Return to Life Chapter 4
Voldemort looked at me once, and then he turned to James and Lily. I threw Edam off of me, Nickolas and Christopher stepped back. Arubey hurried over to me, I turned and hit him so hard I hurt my fist and he fell back. I jumped over in front of James and Lily.
"You were telling the truth in saying you'd give-."
"James, shut up and find a way out. If you die, he takes over and our world is as good as gone." I snapped.
"Resa, come!" Voldemort called, I stayed still.
"Why does he want you, I thought you were protecting us?" Lily whispered.
I shook my head as Dumbledore came down and blasted a spell at Voldemort making him stumble backward. "Kill him Albus, please just kill him." I whispered.
Students crowded as far from the Headmaster and Dark Lord as possible, I heard Lily scream. I turned to find Nagini starting to coil around her leg. James was still bending down when I grabbed Nagini by the neck and held it tightly.
Tom screamed when he saw me choking his snake to death. I threw her at him. "You killed her!" he yelled, I nodded. I grabbed Lily's hand and led her away from Voldemort and stuck her and James together of course and joined Dumbledore. So did Eddy and Travis.
"Get away from here Gage, Kullin." I muttered.
"Miss. Riddell you step back as well."
"Hell no," I whispered. Dumbledore stepped forward. I walked with him.
My father gleamed at me with a pleased smirk. "You think if you have him with you, you'll win against me!" he laughed, he glanced at his snake. "My prophecy will come true, Resa Riddle. Nothing or the old man can do will stop it-."
"Riddle?" Dumbledore looked at me.
"She's my blood Headmaster." Tom smiled at me, I glared at him. Travis and Eddy changed their minds and stepped back away from me. "She'll kill just like me."
I was tired of hearing his voice so I cast a spell at him and he blocked it, he cast one back and I dodged it easily. "Mum was better then you," I grunted so he would hear. He snarled, "My mother was a hero." He cast another and I blocked it for Albus. He watched as I fought him for a minute, I was hit and got hurt but I healed faster then he ever could. He shielded me as I tried with everything to break it. I finally did and fell forward as he broke the spell when I still pushed to break the magic. He laughed and I dropped and kicked his feet out from under him.
He got up right away and I kicked him, "You won't win Resa, you will never win against me." I paused and then I finally kicked him hard enough where he fell to the floor. He lay there. I grabbed onto the wall for support. He came out from nowhere and he cut my ankle. I grunted slightly and kicked his ugly face in.
Peter shook his head and came forward, he ran over to us. I stepped back confused, I whispered his name. Soon everyone heard him talking.
"Master? Oh please Master, wake up for your follower-."
"Peter?" I whispered. He looked up at me as he took Tom Riddle's hand.
James stepped forward and killed one of his best friends. I looked at him, "He would have killed us," he gasped. Lily came up behind me and held him; he took her gently and held her back.
"You did a good thing, James."
"Is he dead for good?"
I went over and knelt beside my father, I felt his neck. His eyes were open but no life was in them.
"He's gone," I whispered. I took the back of his neck and disappeared with it back to his original home. I wouldn't go back to Hogwarts.
I couldn't, I expelled myself from the castle, the grounds, from Sirius and Travis and Eddy, Severus, Lily and Remus.
I sat in the grass alone as I buried him using magic to….
Ha, ha, ha, ha, if only that really happened. Okay so if you don't get it. From the time when I turned to see Arubey to when I buried the Dark Lord Voldemort was a lie and one of those dream things.
Arubey never arrived. Voldemort lived that night because he never arrived. Sorry for the hope and smiles you wasted.
I sat there watching Travis and talk as Severus and Eddy chatted with him about the holidays. I made plans with Travis, already; we'd spend a few days with his family and then go to my house and spend hours in bed together… you can guess what I mean by that…. The first day back in London I spent it with Travis and his family, I met his mother and sisters, they were witches but won't be starting school for two, four, and five more years. His sisters were adorable, but annoying after awhile. They liked to whine a lot in order to get what they wanted. His father questioned me and I passed his test, Travis kept me near by the entire night.
I felt guilty when I thought about Sirius.
We left a few hours later and went to my home. I lied to him and said that Gloria and Benny's room was actually a closet. I added that the door was locked and I didn't have the key anymore; that I lost it. He picked me up and carried me upstairs to my room. I could feel the care in his hands as he undressed me, but I just wanted to get it over with, I'm being honest.
I didn't want Travis Gage, Eddy Kullin, or anyone; I was stuck between freedom and Sirius. I fought him from my head as I pulled off his shirt and he undid his pants and kicked them off.
I wanted to stake myself when I hoped that Sirius and Zoë hadn't slept together and won't over the break. They were sure to be alone at his place, she'd probably lie to her parents and go over and… never mind, I don't want to picture that….
BREAK
Over the next few days I spent my time with Travis and I finally broke up with him two days before we were due back for the train ride back home. I spent my time then, in Concord, Massachusetts with Fala. She caught me up and then yelled at me for not answering her calls. I didn't care. I got back to London and made my way to my father's the day before I had to go back to school. He was waiting for me in the room that Sirius had seen. I flopped down in the arm chair and asked what he did for Christmas. Instead of an answer he sent me out the window. I came back up the stairs as I brushed off the broken glass.
"What the hell!" I yelled when I looked up at him.
"You've been back and now you come home?" he bellowed at me, I shrugged. "Resa," he was calm, this was when I liked his voice when he spoke.
(I should add that I am back at school and this is a memory dream, just so you don't get confused)
I giggled, "Oh dad, you're great you know? Lucius," he looked at me. "I taught him everything he knows, right father?" I said. I wasn't drunk, just depressed. The room they moved into was larger and he was talking to more then half of his followers.
He stared at me, "She's ill, obviously." James and Remus couldn't help but laugh.
I shook my head, "No of course I'm not joking. I taught him to-."
"Enough!" he snapped.
"Dad," I said, I stopped pacing. "Taking your wand is like taking candy from an infant. Course it's easier for me unlike some people." I stared at him so he knew I was talking about him. "You get it right, because you're so vulnerable-." He cast a spell at me, but I pulled a Death Eater up from his chair and he blocked it for me. Lucius pulled out his wand finally and stood. "Don't unless if you want to keep some very important man parts," I whispered so he wouldn't be embarrassed.
"ENOUGH, Resa get out!"
"No, I like this house and I have plans for it dad. I'm having some muggles come by tomorrow and-."
"I will not have muggles in my house!"
"It's my home too dad," I snapped. I was smiling. "That temper you have is from me," I smirked. He growled something, "Awwwww, are you pissed off?" I spoke like I was talking to a baby, whom was crying, "Be as angry as you like; just don't cry. Grown men shouldn't cry," I added in an undertone, but in a loud voice.
He cast another spell at me, the dead human in front of me, worked again. I threw him over the table and Voldemort stepped back, "Lucius get her out of here-."
I jumped, excited. "No, dad I got it!"
"What?"
"A gold star chart, every time you come up with something that actually works out, you get a gold star, a sticker of course, but hey, if you get ten. You get a prize," I said laughing.
"And what's that? You leave for a year and don't come back?" Crabbe snapped. I went over to Crabbe and put my hands on his shoulders. He cringed.
I leaned down next to him, "Well Crabbe, I haven't figured that out yet. Maybe a stuffed horse or something, I know I've always wanted a puppy. I'll get you a puppy-." He used a spell and my mouth disappeared.
Remus turned to Peter, "That's not fair; I like her when she's like this. Maybe she is drunk," Peter chuckled.
It was almost five minutes before I finally got it. I gasped when I got the spell to undo on its own, Voldemort groaned. "Again?" he snapped when I opened my mouth.
"Duh, what kind of dog do you want, a German Shepard? A Dalmatian? A poodle? I think a poodle will bring out the ugly redness in your eyes," I said as if dreaming of it already. Lucius stood up too, "Okay, okay, you want a poodle too, well tell you what. When you get ten gold sticker stars, you get one too. Maybe you could name it Albus or Georgette." I suggested, instead he grabbed the back of my neck and took me from the room. "Remember Tommy, work for those ten stars!" I called. James took one last look before the memory faded.
(Lucius Malfoy had only broken my arm in a few places, it hurt like a bitch, but I survived and healed the next day. Actually I was on the train while I was still healing.)
The memory faded into something they had never seen before. Down the street a house was on fire, Sirius grabbed James's arm. They had no idea where they were and they were afraid to know, the fire was warm on their skin. From behind them four pure black wolves came out of nowhere and appeared beside them as they continued to walk; they turned into Arubey, Edam, Nick, and Chris.
They all chuckled…
…In the burning house I was alone; there were two bodies outside… of James and Lily. I was now trying to find Harry, I heard the crying finally and I sprinted upstairs. I growled when I realized how stupid I was for not checking the nursery. I hit myself in the head and ran over and grabbed him.
"Its okay, Harry, it'll be alright. I'll take you to your aunt and uncle," I whispered. I slurred my words because I was afraid that he had inhaled too much smoke. I heard a crash and I ran to the window, they were here already. I turned and ran down the stairs and I passed James and Lily, I turned the baby away from their bodies. He was still crying so I had him stop and tried to calm down. He sniffled and closed his eyes, I put my hand on his belly; he was breathing just fine and his heart rate was faster then it needed to be, but he was alright.
The Marauders hurried over but stopped when they saw I had an infant. Sirius growled when he assumed it was my 'dream' child.
"No," I snapped when Arubey stepped forward, he grinned.
"The boy isn't even yours, why do you care." He glanced at the bodies, "You brought them out of the house?" I said nothing as I started to cry as I looked down the only living Potter.
I begged, "Arubey please, my father kill his parents and now he has no one. My father tried to kill him too," I cried. I moved him so Arubey could plainly see the scar on his forehead.
Arubey had a point of his own accord, "They disowned you from their group after you told them the truth about your father-."
"I deserved it, but not this; not this boy, he doesn't-." he came over to me and put his hand on my shoulder, he broke the bone and I nearly dropped the infant as I shuddered and fell to the ground. Sirius had closed his eyes. "Gwin you're weak, if you raise this boy as your own… he'll be just as stupid as you." He chuckled, amused. I had thought about raising James's son as a nephew or very young cousin or something like that. But now that he brought it around to my attention, I didn't like the sound of it. It sounded wrong, my father murdered his parents and I'll raise him? No, people would hate me and assume I'm raising him wrong and to actually think my father is his grandfather or something. They wouldn't believe me if I raised him and I said that I was the only one to keep him safe.
I sighed and looked up at him, "Arubey he has no one, I don't know where his mother's sister lives. I don't have much time-."
"We all know that, you should have been killed years ago. Remember when you got away and we met your father?" I said nothing to him or to this comment. I looked down at Harry, he was cold and shivering. Being held by me could get him sick. Nickolas chuckled as if he read my mind. Arubey continued, "Give him over to me and I promise he'll live to see next week at least, I'll fine the human woman and they'll take you back to-."
"No, I go with you or forget it." I snapped trying to get up; my right arm couldn't used at all for the next day or two. He sighed and muttered something in his old human language. I stared at him, I never heard him talk that way before. "Arubey I didn't here in time, I have to make sure my father can't find him." I whispered, he shook his head. Edam came up behind me and took my right arm and held it tightly, "Arubey, please don't-." Nickolas hit me over the head just as Arubey took the infant from me. He chuckled at how easy that was. He caught me in time and took my good arm and treated my body as a rag doll. James ran over to me then went to see what the baby boy looked like.
Somehow I was able to wake up quicker then they thought. I kicked Nickolas in the shin and it snapped in two. Arubey held a small knife at Harry's throat. I froze. "Arubey give me the boy and you have my word that I'll take care of him first, and then come back to Concord. I swear it," I grimaced. He sighed as he removed the knife and pocketed it.
He looked over at Nickolas; I didn't realize how much pain that could cause a man, even a vampire like Nickolas. He was whimpering and was gripping his brother's hand so tightly I was sure Chris's hand was broken by now, Arubey glanced at me and back to Nickolas again. He muttered something and held out the baby boy, I hurried forward and took him before Arubey would change his mind.
"Thank you, I'll be less then a week." I promised and I turned to leave. He called me back, I turned to face him, but he said nothing so I left the area before the muggles started to arrive.
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I woke and cursed when I realized how much that gave away, I hurried when I go dressed. I realized in class my shirt was on backwards, I slid down in my chair and I fixed it quickly. Travis stared at me and I muttered I had been in a hurry this morning; he rolled his eyes and I laughed. The teacher looked at me; I stared right back and pretended to be looking for the person who laughed even though it had been me. James glanced back at me, I immediately turned away and I put my hand to where Arubey had 'hit' me.
When the bell rang I sprinted out of the classroom and I went to see Dumbledore, but he was with other people at the moment and t was either now or never. It turned out that it had to be Never.
I needed to tell him who my father was, what he was planning, where he might be and what he plans to do. I had to tell him; that baby was in danger and he wasn't even born yet. I saw Dumbledore and the Minister of Magic; I chickened out and hid in my room for the rest of the day after my last class.
I fell asleep when Sirius came into the room, he woke me up and asked for an explanation, and I acted like I had no idea what he meant. He finally just took me by my right shoulder and shook me. "Sirius," I gasped, he scowled.
He glared at me, "Do you love me Resa?" I said nothing, I sat up and went to leave but he ordered me to not. I paused and my eyes showed pain, I was glad I wasn't facing him. "Turn to look at me," he whispered. I did what he said and he came over to me. "Do you love me or not?" he asked me again. I still said nothing, he groaned and reddened. As he went past me, I grabbed his arm and I turned him and I right away kissed the hell out of him. He held me close for a moment and he picked me up and carefully carried me back to my couch and we sat down as it held me tightly against his firm and stealthy body. I had been sitting next to him when He moved me so I was sitting on his lap, and he sat back and I was above him sort of; my sexual side was minor when I was with a human. But when I was with another vampire, it was more aggressive; I had heard that Arubey liked pain when he made love to a woman. I didn't know if that was true and I didn't want to know. Nickolas did though, that was no secret for anyone to just find out.
He asked me again, "Do you love me like I love you?"
"I broke up with you months ago Sirius, how can you still-." He interrupted me by kissing me again, I closed my eyes and dreaded what I was about to do….
I sighed and got off of him, he stared at me; once he stood I put my hands to his head and I erased all memory he had of us being together. His eyes were closed and I led him from my room and finally he opened his eyes to see me looking at him. "Why am I here?" he had anger in his voice, he saw his Common Room passage not far from where we were.
"Sorry Black," I hissed. "You ran into me," I snapped and left.
I cried myself to sleep that night.
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It was another few weeks before the students had another trip to Hogsmead. My boys were going to stay this time, at the school. I went alone. I read at a small table in the back of the Three Broomsticks, I got gotten a hot chocolate and it was still full when I left. I loved chocolate as a human, I still do, but I can't eat or drink it unless if it's dipped or mixed with blood. I hated myself for that. The snow had long gone and the grass was greener on the other side of the hill. I saw James and his friends; I could hear Sirius talking still about the day he 'ran' into me.
James was confused, "But the day before, you wanted to be with her-."
"Don't tease me about that James!" he snapped and they dropped it. I saw Fala in the window of the Shrieking Shack, I gasped when she motioned for me to come over to her. She didn't understand that if I went, the Marauders would follow me. I shook my head as James glanced at me.
"What?" he grinned.
"Sorry James, I was day dreaming, I think-."
"You think?" Sirius scoffed. I knew that this was how Sirius would have treated me our entire lives if we never had fallen in love. The pain showed on my face apparently because James looked like he had just been insulted by his best friend as well. "Come on James- Slytherin stay away from us."
I snapped finally, "Sirius-." I yelled he turned and I hit him hard enough where I was sure I broke his nose. They all gasped and James held onto him. Sirius held his nose so he wouldn't get his clothes full of his blood. I hated myself right then: I hadn't eaten in weeks, the blood was warm… I shook my head again as if he hit me back.
Remus looked at me strange, "Resa, you just-."
"I know what I did Remus, just take him to the school, make I didn't break his nose." I stuttered; I sensed four more vampires, besides Fala. "Please," I was begging for the vampires to stay away, not for them to hurry to get him to the Hospital wing. They must have realized I was asking them because they didn't make themselves known.
"I'll get you back Riddell-."
"Just get away from me Black," I snapped and followed them with my eyes as they left. Arubey came up behind me finally.
I glanced at him, "Nicely done Gwin."
"Shut up," I wanted to breathe so I could make myself stop. He chuckled at me.
Sirius came back to try to knock some sense into me, but stopped when he heard me speaking to my companions.
"Leave before someone sees you-."
"Yeah, like that's gonna happen." He muttered, Nickolas and Christopher and Edam weren't with him this time. Instead it was Durza, Jager, Fala, and Risika. "Come back with us, you're better then these humans here-."
"No I'm not." I muttered, I turned back to see Fala coming towards me… James pinched himself and the other three. It hurt. They weren't dreaming this time.
…She had a rabbit in her arms, Risika grinned and I gasped and turned away when she snapped its neck suddenly. James glanced at Sirius when Fala threw it at me, I could only step aside. "Fala, why'd you do that?" I cried, Fala laughed.
"You still have to much human inside of you Gwin-."
"Stop calling me that-." I stopped when Arubey came and stood beside and put his arm around my waist, I moved away from him. "Don't touch me," he grinned and glanced at Risika.
"You disgust me Karew," Risika spat. He laughed at her.
"Try to fight me, you'd lose." He promised her.
"I'd love to see that, Arubey and Risika fighting to the death, hopefully they kill each other." Durza muttered proudly. He hummed for a moment, I could only cover my ears. He tautened me, until I kicked him and threw him aside. He growled and sprang up and tackled me to the ground.
I got his knee in my thigh and I felt the bruise form almost right away, I yelled out and Risika- another female Dark Line- came and helped me by getting him off of me. Arubey chuckled when Risika helped me up. "Don't get him pissed off Resa," he growled, I nodded and reconnected my left shoulder. I glared at Durza and he grimaced when I used magic to cast a fire spell in his face.
Remus glanced at Sirius to see if he was worried for my safety, he wasn't but amused.
"If you changed more women that would never happen!" I snapped at Fala.
"Are you kidding, and then I would have my children sleeping together! I don't allow that-."
I only remember that I lost it, I cast a much more powerful spell at Fala, Risika grabbed me around the waist and held me back, "Let go of me. She is not my mother, my mother is dead- she murdered her- let go!" I said as I kicked her.
I didn't mean to, but she finally let me go and this time Jager took over. "Enough!" he yelled, I stopped. I respected Jager because he treated me better then the others. "Fala stop calling yourself our mother, you say I'm your brother but you turned me. Remember? If they are your children, then I'm not your brother any longer after today." She growled something but I didn't catch it.
She snapped, "Fine, I'm not your mother any longer. You stay here Gwin-."
"It's Resa, not Gwin." I blurted, I was pushing her and Jager over the limit that they had. Jager's limit was larger, but he lost his temper easy after awhile. All vampires do after awhile. She bent down and picked up a new rabbit; she commanded it to come to her. She smiled at it and kissed the top of its head. "Resa come and feed," she told me, as she smiled down at it, the rabbit fell asleep and got comfortable in her arms. I didn't move. I wasn't hungry anymore, "Come Resa now, you haven't in weeks and you'll die-."
"Good." I stammered and turned to leave.
Fala snapped the rabbit's neck again, I turned to see her feeding off it; I groaned and turned to leave but she was in front of me. I could only step back, "Feed you or you'll be dead in less then a day. You've been feeling weak and that's a sign of no new blood in your system; you're a vampire Resa. We need blood to live-."
"Oh really, I had no idea." I said sarcastically.
"You last fed three months ago during the break, your time is almost up-."
"I don't feed on humans," I told her.
She held the rabbit by the scruff of his neck and shoved it in my face; I took the little creature and tossed it away from me. My hands were shaking and stopped when I let go of the rabbit. "If you die, then so does the people you love." She was using James and Sirius as my reason to live.
"They'll be fine," I whispered as I turned away from her, I staggered when she took my arm and turned me back around to face her. I've tried to die this way before. When I tried to stake myself after Tom Riddle kidnapped me; I thought it was the only way I could ever be free from him… if I was dead and gone. I failed and he caught me.
She shoved her arm in front of me; I pushed it away and ran away from them into the village. I passed the Marauders as I did, they hid behind trees. I disappeared into the Hogshead, a pub that outsiders usually used because they were frowned upon by the villagers. I went upstairs and I shut the door, I tried to forget and forgive myself for what I was trying to do.
I needed to die, my father was right; James's friends would hate me if they ever really had been told face to face by me about my father's real identity. I needed to die before I they found out, I if was dead… they could never fine out who I am-what I am.
I sat on the windowsill for a long time, waiting to become dust but it was getting late and I couldn't stay here over night to die. Someone from the school would come and get me.
As I walked back to the school, I could feel the affects of refusing the blood; my steps became slower every passing minute and tired beyond sleep. I glanced around me the entire way to the castle. I was alone which scared me. It was later then I was supposed to be, every other student was back already. I heard a stick snap behind me, I turned but no one was there. I turned back to face my school, I expected Fala to be there or Arubey; instead it was Jager.
"I've been waiting for you to pass by," he muttered. I stepped back and then forward.
"Jager, I'm tired. I'm going to bed, but feel free to stay on the school grounds." I muttered, he grabbed my arm and had me sit down on a log while he rolled up his sleeve, I knew what he was going to make me do. "I'm not feeding off of you Jager-."
"Yes you are Resa, I don't love you, no one in our Line loves each other, but I like you enough where I can't let you die for something so stupid." He finished rolling his sleeve to his elbow. "Hold her for me," I turned to see who he as speaking too, I yelled when I saw Arubey standing behind me.
Arubey put one arm around my waist and the other held my neck, "Arubey please, just let me-."
"No," he growled. He hated me, why was he helping me to live? I got no answer to that question because he suddenly ran a knife over his arm and put it in front of my face. "Drink from me Resa, I'll do this every three months if I have too," he added. He put it up to my mouth and I opened my mouth to speak but he took that chance.
Damn me, I thought as his blood entered my mouth and dripped down my throat as I drank; Jager stared at us. My hands on Arubey's arm, not to move it away, but to keep it there.
"Good girl," he whispered in my ear. "Good girl," he sighed. "Done," he whispered after another two minutes. He pulled his arm away from me and I fell against his chest. He held me and Jager came forward and tied a small bandage around his forearm as he held it so he could.
I could only whisper, "Don't do this again Arubey." I paused for a moment, "Next time, let me die." I added and got up and left.
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I was sitting facing the other three tables today; breakfast went by slowly because now, I was afraid to go outside. I was afraid to see Arubey or Jager; I barely slept anymore so now I spent my time casting spells on my room, dorm and Common Room. I looked up to see two of the four Marauders watching me, I looked away. I finally forced myself to get up and leave the Great Hall. Travis, Eddy, and Severus sat together; they watched me leave as well. Last week Arubey had made me feed off his blood and now I had to go through another three months before I could get my chance again. Death and dying was all I could think about during classes, my grades dropped and I almost failed an exam for DADA and it was one of my best classes. Lily offered to help me; I turned her down right away before she could finish her sentence. I walked with a quickened pace to my room. Every time I enter my own room, I fear that someone is waiting for me. No one ever is- just my books and burning fireplace.
In mid April I went down for class and as I was leaving my room, a group of Gryffindors came from their Common Room portrait hole. James and Remus came after me, as I hurried down the stairs to class. It was my last one for that day and I wanted to try to sleep more then thirty minutes tonight.
"Resa!" he yelled.
"I'm going to be late Potter,"
"Then we will too, we have the same class." He reminded me, I muttered something but he didn't hear it. He was on floor six and I was on floor three and going faster with every step. I got to first floor and sprinted down the hall I was in my seat and ready to go when they entered about three minutes later out of breathe and stumbling. Lily grabbed James's arm and they walked each other to their seats. I watched and looked away when Sirius looked back at me; my hair shielded me from being able to see him.
The teacher called on my twice, I got the answer right both times. He was pleased and so was I; when James turned his head to look at Remus he glanced at me.
"Remus, are we going out tonight?"
"Do you have to bring that up in class James?" he asked a little annoyed. I grinned, only I could actually hear them. "I am, this month I want you to say in and get some rest." He muttered. Sirius turned around to look at them- like his best bud… he glanced at me but I was doing my work, but still listening. "Sirius, the spell is easy-."
"No, not that- I'm staying in. That woman gave me nightmares-." I looked up, right at them. Sirius ignored me, "Who would do that to a rabbit-." I put my hand over my mouth and tried to make it look innocent. I felt my heart start beating, they knew. They knew about me and Fala and the others being here; I was exposed as a vampire. Why were they waiting, what were they waiting for? Go to Dumbledore, I wanted to tell them. He'd believe you, I thought.
"Sirius she pulled it from a hat," Peter mumbled. I groaned and sat back, Travis turned to me.
"What?" he snapped, I stared at him.
"Sorry, I just can't remember what I was going to write." I said loud enough for them to hear, "When will the damn bell ring?" I asked him.
"Five minutes Resa, now four." He added quickly, he seemed ready to leave and get away from me too. I've been sleeping in my room since March and the night Arubey made me feed off of him. It's been a couple weeks.
The bell rang at the moment; I was somehow the last to leave. I was glad when I saw that Severus was waiting for me. "You waited?" I asked, but pleased and happy he did.
He shook his head, "I have to speak to the professor." I frowned and glared at him as I left. I've drifted further then a mile from my friends, Eddy barely looks at me and you saw how Travis treated me.
I left the classroom quickly and pleased I never turned red anymore; I skipped steps up to my room. I opened and closed the door after I entered and dropped my bags on the couch; I left right away and went down to the bathrooms so I could shower before I went to bed. I showered for as long as I wanted tonight, I wrapped myself up and dried off slowly. I dressed in my pajamas right away and I carried my clothes to my room and left them in a corner. I turned away and turned back to see them gone, I grinned; the elves still took care of me at least. I was happy about that a little and suddenly began wondering if I would ever my clothes again…. I lie down in my chair and read for most of the night, I turned the light off and spent the next two hours trying to sleep. I finally fell asleep after one hour and twenty minutes of trying.
Waking up is easy, it's the getting out of bed that's hard; don't you agree? Maybe not…. I sat up and the blanket fell off of me, I knew something was wrong because I never used blankets even in winter. I looked over on the couch, Arubey was sleeping. I went over to him and dropped two of my heaviest volumes on his head. He yelled at me for a while then was silent.
My turn to yell, "Why are you here?" I yelled this time. He grinned and came over to me, I stepped back. "I should be dead right now Arubey, why did you save me?" I demanded. He looked at me strange; I didn't like it and told him to stop looking at me like that. His face contorted into a different expression, I didn't like that one either. I went forward and pushed him away from me, I ran from the room to my Common Room. He was on the other side unable to get inside. I smiled and sat down on the couch; I used a secret passage way to the Library. I avoided that lower floors for a while. Saturday started out as a pain in my ass.
It became almost in need of healing potions when Sirius came from somewhere and grabbed my shirt and held me, I realized I was still in my pajamas. Good thing they were dark blue without stupid pictures, my shirt was a short sleeve that buttoned down. He pushed me against the wall and I stared at him. I had broken his nose but the Nurse was able to fix that right away.
His face held anger and pain as he touched me, it was understandable. He started talking first, not giving me the chance to even think about starting. "Okay," he said. "One, don't hit me again. Second, give me back my memory; I know you did something to make me forget something. James and Remus claim that I love you, I don't why you'd want me to forget that but I will find out-." Arubey came out of nowhere and pulled him away from me, Sirius nearly fell over the side of the stair case; I grabbed him just in time and pulled him back but left him on the steps as I grabbed Arubey's hand and pulled him up to my secret room. He smiled but frowned when I pushed him again so he sat down, I turned but he grabbed my hand and I fell onto his lap. He grunted but smiled. He took me carefully and pinned against the cushions and him.
I groaned, "Don't not here or ever." He frowned and became angry with me. Good, I thought. "Get off me you incompetent fool!" I gasped; he laughed but let me go. I stepped backward. My clothes were back, cleaned and ready to be worn; I saw them in the corner- folded and smelled of lilacs. My favourite. He watched me and finally got up, I sat down because I was afraid he'd throw me, he looked down at me as he neared.
He told me the truth because I knew it was. "Your father is looking for you and found me first. He sent me to find you, however if you tell that old man down there everything, the truth. I won't hand you over," that had to be a lie.
"We're enemies, why should I trust you?" I snapped. Arubey Karew grimaced slightly when I said this. I looked away from him, he went over and gabbed a book and went to the fireplace and threatened to throw it in. "Don't!" Pause. "Okay, okay. Let me get dressed first and we'll go down," he nodded for me to continue but I didn't know what else to say. "What else is there? Thank you, for letting me be killed easily-." I snapped in his face.
"No, for the fact, I'm going to let you live, because I won't let him kill you." He threw me the book and I caught it, I groaned at the sight of it. I was a notebook that belonged to a French Astronomer; I put it back quickly and turned to see him holding jeans and a shirt. I stared at him, they were different clothes then from the ones in the corner. "Where'd you get-."
"I brought them with me; they're sturdy and will last a while. We'll be traveling," he explained shortly. I took then when he motioned for me too, I moved but he pulled me back. "I'm saving your life, allow me." he whispered smiling, I stared at him.
Arubey moved closer to me and picked me up as he kissed my neck. He carried me over to the couch, unlike last time- I was on top the entire time. He pulled off my shirt slowly taking his time as he kissed me, I thought he was going to undo his pants when he started pushing mine down off my hips. He kept his mouth over mine as he worked….
We ended up trading places and I was under him so he could get my pants off better. He sat up and pulled me with him he lifted my arms up as he pulled on the shirt. He suddenly stopped and tosses it aside The pants he probably took from Risika, we're about the same size, I think. He got my legs in first then lay back on me and brought them up as he pressed his chest hard on mine; I felt his hands run over my thighs every few seconds. I knew he wanted to just strip me down all over again, but he didn't. I didn't want him too. He was sighed as he moved his lips to my collarbone as he buttoned my jeans.
He lifted his head with my arms around his neck; I still had no shirt on. He smiled when he noticed that and kissed me over my heart on my left breast. I whispered his name and he ignored me. He looked up at me, "Do you trust me?" I nodded although I didn't, not for one second. He lowered his mouth to the same spot and I felt his teeth against my skin. He pierced my skin on my breast and drank my blood, it was like he taking his back. I put my hand on the back of his neck and tried hard to start breathing.
He suddenly looked up at me, he had crimson in the corners of his mouth, I pulled him toward me and I removed the blood from his mouth. He put one hand beside my head to keep him a certain height above me with his other; he pressed his palm against the bit mark. I giggled, "Your hand is cold," I whispered, his mouth barely left mine when I said that. He grinned and kissed me again, his hand stayed in place.
Sorry it took so long to update, I got sick & then was unable to write anything. Better now and I hope it's still good enough to read! I realize the beginning is confusing but it makes sense if you read it all the through first; at least I think it does. Thanks for reading!