Next Friday night, Jackie let me bring Lily along for her first ever clubbing experience. It was going to be fun. And it was going to be the first Friday that I don't plan on going home with Sirius. I planned on heading back to Lily's and I didn't tell Sirius, and I didn't think I actually had to. It's not like we're dating.

"Are you sure this is acceptable?" Lily questioned for the third time since she arrived at my house. She had on a short jean skirt, but less short then anything Jackie would be caught dead in, and a very tight camisole. She actually looked really good, so good in fact that if I swung that way James would be out of luck.

I rolled my eyes at her, "Beyond sure. Lily, you look hot!"

Lily looked me over. I stood in my black micro mini and a tight off the shoulder turquoise top. I love the color turquoise with a passion. "Are you sure? I mean look at you, you're like a goddess!"

"Believe me Lily, I'm not that cute." I laughed. "You'll have guys all over you, don't worry."

She then gave me a suspicious look, "It's not guys all over me that I'm worried about."

"Good." I smirked and grabbed her arm before apparating to Jackie's room. "Hey honey."

"Howdy darlin'!" Jackie laughed and turned to Lily. The brunette's jaw dropped, "Is that your natural hair color?"

Lily blushed a little bit. "Yep."

"I'm jealous!" Jackie exclaimed. I had always thought she was a weird one.

"Thanks." Lily already liked Jackie. It was obvious; all girls love someone who'll compliment them.

I wrapped my arms around their shoulders, "I know you two would love to go on complimenting Lily, but I think we should let some hot, half drunk men compliment her, as well as Jackie and I, instead. Does anyone agree?"

"I do!" Jackie and Lily laughed in unison before the three of us apparated to the club.

Soon, I found myself grinding in a group of people. I was home again! And in a few more minutes, I felt two strong, calloused hands on my hips. I knew it wasn't Sirius, but I didn't care. The way he held on made me feel like, well, I can't describe it, but I sure did like it.

When I felt his breath tickle my ear, I think I gave into anything he wanted to do. It was driving me crazy. Even more so when he whispered, "How bout you and me go back to my place?"

"I think that's the best idea I've heard all week." I grinned and let him drag me out of the center of the dance floor. Once we got to the sitting area, he decided to speed things up and began to kiss my neck.

I giggled as I led him over to an armchair and sat on his lap. We were there, making out for quite some time, but then I felt a strong hand land on my shoulder, and before I knew it, I was being dragged back, off the boy who was a really good kisser.

"What the hell?" a voice growled. I tried to see who it was but with the dim lights I couldn't tell. "Why the bloody hell are you making out with my girlfriend?"

"Your girlfriend?" Both my make out buddy and I questioned.

"Yes, MY girlfriend!" I suddenly figured out who it was. Sirius Black had ruined my make out session and was now yelling at my buddy. What the fuck?

"I'm not your girlfriend!" I screamed. "I can make out with who ever I want!"

Sirius suddenly froze. He took a few steps back, scratched his neck, and stuttered, "I am sorry, so sorry." And then he was gone.

I looked from the exit Sirius used to the guy. I sighed, "I'm sorry, I have to figure out what that was about."

With one last kiss, I left, following Sirius, hoping that he didn't apparate anywhere. And right as I stepped out the door, I saw him sagged up against the wall, his head in his hands.

"What the hell?" I asked, accenting every word.

He looked up with something I've never seen before in his eyes. He was pained in some way, but how? And why?

He sighed, "I'm sorry."

"Explain yourself now!" I demanded.

Sirius inhaled deeply, "It hurt. It physically hurt seeing you on top of him. I don't know why I reacted the way I did, but I'm sort of glad." He suddenly stood up, "Now I can tell you that I am sick of this non relationship. I want something real with you."

"You've got to be kidding me!" I yelled, "I thought you said you weren't looking for a relationship."

"But then I got to really know you, and I have never felt like this about a girl." His grey eyes looked so sad, "I want you to be my girlfriend."

My jaw dropped. Wasn't this supposed to be Hogwarts' most sought after, womanizing bachelor? Wasn't this supposed to be Mister Unattainable? I turned away from him, "No. I told you that first morning I wasn't looking for anything serious, nothing real. You assured me you didn't want one either?"

Sirius looked truly hurt, "Won't you just think about it?" he practically begged.

"Because if I start dating you, I'll get attached and then I'll have to leave for school and then I'll be broken hearted. So will you!" I pointed out. I had my reasons of not getting into a real relationship.

"I don't care." Sirius stood up, "I just want to spend now with you and not care about the future. I just want to be with you."

I rolled my eyes and let out a small growl, "I like being with you, too, but not in a real relationship. Just physical, so why do you have to ruin everything?"

Sirius didn't reply. Instead, he leaned in and kissed me in the most passionate kiss I've ever had. But that didn't change matters, did it?

I pulled away, "Don't."

He smiled at me and leaned in, "Just think about it." And with that, the boy apparated off.

I sat down with my back to the club. I put my head in my hands and took a deep breath. He couldn't be doing this, not now, not ever! What gave him the right to try and tie me down?

"Ama?" I heard a tentative voice ask. I looked up to see Lily who collapsed onto her knees at my side, "I am so sorry, I heard everything!"

"It's fine," I smiled at her, "I'm going over to James' tomorrow, and that'll be the last time I ever see Sirius Black."

"If you say so." Lily hugged me.

As I drifted off to sleep, alone, I couldn't help but wonder what it'd be like to have a steady boyfriend. Would Sirius be the kind girls dream about, or was he scum? Sure there was one way to find out, but I was just going to ignore that.