Hey so here is the next chapter about Summer's thoughts and I really hope that you like it!!!

"Summer honey I am so sorry she didn't make it." Neil Roberts told his daughter Summer that her best friend just died in a car accident.

Whenever I'm down, I call on you my friend
A helping hand you lend, in my time of need so I

Summer's heart stopped. She literally couldn't feel anything. She just nodded and said okay and walked upstairs to her room. She was walking around barefoot, but not feeling the cold tiles of her stairs beneath her feet. She didn't feel the soft texture of her carpet once she was in her room.

I'm calling you now, just to make it through
what else can I do, don't you hear my please
Friends may come and friends may go

Summer didn't do anything. She didn't know what to do. So she stood there for hours just staring at nothing. Not thinking, not remembering, not anything. Her heart hadn't started beating still. That probably should have been bad, but Summer didn't notice.

Finally when her phone rang for about the hundredth time she went over to it. She looked at the caller ID and for a second she could have sworn that it said 'Coop' with her number underneath the name. Her breath caught as she opened the phone, only to be disappointed to see Seth's number instead. She didn't answer she closed her phone and tossed it aside.

But you should know that
I've got your back, it's automatic

Wishful thinking.

Summer sat on her bed expecting to feel the softness of her mattress and the silky feel of her purple sheets. She didn't. Once again that should have alarmed her, but she didn't notice. She looked at her nightstand and saw the picture of all four of them in Tijuana three years ago. All smiles no worries just them being them selves having fun. Unfortunately that was before Marissa saw Luke cheating on her and she took all of those pills.

So never hesitate to call
Cuz I'm your sister and always for ya and I

She should have felt something when she looked at a photo of Marissa, but she didn't. She couldn't change it she wouldn't try. She would just have to accept it or at least that was what she told herself. Summer looked across the bathroom into her bedroom. Still clean just as she had left it. It almost looked like no one had ever been there, Kaitlin had already took everything of Marissa's away and put it in a box. There was no real proof that Marissa had ever occupied that room anymore.

I don't know what I'd ever do without you
From the beginning to the end
You've always been here right beside me
So I'll call you my best friend
Through the good times and the bad ones
Whether I lose or If I win
I know one thing that never changes and
That's you as my best friend

Summer sighed. She was empty. She couldn't feel. She didn't need to feel to know that she was empty she just was. Marissa is dead. 'She's dead.' Summer thought.

Whenever I'm down
with all that's going on, it's really going on

The second she thought that all of the color drained from her face. She looked at the picture again and instead of feeling nothing she felt everything. She looked at Marissa's smiling face and she felt pain. She would never get to see her best friend smile like that again. She would never get to see her best friend again. Period.

Just one of those days
you say the right thing, to keep me moving

Images of her childhood with Marissa came back to her all at once. Everything they had ever been through every laugh, every tear and all of their talks. That was what made them true best friends was the fact that they talked about everything no matter what it was. Marissa knew absolutely everything about her and vice versa. She would never tell Marissa anything to her face again. Summer doubled over in pain.

To keep me going strong, what else can I say?

She couldn't breath. It was like all of the air had just disappeared. She clutched her sides and yelped when a stabbing pain went right through her chest. She was actually coming apart. She clutched harder to her sides and her breathing became more and more shallower by the second.

Friends are there through thick and thin
Well I've been told that

She started to shake her head ignoring the pain, just concentrating on the fact that her best friend in the whole world was gone, dead. It couldn't be true she refused to actually believe that Marissa was gone forever. It was a joke; a sick joke and Marissa, Seth and Ryan would call her later and just say that they were kidding. Summer shook her head again because she knew that wouldn't happen.

And I believe that it's automatic
Call me when you need a friend

She panicked and the sudden emotion just brought on a new wave of pain, and it crashed down on her harder than anything ever had before on Summer's body. She didn't cry though she wanted to she knew that she should, but for some reason she just couldn't. Her breathing was now almost nonexistent. She was shaking uncontrollably and her nails dug into her sides so hard that they broke through her skin and a small trickle of blood poured down both of her sides. At least she was feeling something even though it wasn't pleasant.

Cuz I'm your sister and always for ya and I don't know

Summer was scared she didn't know what was happening. She needed to see Marissa. She wasn't dead, she couldn't be. Summer thought maybe she should go to the airport and stop Marissa from going to Greece for a year. There was no way that when she said goodbye to her that it was forever. She just wouldn't accept that.

I don't know what I'd ever do without you
From the beginning to the end
You've always been here right beside me
So I'll call you my best friend
Through the good times and the bad ones
Whether I lose or If I win
I know one thing that never changes and
That's you as my best friend

She fell over onto her side. Her hair fell onto her face, but she didn't touch it. She just laid there still holding herself together afraid if she let go then she would just shatter into thousands of pieces on her floor. She was still shaking and she couldn't stop. Summer put all of her thoughts and energy into breathing and not shaking, but nothing was working.

After trying for a few more minutes she just stopped. Stopped moving, stopped breathing completely, stopped functioning all together. Summer lay on her floor still as a statue. If anyone saw her they would assume she was the one who was dead not Marissa. But Marissa wasn't dead. She kept telling herself that. Too bad she wasn't listening.

I don't know what I'd ever do without you
From the beginning to the end
You've always been here right beside me
So I'll call you my best friend
Through the good times and the bad ones
Whether I lose or If I win
I know one thing that never changes and
That's you as my best friend

Summer isn't sure at all how one second it was dark outside and the next time she opened her eyes it was bright and sunny outsider her window. She didn't move though. She was still in the same spot on her floor between her bed and the bathroom door. Her dark locks of hair were still in her face. She hadn't moved a muscle all night.

Marissa is dead. She wasn't coming back. Not ever.

I'll be there for you
when you're going through,

Summer found her self-getting up without moving, walking to her dresser without knowing why or how. She saw nothing but pictures of she and Marissa on top of it. It was strange as she looked at all of the years passing right before her eyes as they aged in each different picture she didn't feel pain.

She didn't feel happy, sad, angry, or grief. But why would she? She thought that there was a reason, but she couldn't remember. She didn't feel anything. She couldn't think of the last time that she actually felt something.

Summer didn't remember the night before when she heard the worst new she would ever hear in her life. She didn't loose her sister/best friend in a car accident last night. No she was on her way to Hawaii and then off to Greece, she would call her later.

Wouldn't you be my friend
Friend you can count on me

Summer looked at the picture on her night table and when she usually did she would feel a wave of joy and nostalgia about when they were the happy core four when they were whole. Summer didn't feel whole for some reason. She didn't question it. She didn't care and she still wasn't sure why.

Call me when you need me

She made her way into the bathroom to take a shower as she started to undress she saw the blood stained clothes that she was wearing. She looked confused, and didn't recall why they would be like that. Maybe she bought them like that. Summer didn't know.

I don't know what I'd ever do without you
from the beginning to the end

She looked into Marissa's room, but nothing was really in it. Maybe that wasn't Marissa's room anymore was it ever? She turned on the water without feeling the temperature and she got in and spent a good twenty minutes doing her routine that she did everyday. She didn't have to think about it she just did it.

You've always been here right beside me
so I'll call you my best friend

Summer didn't think as she dried off or when she saw her reflection in the mirror. The person looking back didn't look like what Summer thought she looked like. Maybe she never really saw her own reflection before now.

Through the good times and the bad ones
whether I lose or if I win

Summer didn't do anything anymore. If she did she would never remember doing it. She can't remember the last time that she felt something or did anything worthwhile. Maybe there was something wrong, but Summer didn't know. She didn't think anymore, because if she thought than she would remember and Summer didn't remember anything anymore.

I know one thing that never changes and
that's you as my best friend

She got dressed effortlessly not paying any attention to what she put on. She did her make up to perfection and sat on her bed for a while just staring. She didn't know what to do. She was empty and wasn't sure why. It had been a ridiculously long time since she breathed one breath or that her heart beat one time. She probably should have been worried or concerned, but she didn't notice and more importantly she didn't care.

I don't know what I'd ever do without you
From the beginning to the end
You've always been here right beside me
So I'll call you my best friend
Through the good times and the bad ones
Whether I lose or If I win
I know one thing that never changes and
That's you as my best friend

Thanks for reading I hope that you liked it!! Please review and tell me what you think it is so important to me and I promise to post the third and final chapter about Ryan as soon as I can and I promise to try to make it as amazing as possible!! Thanks and that song is Best Friend by Brandy!!!