Disclaimer: I do not own anything at all to do with Naruto :(

Authors Note: Right, now this Chapter is just kind of a filler ready for the next chapter, as there isnt a great deal in this chapter that will pop up again...well apart from one thing that will be making an apperance later on in the story. Unless I change my mind or something :) xXx

Chapter 6

A new beginning?

March 31st (10.25pm)

'The past 2 days have been so busy and I haven't had chance to think let alone trying to keep myself sane by writing in here.

I started work back at the hospital yesterday on the maternity ward. Wow, it's different than your usual ward or emergency centre. One thing I noticed was that there were a lot more doctors around.

I have been working with Dr. Kobi Saito for the past 2 days, which has been...shall we say pleasant. But also torture at the same time.

With everything that happened 2 nights ago with Kakashi, only spending time with a good looking, intelligent, funny, charming and caring doctor has not really helped in the slightest. Half of the time my mind has been on Kakashi, the other half has been on Kobi.

I know people say life isn't easy, but I am sure I was cursed when it comes to love. I want to try and make things work with Kakashi, but part of me doesn't want to get so hurt again. All though I keep telling myself that if I don't try I am never going to know am I?

I wish I had someone who could tell me all the answers, but I don't believe in fairy tales any more and I know that someone doesn't exist.

On to Kobi, he is such a lovely guy and having spent 21 hours together in the past 48 hours, I think I am starting to like him.

I don't know if all this is to do with Kakashi or whether it's me finding any old excuse to not be with Kakashi and end up with heart broken into pieces again. I just don't know. I always thought I was quite intelligent, but I feel like such an idiot when it comes to Kakashi. I don't know what he does to me to make me feel like this.

Kakashi did tell me I could take time to decide what I want. But I don't know, I want to try and make things work as he did make me the happiest woman alive for a while. But he also made me feel like my heart had been ripped from chest, as well as having a brain transplant, ending up with a persons brain who couldn't possibly function on anything other than worrying about a man that left me.

Everything that has happened in the past makes me believe that I shouldn't get back with Kakashi...arggggg!! I'm annoying myself and going round and round in circles and not getting a bloody answer in the end.

I think for tonight I'm going to try and put Kakashi out of my mind, well at least what decision I am going to make anyway.

Now, I spoke to Naruto two days ago about the whole Kakashi and I situation. I explained to him all about why and how we had been keeping it a secret and Naruto was surprisingly calm, just telling me I should have told him when I left for Grass Country. I could see the anger in his eyes when I mentioned how we ended, which I skirted over a few of the details. But he stayed calm and he listened, which is something Naruto had learned after the hours he sat holding me, comforting me, wiping my tears away when I had no one else after Takato died.

I didn't tell him that Kakashi and I had spent the previous tonight together, I did tell him that we had talked and part of me wanted to get back with him.

Naruto listened and told me to do what was best, which isn't always the best for everyone in the end. But he told me, he wouldn't mine if me and Kakashi were together as long as we were happy. Which in true Naruto style, he finished that sentence saying if he ever hurt me he would have to kill him.

For the rest of the afternoon Naruto and I sat around talking like we used to, until I realised I was supposed to meet Kakashi, which Naruto came along at the mention of ramen. When we got there Kakashi had already eaten but sat waiting for us. We ate, drank and laughed.

Until one question sprang to mind "Why and how did Sasuke know about Kakashi and I?"

Naruto told us he hadn't got a clue that Sasuke had known, or else it wouldn't have been such a shock to him. Naruto did however say he would try and find out as he was intrigued to know as well.

Following lunch, Kakashi and I went for a walk around the park before I started my shift at the hospital. I enjoyed it, we just talked and laughed. No mention of the night before, no mention of if I wanted to be with him, nothing. Just spending time together, which I enjoyed as I felt like there was no pressure on me to start talking about our 'relationship'.

I haven't seen Kakashi since the walk that afternoon, apart from the letter he had left at my apartment that evening saying that I knew where he was if I wanted to meet or just to have a chat, which again has been all very nice.

I would have gone round to his place, but I had invited Hinata back to my apartment to have a chat and talk weddings as I haven't had much time to talk about it since I arrived back.

The wedding so far was sounding lovely and Hinata was so organized, near enough everything has been arranged. Even the finest details of the table decorations seemed to be imprinted into Hinata's brain. (Which by the way, she was having white large Orchids as the table centre pieces, with a dish in the shape of the ring on the outside which will house an array of floating candles. Damn I have a good memory, if only I could remember where I put my house keys every now and then!)

The wedding anyway, sounded magnificent, Hinata invited me around to the Hyuuga mansion where the ceremony and reception would be taking place to have a look at the lay out and to take a look at her kimono's. Well I couldn't refuse could I really?

Today anyway has been quiet. The first part of the morning I went for my usual run around Konaho and got myself showered and dressed for the day. I then popped out to do a bit of shopping as my fridge and cupboards looked a bit lonely with nothing in them. On my way around the store, I bumped into Ino. Who was acting really strange.

I know Ino is strange anyway, but she seemed very reluctant to want to talk to me. I guess she must have been busy, but even when Ino is busy she still finds time to talk about her love life or anything that involves talking about herself for thirty minutes.

Well after my strange encounter with Ino I headed off to work once my fridge was a bit more full.

I've been doing late shifts at work which have meant 1pm until around 10-11pm depending on how busy it has been. Which today wasn't as busy. I helped Dr Saito deliver 2 babies today. Which I must say is the most wonderful experience anyone could ever witness.

It's quite amazing that the human body can do such a thing really. When I first put my head down there and saw that the mother was about 4 centimetres dilated, I thought I would never be able to sit down again. Then when the babies head started to crown, I actually felt sick for the first time in my life. The sickness feeling didn't last long, but my god I am in owe of any woman that has ever had a child.

Then when the baby came out, I cut the cord and gave the new born baby boy to there mother, I had tears in my eyes.

I could see the pain the mother was in during the birth, but as soon as I put her newborn son on her, I could see the anticipation of 9 months lift off her face and was just filled with pure joy.

And that probably has to be the best thing as a medic I have been able to see, participate in and witness.

I am really considering it as the next step of my career, as a medic I want to help, I want to heal, I want to help with life and not have to be faced with death everyday. I want to help the sick get better and continue with there life, I am aware that death is a part of life. But helping to bring a new life into the world was such a feeling I don't think I could ever describe fully.

I will see anyway, I have a feeling Tsunade wouldn't agree with me wanting to choose this career path. But with everyone changing and acting rather strangely around this place since I've come back, you never know.'

I closed the diary and placed it under my bed side table and proceeded to get myself ready for bed.

I looked at the clock "11.35pm"

I yawned as I began to pull the covers off my bed. I lay in bed for around 5 minutes, when I heard something at my window.

I heard the clasp on my window open, I grabbed the Kunai that was in the side on my bedside table, before I had chance to react my window had been opened and a large male had made his way through my window.

Without any thought I threw the Kunai as I scrambled towards my wardrobe to grab any more weapons.

"Sakura, you fool it's me"

I heard the husky voice say as I was just about to grab my bag of Shuriken and Kunai, I turned around to see that it was indeed Kakashi.

"Hold on, I'm not the fool. What kind of idiot sneaks into someone's bedroom so late at night?" I whispered for some reason as I placed my left hand on my hip as I waited for an answer.

"Okay, I'm sorry. I just wanted to come and see you. I didn't think you would be sleeping just yet" Kakashi said softly as he walked towards me and placed his own hand on my hips. "I am sorry" He finished, pulling his mask off and kissing me on my forehead.

"Right okay I will forgive for scaring the life out of me I suppose. But maybe you could try that invention called the door maybe? I know its a bit conventional for you, but maybe just so you don't give me a heart attack every now and then" I said trying to be serious the the smile crept upon my face, when I saw Kakashi making a fake pout with his gorgeous lips.

"I will have to check out this invention you say, it's called a door right?" He laughed, pulling me into a hug. "I missed you last night" He whispered towards my ear.

"Really?" I asked, "Well I guess you will just have to stay tonight then, just so your not lonely then" I laughed as I moved towards my bed.

I got myself back into the left side of the bed, where I normally sleep and Kakashi got in the other side after stripping off to just his black tight fitting boxer shorts.

Once in bed, Kakashi pulled me towards him so I was facing him, the lights were off, but I could still make out his face, as well as his miss matched red and black eyes. Which never seemed to amaze me that the contrast of colours were not scary, but soft and made Kakashi more interesting and unusual, yet attractive.

"You don't mind me coming around Sakura? I know I said I would give you time, but I like your company, especially on an evening" He said softly as he put his hand to my cheek.

"Kakashi, I don't mind. It's fine, maybe use the door next time or give me some warning your attempting to break into my house, but no I don't mind" I laughed as I put my leg in between his, which in turn made Kakashi jump slightly. I don't know if he was shocked I was getting so close or that he was shocked at the feel of skin next to his own. Which on my part always made me shiver whenever my own skin was in contact with Kakashi's.

"I need time to figure things out, don't get me wrong. But I can happily live with spending most nights like this Kakashi, I can tell you that" I said, not thinking before I spoke again. I felt lost in his touch, I seemed to loose all rational thought when I was around him, let alone when he touched me. Was this a bad thing? Didn't this just mean I was ready to let him back into my life fully? I don't know but they are questions I can ask myself in the morning when I'm not so tired.

Hope it was ok, please review :D

The next Chapter should be ready by next week (im hoping for the end of the weekend to be honest) But there is going to be a twist in the next chapter (which the story wasnt going to end up going down the road ive taken it, but hopefully you will all like it) :D xXx