The war, my life, my feelings.. Which first?
I love you...
And I hate everything about you.
Go to burn in hell... But take me with you.
Jou POV
I was out in the dark, standing there. Not one of the guards had seen me. Which made it ironic that the blue- eyed officer came up to me.
"What are you doing, mutt?"
That voice. The cold one, that I loved to hear.
"Um..."
"Answer me, MUTT!", the guard said, spitting out the last word with contempt.
"Well... I was looking for the bathroom... I kinda need to... um, y'know...",I replied. Of course, I didn't really need to go. I just did this to get the guards attention. And it... worked?
The guard rolled his eyes.
"Listen, mutt. I don't care wether you need to use the bathroom or not. your not allowed out of your bunk after curfew. So go back to your bunk and hold it in."
"But... I honestly need to go... like... really bad..."
"..."
"C'mon, pleeeeeaaaase????"
I pouted, and blushed a little... that and I added puppy dog eyes for good measure.
The guard froze for a little while, as if he was unsure of what to do.
"Look, mutt--"
I cut him off.
"So your gonna let me use the bathroom? THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!"
He gave me an exasperated look.
"The bathroom is in the back of the barrack. You have two minutes, mutt. Understand?"
"My names not mutt, it's Katsuya Jonouchi. And THANK YOU!!!!!"
I ran over to my barrack, and the guard walked off to finish his rounds.
A few minutes later, I heard the sound of someone yelling-
"SHUT THE HELL UP!"
It was the guard. The blue eyed one.
I closed my eyes in my bunk, and thought of a song that my mom would sing before she died.
Where fears and lies melt away...
What's left of me... What's left of me... now.
I watch you... fast asleep.
All I fear, means nothing..
and you and i... there's a new light..
my sanctuary.. my sanctuary now... where fears and lies... melt away...
Just that one verse. Jou remembered how his mother would hold him when something bad happened... and she would sing that song.
Until she died.
His sanctuary... what exactly was that now? He was here. In Aushwitz. All he held dear had been taken away from him... excluding the fillings. He had never felt very attached to those. Then again, who would feel attached to some pieces of gold filling holes in your teeth? No one, right?
Jou closed his eyes and smirked. He felt something move beside him. It was the boy. He had snuggled up to his chest, trying to get a little warmer.
Jou put his arm over him and held him close.
His sanctuary. Where was that? Where was his sanctuary? Was there even a sanctuary for him now that him and others like him had ascended into a virtual hell?
There was no sanctuary here... no comfort... nothing.
How could God let this happen to them? How could he let his people suffer like this? Did he really love them? Or was this punishment for sinning?
Jou mentally slapped himself. God cared. This was a test. And God would show him the good in this situation, if he thought hard about it.
The guard. His enemy. Love your neighbors, love your enemy's.
The guard was his escape route. His life raft. Thinking of the guard, Jou pulled the young boy closer and fell asleep, a smile on his face.
He awaited the next day, wanting to see the blue eyed guard. And then he realized- he didn't know the guard's name. He had to have a name. Everyone did. So what was his?
Jou wondered... and wondered... and eventually fell asleep, thinking of the guard. And he drifted into a black abyss.
In his dreams, he saw the guard, floating there. He tried to shout his name, to get his attention, to get him to open his ice-blue eyes.
But then he remembered that he didn't know his name. And whenever he tried to speak, the darkness filled his mouth, his throat, and strangled him. He couldn't speak, he could only try to get closer to the guard. He made it close enough to reach out, but when he did, something stopped him. A barrier. A plate of glass. He could see the guard, he was so close, and yet he eluded him. No matter how hard Jou tried, he couldn't penetrate the glass wall that stood between him and the one he loved.
He pounded on the glass, yelled, screamed, he tried everything that he could think of to get the guard to open his blue eyes.
Nothing would work. The guard kept his eye's closed, never moving.
There was a metallic click, and then a bang. He felt something wet drip down his arm. Blood. He turned around, and saw the blue eyed guard there, pointing his gun at him.
'What--!?'
Another bang. This time in his chest. He was dead. And the guard had shot him. The one that he loved. He drifted through the darkness, let it envelope him. Without noticing, he drifted through the glass plate, into the guard. He felt arms around him. It as the guard. He was dead here... and he was with the guard. But the guard was on the other side of the glass... so how?
How?
How?
How...?
How...
He was awoke by a loud yell.
"Get u, animals! NOW!"
He groaned. Another day in hell.