A NejiGaa Bonus Chapter
By AnnMiuka
Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto. I do not own Gaara, although sharing is a good trait. I do not own Neji, although he's one of those "tormented so much you just wanna hug him" kinda characters. I do not own I Wanna Hold Your Hand by the Beatles. I do own this story, and I love getting reviews.
A/N: Okay, so so sorry it took this long, but I only JUST found a song that worked. I was actually writing a new SasuNaru fic while listening to Across the Universe songs and this one started playing. At approximately 2:20, I froze, was like, "OH MY GOSH THIS IS PERFECT" threw down the notebook and scrambled to open a Notepad to start writing. So, without further adoo, I present:
The Green Ink Letter
I've been doing so much thinking lately. Everything seems to become blurry as I sit here at my desk. I don't understand what I'm doing anymore; what I'm writing anymore. Someone is talking to me, but it doesn't seem to fit with anything. I wish you were here.
Oh yeah, I'll tell you something,
I think you'll understand.
I wish I could tell you that everything is fine, nothing has changed, so come back home; it was all a mistake, so please come back. But I can't. That would be a lie, and I want to be as honest with you as possible. So, let me begin at the beginning.
When I'll say that something
I want to hold your hand,
Neji, when I first saw you standing behind Naruto, I think I fell in love. Something inside of me just clicked, and my world flipflopped for a minute. Then, I looked around. I guess I've been doing a lot of that. But then I didn't see you again until you were leaving. A part of me whispered something, but I shot it down. I seem to be doing a lot of that, too.
I want to hold your hand,
I want to hold your hand.
But then you were back again, taking a place as my personal bodyguard. The feelings came back to me in a rush and I knew things would be different. I would be different. So I took a chance, and you took an even bigger chance, and it worked.
Oh please, say to me
You'll let me be your man
You changed me. I want you to know that right off. You changed me in ways I never even thought about until you left. It hurt, you leaving. But I know it hurt you even worse. I went behind your back and accepted an engagement. Beyond that, it was to a woman. I only wish I could have taken it back. Then, I never would have hurt you.
And please, say to me
You'll let me hold your hand.
I miss you so much it hurts. I remember the cool windy nights we used to spend together on the roof of my office when we'd just watch the stars. I remember telling you I loved you there, and how much your love filled me when you did too. I remember so many things, but I guess I forgot the most important thing that can ever exist for anyone: Making choices that you don't agree with hurts. It doesn't just hurt you, it hurts the ones you love. And I've hurt you bad. But I don't want you to hurt anymore.
Now let me hold your hand,
I want to hold your hand.
I want to be with you every day and night, but I know that I can't have it that way. Please, if it hurts to see me, hurts to be near me, don't come home. My home should be wherever you are, yet I know it isn't anymore, but what about you? I wish I could talk to you; see your face; hold your hand. But I know that I can't. Even if I tried now, it would only be unfair to you. And yet, I still want to kiss your lips and touch your skin. I wish I could, but I know I can't.
And when I touch you I feel happy inside.
Neji, I love you. I'm in love with you. Grace has given me the ability to choose. Too bad I chose wrong the first time. But now, I have a second chance to make things right. With Hinata marrying my brother, I am left free to marry whomever I choose; be with whomever I choose. I want to choose you, if you'll let me.
It's such a feeling that my love
I can't hide, I can't hide, I can't hide.
There's something in the way you smile; something in the way you talk. I can't quite understand it, but I know that I miss it. Everyday, when I think of how things used to be, I remember the scent of your hair, the look in your eyes when you glance my way, the feeling my heart feels when you kiss me. It's something that I didn't understand. Until now.
Yeah, you've got that something,
I think you'll understand.
I want to tell you something, but I'm afraid. I'm so afraid that my sister is worried. She's watching me write from the doorway, and I know she understands. It's something about being like this that makes you realize it about others. I realized it the moment I saw those two together: a tough blonde and a lazy brunette who were crazily in love. But now, I'm so afraid of saying it: those three little words.
When I'll say that something
I want to hold your hand,
I'm terrified that you'll hurt me just as I hurt you. I'm terrified that I'll have to live the rest of my life without you, and I'm terrified that I won't make it. And now I know how you felt when I said those word to you that day on that balcony overlooking a world that I thought I was helping. But instead, I was just hurting myself. And you.
I want to hold your hand,
I want to hold your hand.
Please hate me. I don't know why I was so cruel. Maybe I was trying to reassure myself that I was making the right choice. Maybe I was trying to hurt myself by driving you away. Maybe the Akatsuki should have fought harder to keep my dead corpse. I don't know. I just wish I knew that you are okay, wherever you are. I wish I knew that whoever was now holding you would never hurt you like I did. Like I still do.
And when I touch you I feel happy inside.
I wish I could see your face as you are reading this, but I know that that can never happen. I pushed you so far away, and I know that you are not coming back. I want you to know that you don't have to. I want you to know that you can be happy--even if it is without me. I want you to know that...
It's such a feeling that my love
I can't hide, I can't hide, I can't hide.
...I love you. I love you so much that if you never want to see me again, that if you want to go on with your life and forget about me, that you can. If you decide to find someone else to give that look to, to share that feeling with that is so hard to find, then go. I want you to be happy.
Yeh, you've got that something,
I think you'll understand.
I'm not afraid anymore. I was so afraid before, but now, now that I know that you'll make your own decision and not do what I tell you, I'm not so afraid anymore. I know that you'll be happy because it will be your choice, and you'll choose to be happy. I know that, and I--I understand.
When i'll feel that something
I want to hold your hand,
So, I hope that you choose for yourself what you want to do. I will not send anymore letters. I will not come to you begging or pleading for forgiveness. I will not try to do anything that will hurt you anymore. I just wish...No. I won't wish anymore. I want you to be happy, even if that means I will never see you again; hear your voice again. Hold your hand again.
I want to hold your hand,
I want to hold your hand.
Have a better life,
Gaara
Final Author Note(?):
tears are running down my face I'm so...depressed and happy. It's confusing. I don't quite understand what I was feeling when I wrote this, but I know that it was good.
DTD: How would you know that?
Kat: Because she's her, which means she's you and she's me. Trust her, because she's gifted with something.
Begley: Mehbeh i's the talent foh mohbid expresshon?
DTD: Definitely it's that one.
Matto: That was so sad, yet so beautiful. claps Now, let's go write the part about Neji going back to him. smiles to readers Yep, that's our plan. Find a new song for Neji walking back to Gaara. Wish us luck.
Keith: Cus there gonna needit.
DTD: At least make an attempt to space and spell your words correctly if you're gonna write here. Stupid Keith.
Thanks for reading mina-san!