and made her way up to her flat.

"Rhys?"

"Hello, beautiful! You're home early!" said Rhys sauntering up to her, wearing bright pink oven mitts and a matching apron. Gwen laughed at the sight of her boyfriend and kissed him on the lips before going to her bedroom.

"What delight have you made for tea tonight?"

"We've got lamb hotpot, ready in 2" called Rhys from the kitchen. Gwen smiled, Lamb hotpot- her fave.

Tea hadn't got very far. Infact Gwen had hardly picked up her knife and fork before she found herself in bed with Rhys. And it was the best sex they'd had for a long while. And that was saying something.

But little did Gwen know that within the next 24 hours, her whole happy world would be turned upside down.

Gwen was sat at her desk in the Hub, the next morning.

"What's put that dirty big grin on your face?" asked a cheery Ianto.

"I could say the same for you" she teased.

"Here have some coffee"

"Thanks, Ianto."

He smiled his "no problem" smile and walked away. Gwen was day dreaming about Rhys and just general life and how good it was when Owen walked in. He hadn't been the same since Diane. He realised that she was never going to come back, and he accepted it, but that didn't mean he liked the situation any better.

"Hello, Owen" she said in the most sympathetic voice possible. He grunted a reply and sat at his desk, pretending to do work and pretending not to notice that Gwen was watching him with pity. She looked at his face; his eyes were drawn with dark circles, and he looked older than he was and Gwen felt sorry for him. Just as her life was on the mend, his was downhill again. Gwen went back into her day dreamy world.

Beep. Beep. Beep. Beep. BEEP. BEEP. BEEP. BEEP.

"Alright! Gwen, Owen, Toshiko, Ianto….Into the SUV, I'll explain everything on the way! GO GO GO!" shouted Jack, grabbing his coat.

They all lumbered apprehensively into the SUV, Jack was in the driving seat with Ianto beside him. (This, Gwen thought, seemed to be a regular thing now). She was sat behind Jack, next to Owen, and Tosh was in the very back, with all her computer gear.

"Ok" Jack started, "A man made a call into 999 saying there was a madman on the loose claiming all sorts of things about aliens, but he specifically named Weevils. Now we need to find this guy, calm the public and bring him back to the Hub for questioning. You got it? Now here we are, let's move!"

They all piled out of the car, onto one of the modern streets of Cardiff that ran alongside the bay. They instantaneously saw a huge crowd gathered at one end of the street, with police officers surrounding them. The team ran up the street, pushing through the police and the crowds shouting; "Torchwood" as they ran through. They could tell straight away who this "madman" was. He was standing next to the bay, with a gun in his hand shouting "Stay back! I…I...I'll shoot! I will!"

"Ok love, put the gun down, and come away from the edge of the bay" said Gwen in her most calming police voice.

"YOU!" he cried, swivelling to face her, "YOU!" he said pointing the gun at her, "You stay out of this! It's none of your fucking business!"

"Ok, ok, just calm down, no one needs to get hurt here" Gwen replied.

"I thought I told you to shut up!" And before she realised, he pulled the trigger on the gun. It was like everything was happening in slow motion, Gwen could see the bullet racing towards her, feel it piercing the air, but she was frozen to the spot. Suddenly, Owen jumped in front of her, screaming, and landed onto the ground with a loud thud, followed by a trickling pool of blood around his body.

"Oh my God, I killed him, I bloody killed him." And without another word, the man jumped off the bay and plunged into the deep water below. Gwen fell to her knees beside Owens body.

"OWEN! OWEN!" She shook him violently, tears pouring out of her eyes like a never ending waterfall. The next few minutes were a blur to her, she felt Ianto pushing her away from Owen's still body, she heard the sounds of sirens and didn't realise where she was until she was back in the SUV. The silence engulfed them all, Toshiko was silently crying, Ianto was looking at Jack, with worry, who had a very solemn look on his face.

Unable to control herself, Gwen sobbed out; "It's all my fault! I should have stayed back, let you do your work Jack, Oh my God, Owen's going to die!" and she was crying violently. She felt Toshiko's arms close in around her body and through tears she said;

"It's OK, Gwen it's not your fault."

Gwen stroked the side of Owen's face. He'd been in hospital for a week; he was alive, but unconscious. He was unable to be treated at the Hub as, obviously, he was the resident doctor and none of them had the medical experience to heal a dying man. The mood among the team had become sombre and when the work load was slow, or when they had time, they were beside Owen's bedside.

But it seemed that Gwen hardly ever moved from his side. Jack didn't mind her not being at work, to be honest, after sorting out the man's death there really wasn't that much to do, and he doubted whether she'd be fit to work in the state she's in.

Gwen felt so guilty; if it weren't for her they would all be laughing and joking at work all safe and well. She stroked his cheek again and swear she felt him twitch. She looked madly around; to see of anyone else had seen it. She looked back at Owen and he twitched again.

"Nurse! Nurse!" she called and two nurses ran over, checking Owen's machines and calming Gwen down. He opened his eyes and looked at Gwen.

"Gwen?" He said faintly.

"Oh Owen!" She flung her arms around him, sobbing with relief. "You're alive, oh you're alive!"

"Why did you do it?"

"Hmm?" Owen replied to Gwen, sipping his hot, steaming, mug of tea.

"Why did you save me?" They were sitting in Owen's studio flat; he'd been discharged from hospital a week after he woke up and Gwen had just dropped him home and made him tea.

"It was instinct" he mumbled, almost dismissing the question. Gwen looked at him for a few seconds and he stared back.

"Thank you" she said gently, kissing him on the mouth. But as she pulled away, she felt Owen grasp for more. And before she knew it, they were kissing passionately, but it wasn't like the times before. This time it was needing but gentle, whereas before it was just a craving for sex; animal instinct. They pulled away, looking abashed.

"I better go" Gwen picked up her coat and hurried out his flat.

"Gwen, don't…" Owen started to reply but he didn't finish his sentence as he heard the door slam. He slumped down on his armchair and put his head in his hands with a groan.

The next day at work was awkward, to say the least. Jack and Ianto, relieved at having Owen well and a small work load to deal with, were going round wearing big grins on their faces all day. Toshiko was tired and stressed but also slightly happier now Owen was back. But Gwen was jumpy and quiet and was completely ignoring Owen. He tried and tried to talk to her but she either walked away, said something non-committal or outright ignored him.

Later, Gwen was down in the archives, filing a report about Weevils or something of the sort when she felt heavy, but soft, hands on her shoulders spin her around.

"Gwen, you can't ignore me forever."

"What happened was a mistake Owen, a silly mistake, like before."

"Then why are you ignoring me?" asked Owen accusingly.

"I…I'm not"

"You are and you know why?" Gwen avoided looking into Owen's eyes "Because you know it's something more than before."

"No, you're wrong Owen!" and she stormed out the room. Owen slumped against the wall. It can't be happening again, he thought, especially not her. Oh God, I can't fall in love again.

It was a wet, cold, stormy Friday night and the rain was pouring down hard upon Cardiff City and the rest of Wales, and Gwen Cooper was running through it with no umbrella or rain-mac. She'd got home from work and gone straight out again, not caring about the rain dripping off of every crevice of her body. Her hair was soaking wet, and she knew she would catch a cold, but she didn't care, there was something she had to do. She was running down a road that she knew well. Gwen came to a block of posh studio flats, unlike her own, and went up to the front door. She pushed open the front door with vigour and ran up 4 flights of stairs to the top studio. She knocked on the door hard and urgently. The door was flung open by a dashing dark haired male, and she said;

"You were right" and then kissed him passionately on the lips, "You were so right Owen, it IS something more"

"You're freezing cold, come on get inside and let me get you out of those clothes" and without another word he pulled Gwen inside his flat and they started to kiss and rip each others clothes off.

Things at work were back to normal once more. Gwen and Owen were flirting all day, Jack and Ianto were grinning like the Cheshire cat and Tosh seemed a lot happier with less of a work load and Jack had told Gwen that she had met someone over the weekend. But Gwen didn't bother asking Tosh about it; she'd divulge it in her own time. Plus, Gwen was too busy "accidentally" bumping into Owen and having sex with him. She didn't know what made her change her mind about it being something more. Maybe after the kiss she realised that she missed him. But frankly she didn't care, everyone was happy and that suited Gwen fine.

"Hello beautiful, I'm cooking hotpot!" shouted Rhys as Gwen got through the door.

"Sorry no time for tea, I'm going out, just came to pack some stuff, I'm gonna stay at Vicki's tonight" replied Gwen as she ran into the bedroom to pack a bag.

"Ok, no worries" said Rhys looking crestfallen. Gwen came out the bedroom and headed for the door, not even looking at Rhys, "Do I not get a kiss goodbye?"

"Oh, um, yeah of course" she lightly kissed him on the cheek.

"What perfume are you wearing?"

"I…I'm not" replied Gwen, anxious to get going.

"Oh ok, you just smelt like, I dunno, forget I mentioned it!"

"Ok, well bye then." And with that she was gone.

Rhys knew what her perfume smelt like. It smelt like men's cologne. When did Gwen start using his aftershave? Surely she would have said if she was taking his stuff. He walked over to the window to watch Gwen go; as he sometimes liked to do. He saw her emerge from the foyer and run across the car park. Then he saw Gwen get into a posh sports car. He squinted, maybe he was mistaken. She wouldn't get into a snobs car like that, not normally. But, no, he wasn't seeing things, Gwen definitely got into a blue sports car. It certainly wasn't Vicki's car. So what was she doing? And then Rhys looked closer as the cars engine revved up, and he saw that the driver was a man. Then Rhys put two and two together.

Gwen couldn't stop smiling. She'd had the most amazing night at Owen's. And work had been good too. Infact she was surprised none of the others had noticed anything going on. But then again Gwen had her own suspicions about Jack and Ianto. Well, they weren't really her own. Tosh had asked Gwen if she thought that Jack and Ianto and were an item. This had stumped Gwen, she knew they kissed before but she had thought nothing more of it. But then again she had been wrapped up in Owen for the past 3 weeks. So, Jack and Ianto were doing it and that's why they were happy. She should have guessed before really.

It was finally Friday and Gwen was going to be seeing Owen all weekend. He'd asked her to stay with him from Friday night until Sunday, but first she had to pick up more stuff from her flat.

She felt that something was wrong as soon as she stepped into the flat. She wasn't greeted by Rhys as she normally was. She came into the living room; Rhys was standing there with a serious look on his face, arms folded.

"I suppose you're going out again tonight"

"Um, yeah, actually, some of us are going away for the weekend..."

"Going with Vicki?" asked Rhys accusingly.

"Um yeah…"

"Oh because, she rang earlier, left a message on the answer phone. She asked where you've been the past couple of weeks, and if she was going to see you sometime soon. See, I thought you'd been seeing her a lot recently, but I must be mistaken."

Gwen gulped, but apart form that was completely silent.

"And you haven't been using my aftershave have you? Because you smell like men's aftershave. And last night, who's car did you get into? Hm?"

"Rhys, I'm…."

"You're what, Gwen? I don't want to believe these things I'm seeing but when I put it all together I can only come up with one thing. Please tell me it's not true!"

Gwen burst into tears. "I'm so sorry Rhys"

"Oh my God, it's true, you're having an affair! Well you can go, here I packed you a bag." said Rhys in disbelief, throwing a bag by Gwen's feet and putting his face in his hands and turning away from her. Just then Owen walked through the front door, which Gwen had left open. He was an impatient guy and was also worried about Gwen; she never normally took this long to get her stuff. He walked in and found Gwen crying with Rhys facing the window.

"What's wrong? What's he done?" asked Owen, Rhys turned around.

"WHO ARE YOU?! Are you…" Owen looked at Gwen and she turned to Rhys and nodded her head.

"I'll bloody kill you!" shouted Rhys as he lunged for Owen. But Gwen got in the way and he ended up punching her instead. Realising what he'd done he stood there in shock, not moving. Gwen's lip was bleeding and Owen rushed over to her and took a quick look at it before giving her a hug. He walked over to Rhys and punched him before turning round, grabbing Gwen's bag and storming out the flat, waving his hand for Gwen to follow. She watched Rhys get up, crying, and she tried to help him but he pushed her away. He sat on the sofa sobbing and Gwen whispered "I'm sorry" and then she was gone.

Rhys was lost. He was silly to believe a pretty, talented girl like Gwen would stay with a fat, ugly man like him. Of course she'd pick the handsome man with the flash car. But that didn't make it hurt any less.

Gwen got into Owen's car; she'd stopped crying but was still upset. "Are you OK babe?" asked Owen.

"Just shut up will you!"

"What the fuck have I done now?!"

"I'm upset can't you see? Just leave it!"

"Fine, I help you and all you can do is have a go at me! Just go will you Gwen! Go back to poor old Rhys…"

Gwen opened the door and got out the car. "Fuck you!" she shouted as she slammed the door. A second later Owen skidded away and Gwen was left standing in the rain, with nowhere to go.

She stepped inside and felt the warmth spread over her as the door rolled shut behind her.

"What are you doing here?" asked an American voice beside her.

"Jack! You scared me!"

"Sorry Gwen." He paused. "So…"

"Oh, I, um, I'm sorry, I…" and then she burst into tears. Jack put his arms around her and stroked the side of her face.

"Shh, it's ok. Don't cry. Come and tell us all about it. Come on, up to my office there's a good girl."

Gwen didn't realise at first but Jack was just wearing a T-shirt and his boxers. She almost laughed. They went through into Jack's office and sitting on the sofa with a mug of coffee was Ianto, also in a t-shirt and his boxers. And then she realised. "Oh I'm sorry, I didn't mean to interrupt….." she turned to walk out but she felt Ianto's hand on her shoulder.

"You not interrupting anything anwylyd" he offered her a cup of coffee.

"Thanks Ianto" she smiled and sat on the sofa. Jack took out the chair from behind his desk and sat on it. Ianto came and stood behind him, wrapping his arms over Jack's shoulders.

"Now tell us all about it." said Jack. And so she told them everything that had happened since the day before. It was half an hour later when she had finished her tale and she stifled a yawn.

"I think someone's tired" grinned Jack. "Why don't you sleep on my bed for tonight? And no buts! Me and Ianto will have the sofa."

"Oh Thanks Jack, Ianto" She gave them each a little peck on the cheek and a smile before Jack showed her his bed and she took off her wet clothes and lay down. She was tired but Gwen couldn't sleep. How had she let herself get into this position? She stared at the dark ceiling, running everything through her head. It was such a hard decision to make and she just couldn't do it. How had she got here? She thought back over everything… Owen or Rhys? Owen; handsome, not strapped for cash, passionate, great in bed, clever, caring…..moody, aggressive, sarcastic, or Rhys; Funny, great cook, loving…. but not Owen. Either way, she had some grovelling to do. She groaned and turned over. And then she thought of Ianto and Jack, and that made her smile. Aww bless them, she thought as she drifted off to sleep.

She woke up the next day and had a shower. She didn't know Jack had all this down here. She was grateful. Luckily she had her bag with her, so she had fresh clothes for the day. When she went out into the main Hub area she saw Jack and Ianto sitting at the table, with coffee, laughing. She was so happy for them. She went over to them.

"I'm off now…"

"Good luck" Ianto smiled. Jack nodded with a smile. She went to the Hub car park and got in her car. She had made her decision and she was going to stick to it. She was driving along and then she suddenly thought what if he wouldn't take her back? She started to panic and then she realised she was there. She went up the stairs, tasking two at a time. She knocked on the door and it was opened.

"I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. I love you. I love you so much."

"I love you too Gwen." Said Owen before they started kissing passionately. She went in and he shut the door behind her. "Gwen I think you should move in with me" said Owen "If you want to" he added quickly.

"Of course I want to!" She hugged him, half crying. She nuzzled into the side of his neck, holding him tightly, never wanting this moment to end. She knew she had made the right decision. She wouldn't be able to live without Owen.