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Bella's POV

I sat nervously on my bed that night, waiting for my midnight visitor. I had been going over in my head the kiss I shared with Jasper all evening. The tingle I felt down my spine each time my memory wandered to him worried me, causing me more confusion in my already distressed state. I cared for him...that I was sure of. I just didn't know why it was happening now. Of course I knew that we wouldn't have had the chance to get to know each other if all was good in our love lives, but was the reason I had developed feelings for him due to rebound?

No, it's just because of him.

Feeling a sense of resolve, I paced to my window and pulled the wood down, closing it to my past.

There, I've made a decision...what if it's wrong?

Quickly I pulled the window open once more and waited for Edward to arrive. I lay on my side in the bed, with my back to the window so that I didn't stare; waiting, for any period of time. An hour later he appeared.

Hey was sitting on the window sill, looking relieved.

"Hey...are you alright?"

I looked at him in return and felt my anger return to me. I snorted my response; "I've been better."

He nodded his head in understanding and began his apologies. "I know and I'm sorry for being the cause of your pain again."

He looked so desperately sad, I felt my resolve begin to waver, "so what do you need to talk to me about Edward...I really don't need to know the details of your encounter."

He looked solemn as he took in my exasperated tone and expression of anger, "I know you don't, but I wanted to answer any questions you might have about that night. I want you to know the truth about everything so that you can decide if you will ever want me again."

My questions came out fast; they were hurried partly due to the fury inside and partly due to fear. These were all questions I had asked in my mind, yet I was afraid of the answers.

"How about...how was it? How many times, how often? WHEN?!"

He sighed and sat beside me on the bed, us both looking in different directions. "It happened one and only time and will NEVER happen again. It was the worst mistake of my life."

I felt relief flood me as he said those words and I whispered my response.

"And here, I thought I was your worst mistake."

He looked appalled at this and took my face in his hands; forcing me to stare into his black eyes which were worryingly alluring.

"Don't you ever think that! You're the best thing in this world. You are everything in my world."

Tears formed in both our eyes then. "Then why did you do this to me?"

"I'm sorry."

I couldn't let myself fall apart in front of him. I wouldn't. I put the anger barrier back up wishing I could support it with steel as it swayed in an unsteady rhythm.

"You didn't answer all my questions." I whispered.

He dropped his hands from my face, noting the change in my tone and looked ashamed once more.

"It happened the night I left you and the act was perfect despair."

A sob escaped from my lips.

"So while I was lying broken in the middle of the woods, praying for you to come back to me...you were laying in bed with," my voice broke, "...her."

"We didn't plan it, it happened because I left you!"

Suddenly the steel was in place to support my wall and I acted with as much venom I could muster. I clapped quietly; mocking him.

"Wow, that decision really wasn't your finest moment was it?"

He was shocked that his sweet innocent Bella could muster this much strength to fight back, but I held onto my anger, willingly showing him the damage he had done. He looked so upset with tears pouring from his now dead eyes.

"I know and I regret the whole thing every day- leaving you, and then what I did because of it. I will never forgive myself." He paused. "Do you think you will ever be able to forgive me?"

"I don't know, I can't decide right now, there's too much to think about. Can you leave now please, I'm very tired." I kept a monotone voice, masking my feelings and causing him to suffer slightly more. He simply nodded.

"Ok, I understand...I'm always here Bella if you ever need anything." Then swinging his leg over the windowsill he looked back at me as though memorising my face.

I blinked and then he was gone.

I let the tears fall that I had been holding. I didn't know how to save myself from the pain but I knew one person who could. At that moment he was all I needed in the world. I reached for my phone and called him. It rang twice and I spoke without waiting for his voice on the other end of the line.

"I need you", I cried. The call disconnected without a reply, yet I knew he would come back to me.

Ten-minutes later, he was lying beside me in bed, his cold arms circled around my waste holding me while I cried. As he had said earlier; whilst standing in my home, he was here when I wanted him.

He tightened his arms around me; kissing my hair, and I fell into a deep slumber using Jasper's protection.