Promises Are All Talk Chapter 2

If you recall me saying that my mother died a week after I was born from bleeding and contusions is because she had. I meant to say that Fala killed my foster mother and father. When I had been five, Fala came to my home and killed my mother and injured my dad. My foster parents hid their pain well enough where I remember them always laughing even after she had been killed and turned into one of them. Okay, I should make this clear: Fala had another vampire turn my mother. Actually she had some guy named William; I only remember meeting a tall man with a long leather coat and very blond hair. I was scared when I opened the door and invited them inside. I was already asleep when William and Fala killed my foster mother and Will turned her. My foster father used magic to restrain her from harming him and me. During the day it wasn't that bad, she was weak from lack of blood he gave her, I would later find out when she tells me herself. I had no idea that I practically killed her myself by inviting them inside.

I remember dreaming about the same blond haired man coming into my room as I slept and snapping my neck. I would wake up screaming for my mum, my father came instead.

My best friend Eddy was always with me during the times after I had those nightmares. Eddy and I would go into my foster mother's room and ask her how she was doing and she's turn away and say she was sorry for everything- always before I got to find out why she was sorry, did my dad come and get me from the room. Gloria, my foster mother spent a good percent of my life in bed; and Benny, my foster dad, spent more than most of my life trying to make her better. I was always sad back then when I was human and five-years old. They would send me away for weeks at a time during school, to Ireland where Benny's own parents lived. They only loved me as much as they had because I was a good kid; I never complained and rarely threw fits-even at five years old. I could have been told to do something and I usually did it unless if I was watching cartoons or a kid movie. My other grandparents (Gloria's mum and dad) were already placed in an old-folks home by the time their daughter had been killed and turned into a vampire. Grandma and Grandpa took me to see them every Friday and Tuesday whenever I was with them. My foster parent's last name was 'Riddell' with Voldemorts being 'Riddle'. I knew that wasn't a coincidence… but fate. There's no such thing as a coincidence, remember that.

Gloria and Benny would spend nights making potions and using spells to try to reverse the deathly fate on his wife. I wouldn't find out until I turned seventeen. During the school years with Eddy at Hogwarts we were always together and he always asked about Gloria. With the two of us being in Slytherin together he didn't have to look far to try to find me. Gloria would always write and say she was doing better; when I went home for Christmas and summer break, I knew she was lying to me. She looked worse every time. For twelve solid years Gloria and Benny lied to me, loved me, and feared what lay ahead. For six out of the twelve, while I was school they housed beaten vampires who had no where to go. The vampires left without complaint when I came back home and I had no idea.

'I had no idea'…not until I came home one day after my seventeenth birthday, six days after- to find my mother and father had been fighting physically. I entered our home, Laney; our pure bred, full grown Dalmatian had spots of blood on her clean coat. I screamed for Benny and Gloria but I only heard the soft cries of my foster mother; running upstairs got me killed… Fala had been waiting and she finally figured I was old enough so she turned me herself. It was midnight when I had died and woke as a vampire the same day my real mother had died.

I cried when I woke to find Benny still there, wasting away. Laney was doing it doggie style as she cried and whined for food to eat and water. Gloria was no where for me to find. I would spend the day searching and come home to get kidnapped by my real father, Lord Voldemort... You already know what happened at the Riddle House. My foster parents were my life, they took care of me and after Benny's funeral that summer… my life was gone. I loved calling that man 'dad' or 'father' or wishing him a happy birthday or Christmas. He always gave the best gifts ever. One year he promised to get me whatever I wanted; well I wanted a dog and he said no. The following he did the same exact thing. Finally after about five Christmas's he finally got me a dog. Laney became my baby in a sense, that pooch has to have the light on when she goes down into the basement where my room used to be. We moved it up to the second floor later on (the vampires took control of the basement).

….

At school that same day Fala threatened my life, I went to the lake and found Hydra and Hydro, the Water Fairy twins. They became my good friends over the years and in my second year they finally showed me how to make ice skates using my gifts that they passed onto me. I was then taught how to use the skates when I went home for Christmas. I came back and showed off for them….

James, Sirius, and Remus and their small friend came down and got my attention, I waved up at them and they came down and I met them. "What's going on?" I asked them.

"How's your dad?"

"James, don't ask me that." I muttered. Hydra came over and took my pinky finger and led me over to the other side of the lake and away from the Marauders.

We walked the forest for a while before I came across Edam; he took me by the waist and held me against a tree. I grunted when he did this, my head hit the truck.

I'm not sure if I mentioned this, but vampires are very sexual creatures.

"You're drunk Edam," I told him, he shook his head and ran his hand up my uniform skirt. I kneed him and he tried to hit me but I stopped it and hit him instead. "Go home, get away-." He was suddenly gone; the branch he was going to use on me wasn't there.

Was I going insane now? I hoped not!

I shook my head and left the forest to find that Peter and his three leader friends were waiting for Hagrid at his hut. He had gone off somewhere and as I went past them Sirius ran over to me and stopped me from going any further by taking my hand. I closed my eyes and prayed I was hallucinating again.

He turned me around and held me close, I stared at him. "Sirius stop this please, I can't do this with you anymore."

"Do what Resa, I was you back. Can't you accept that?" he was scared. "I need you back, I till lo-."

I put my hand over his mouth and lowered it when I felt confident he wasn't going to say it anymore. "Sirius I don't love you anymore," I told him. Telling him a convincing lie could help him to move on, "I love someone else, he's- he's a muggle but he's good for me. Practical and romantic and… he's, just a good person. Comes from a wonderful family-."

"I came from a good home Resa." He interrupted, I shook my head. He stared at me, "You said you loved my parents, Regulus was like your brother-in-law already."

"Sirius, I need someone I can leave without looking back. I need someone I can never love," I whispered. Inside I was dying I think, I felt weak and I turned and ran up to my hidden room. He only stared after me; I felt his eyes cry for him. He left James and the other there without him as he came up after me to his own Common Room. James abandoned Hagrid's place and they went after him; Sirius told them in a muffed voice what I had told him. His face had been buried in his pillow so they couldn't see him crying. James kept his hand over them and Remus pulled out the map and used it to find my location. I was had been in the library instead of my room, I needed to find something in there. For the first time I didn't have the right book I needed.

James turned me around so suddenly I yelled out, "James- I guess he told you what I said?" they nodded; Sirius wasn't with them but close by trying to listen.

"Why did you do that, how could you do that?"

"Would you rather I kill him my loving him James Potter," I sighed. "Look I know- he knows I loved him more then anything. But things happen and sacrifices have to be made to people that we love. Don't take this the wrong way, but I love each and every one of you. So with that in mind… stay the hell away from me." I snapped and hurried from the library, I left the book there; I didn't need it anymore.

Alone in my room I had fallen asleep and the dream I had was black, meaning I didn't dream at all…. I woke alarmed and on consequence.

He spoke first, I never wished I was dreaming more then that day. "Well good afternoon Gwin," Arubey chuckled, he turned from the book shelf to me. He ripped a page and threw it in the fire. I cursed and he jumped back and three novels came out and hit him in the face, the back and the groin. He growled at me and threw the entire book into the fire. I groaned.

"That was the original copy," I cried. "Arubey, why?" I yelled. He came over to me, I was glad I knew magic and he didn't. He came over to me and I stepped back. I never said I was brave even though I knew magic. I fell back onto the couch again and he came over me. He hovered above my face; his vampric teeth scared the hell out of me. They were longer then they should be-well longer then mine; of course mine could be shorter then they should be. He had a chipping layer of black paint on his arm as if deciding if he liked the drawing enough to get it as a tattoo. It was a snake's tail coiling around his arm from the elbow to his wrist.

The sexuality kicked in for him and he lowered himself on me, I kept my hands on his hips and kissed me gingerly. He brought his hand down and I felt the cold skin on his palm lay on my thigh and go up under my uniform skirt. I made a mental note to write a personal letter to the school board. I groaned when he touched me, he grinned as he brought the skirt up. I found that I was pleased that I had the experience; he was just under five thousand at that time, he had PLENTY of experience.

He turned us around so he under me, I kept a leg on each side of him; Arubey undid his jeans and moved me over him better. He kissed me harder this time; I wasn't sure and still am not, if I was doing this with him because I felt guilty still about Padfoot for because I wanted him too. You all must realize that is my life I'm telling you and I had been intoxicated with grief about Sirius.

I scared and motionless as he took control everything I did in those short minutes.

I wanted to stake myself a week later when I realized that the 'sleeping' with Arubey was something I wanted to try for a longer period of time. I nearly did stake myself once, but that's another story for another time. I left with the other students when we went to Hogsmead; I was leaning against the railing that blocked Remus's hideaway from the students and other people in the village. Severus was almost killed last year because of that, I broke up with Sirius when I found out it was him who tricked him into trying to infiltrate the Shrieking Shack. Arubey came up behind me and kissed my neck; however when I turned to look at him, he wasn't there. I sighed and shook him from my head as Severus, Eddy, and Travis came over the small hill.

Sev wouldn't come as close as we were. Eddy came up behind me and held me as he hugged me, then he let me go and stood next to me. Travis turned to me, "Why are you here?"

I shrugged, "I honestly have no idea." It was a lie; I wanted that hallucination to become true. I had hoped that if I was alone for a while, the vampire would come to me. Instead I got my three boys, well two since Severus Snape was avoiding the Shack on purpose.

I looked at Travis and Eddy and bowed my head and stood up straight and left the area. Fala was calling me again….

That night Tom Riddle gave them this:

It was the same night that he kidnapped me and brought me back to the Riddle House. Nagini kept an eye on me while I sat and watched him pace the room; he was muttering angrily to himself.

"Please, Tom I just want to find Gloria-."

"No," he interrupted and turned to me.

"She's the only mother I have left! I need to find her Thomas!" I had finally yelled, I got up but he made me sit back down. I heard Fala, "Fala is calling me; I have to go to her-."

"You are staying here until I figure out what to do!" he screamed at me, he was about ten feet away. The words echoed all around the room.

I put my hand over my mouth and tried not to cry, "Father." I said in a hushed whisper, he stepped forward. "If I ignore her calls, she'll have me killed for avoiding her. I'm your daughter, don't you care what happens to me, even a little?" I turned away from him when he shook his head. "What did I ever do to you?" I whispered so quietly that he made me repeat what I said. This time I yelled, "What in the bloody hell, have I ever done to you? Tell me so I can help you get over it and I can move on!" I yelled, I got up this time. He pointed his wand at me, I snatched it from his hand and he stepped back. Lord Voldemort wasn't used to having someone smaller than him, stand up to him. I finished in a calmer tenor, "Tell me, please father, what I have to do for you to let me be uncontrolled." I handed him the wand back. It was white and had knobs and was lighter then mine.

He grinned at me and took my right hand, "You want to help me, daughter of mine?" I nodded.

"Yes, I want to help you get over this thing, so I can get on with my life." I sighed.

He smiled and nodded, "Fine, kill someone for me-."

I stepped back, "Sorry?" I frowned.

"Kill this witch," he handed me a picture. I handed it back to him, "What Resa, you said you wanted to help me?" he wheedled. I shook my head.

"Do you know who this is?" I asked as I took the photo back, the five men saw my hand was quivering. He nodded grinning from behind me, "This is Evans," I whispered. James came over to me and tried to take the photo but Peter reminded him that they were like ghosts, not seen or heard and can't grab things. "This is James's girl, I can't kill her. Or him or the others," I told Voldemort, turning back to him. He groaned slightly.

"I'm very disappointed in you Resa Riddle."

"It's Riddell," I corrected.

"Not tonight, right now in your home you are Riddle, not Riddell."

"I can't kill Lily Evans, dad! I just can't." I cried finally, I was breaking down in front of the one person I never wanted to cry in front of. Somehow I managed to take control and stop before I actually started.

"What about that werewolf or Black, Potter?" he offered, I shook my head. "I'm very disappointed in you Resa." He said calmly, he went over to the fireplace. I screwed up my face into a way that it helped me not to cry. "It'd be easy, I promise-."

"Don't make me promises, murder is never easy. It takes a demon, to do such a thing. That's something that the-."

"It's a gift," then he told me something I'll never forget: "It's not about good, it's not about bad, and it's about power." He paused and I bit my lip, "I can help you gain as much power as me, Resa if you do this for me. You'll be given so many chances, I swear. Just take your wand and run it along their throats-."

"Stop it!" I yelled, I was begging. Small tears came down my face now, he chuckled. "Dad I can't kill them, any of them-."

"Why not, they'll kill you first and you know it Resa. When they find out who you are and what you now are, they'll have you destroyed. You can save your life by killing them first-." I shook my head. "What? You'd die for them all?"

I turned to look at him, "Yes."

"Then you're a fool. They'll betray you and you know it-."

"They have no reason too." I whispered. Voldemort laughed, Nagini laughed, "Stop it Nagini!" I snapped turning to her, I spoke snake. I turned to face him finally, "Father. Please don't make me kill James and Lily, they have nothing to do with this prophecy you're convinced of-."

"OF COURSE THEY DO!" he roared, I closed my eyes when he started yelling at me. I opened them when I felt his breath on my face. "That Mudblood and Potter-."

"Can't die for something they don't even have anything to do with." I finished hopefully. I added, "Don't call Lily a 'Mudblood' dad, you're a-." he cast a spell at me finally loosing his temper enough too. I was thrown back into a wall and I hit my head and fell down to the floor. I fell and twisted my ankle, but he didn't know because I didn't get up. Sirius yelled and James grabbed his arm, reminding him they were dreaming and that I was fine; Sirius was still scared.

Instead I sat up and sat with my back against the wall, "Don't you even mention His name Resa; you have his blood in your veins too! That poison bastard, he left her alone. I promised myself, when I found out, I never would-."

"Does that mean you loved my mother?" I whispered, he said nothing. I looked away from him finally when Nagini came over to me, I spoke the language again. "Nagini get away from me, stay away or face your fate-."

"Don't threaten my snake!"

"Then don't make me kill Lily and James!" I yelled.

"Why?" he asked me interested, "Do you think of them as family now?" I said nothing, I only shook my head. I could only think about Sirius, he came over to me and knelt down before me. There was a knock on the door and a Death Eater entered. "Good you're here, take her to her room and make sure she stays there. I'll deal with her later." He said in a completely calm tone, I hated his voice then. Then, he changed his mind, he came over to me and held my chin in his palm, it was colder then mine. "Do you love any of them?" I said nothing, he laughed. "Of course you love them all. This time next month you'll be dead and they won't give a damn," he whispered in my face.

I sighed out so slowly I thought I'd never get to the end, "You're wrong dad, Sir-."

"Black is nothing against you, he used you Resa and deep down you know you don't love him in return. That feeling is a joke and when you say it, it's a lie." He told me, I shook my head again.

I closed my eyes the entire time, so I wouldn't see his face, "Even if he doesn't- I will always love him Father. When he finds out what I am: you're daughter… what we had been real. You can never have something like that because everyone is afraid of you," I told him, I opened my eyes. He was close. "You will never know what love feels like. James and Lily know; you want them dead because you hate them because they get that feeling and hope of something better to come." He raised his wand again, "You can use your wand on me, but you won't kill me. Not now, not ever. My single hope of you being killed by James and Lily is there dad; that prophecy has one hell of an outcome. I can't wait to see it," I said nearly laughing. I stood up and walked myself from the room. "Their blood will live on!" I yelled over my shoulder. He growled and threw a glass vase into a near by wall. The Death Eater offered to have me killed; Voldemort wouldn't let him and cursed when he realized I was right.

James went to wait for Lily that morning, as soon as she was touchable, he took her and held her tightly in his arms and walked with her everywhere for the next several days. I had noticed and asked Peter what they were doing together so much; Remus and Sirius ignored me.

"I have no idea, he missed her I think," he mumbled.

I chuckled, "I feel bad for whoever hurts her." I muttered and turned to leave, James looked at me as I passed.

"Resa!" I stopped and waited, "Thanks for- saving us." I frowned.

"What are you talking-?"

Eddy stood up right then, and pulled me from the Great Hall, "Come on, we'll be late." Eddy snapped finally and managed to pull me from the Great Hall, Lily smiled at me as I turned back to them. I frowned and followed Eddy to Transfiguration.

I was sitting in the back with my three guys when I heard Fala again, I told her in my head to leave me alone. I was in class; I just got her message when the door opened. "Professor?" he stopped.

I turned right to her, she looked around and winked at me, I felt my jaw drop. "Yes, Miss-?"

"I'm just here to speak with my daughter; there's been a death in the family. Resa, come." She actually looked happy, that's what made people unsure.

"What are you-?" she grabbed my hand and pulled me from the room. "What, did you kill Durke finally," I whispered as I closed the doors. I was only half joking, the rest was hopeful.

She turned to me finally when no one was around, "Why aren't you dead yet. I sent Arubey at least ten times," I frowned. She named them off, "During the summer- not long after your rebirth, while here at school. Last week, six days, twice in a day, then the…"

"I get it Fala, I haven't- I mean, I have seen him. But I'm always surrounded by people. He won't kill me in front of them." I was lying for him now. I wanted to hit something. She only grunted and growled and turned to leave, the bell rang.

My Transfiguration class came from the classroom; she came up close to me as a few people turned to look at us. She pushed a bottle of Holy Water in my hand, I bit my lip. "When you come to London in June, I'll kill you myself." She promised.

I was glad promises in my life… always end up broken.