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Chapter 7

A New life begins

May 2nd (9.15am)

'Okay, I have had a way to busy for the past few months with work, seeing Hinata and Naruto, seeing Kakashi and just trying to fit everything I need to do in the short space of the day.

But I will talk about all this in a bit.

I need to scream at the moment, as my period that's normally bang on, doesn't seem to want to show up now in 2 weeks, Yeah enough reason to scream right?

A part from the fact that the little white stick currently sitting on top of my toilet is currently flashing a rather visible blue line.

I've done 3 tests now and that same angry blue little line is still popping up.

Not that I don't have enough to deal with on my plate at the moment, I end up pregnant at bloody 22, whose father may bugger off as soon as I tell him I am currently carrying his off spring!

I feel lost yet again. So so many thoughts running through my head at the moment, one including do I really want a child? Especially when I'm getting my career on the right path, as well as not to mention the fact that myself and the child's father aren't exactly the most suitable parents, as well as the fact that we aren't currently in an exclusive relationship with each other. Well apart from the fact that we have spent near enough every night together for over a month as well as any free time either of us could muster up between me working and Kakashi going on two seven day missions.

I just don't know, I don't even know who to speak to about this. I could talk to Naruto or even Hinata, but they don't have children yet. And I frankly don't know many people that do have children, apart from the parents I met whilst working on the children's ward and Dr Kobi Saito who has a young daughter from a previous relationship.

Maybe talking to Kobi might be an idea, as he is a nice man and I'm sure he would listen and help if he can. But then I have the trouble of do I tell Kakashi first and then speak to parents and make my decision then? Or do I speak to parents and Kobi before I speak to Kakashi? But then I am left with if Kakashi finds out I have told others before him, I can't say I would blame him if he was a little pissed off.

Oh god, what did I do in a previous life to deserve all of this? Well I suppose my life could be worse, so I can't really grumble, but everything that's gone on in the past 2 months is starting to take it toll I think.

Right, I am going to stop thinking about babies and any decisions to do with a baby and talk about work.

I finished my stint on the maternity ward and finished my last shift on the children's ward today, and much to my own surprise I have really enjoyed working on both wards. It's been hard to see very young children sick and especially after witnessing a still birth, it was horrific. I don't know how the nurses kept their composure seeing a tiny little baby that normally bring so much joy to a persons life and this brought so much grief and torture to the mother and father, it was a devastating sight to see.

But it has been good, I feel I have learned a lot from working on both wards, both interesting and emotional at the same time but very enjoyable. And maybe even a career path I choose, depending on where I will be placed after my 2 weeks in the emergency clinic. Which I believe I will be finding out from Tsunade tomorrow where I will be going and she wants to hear how I have been getting on since I returned back, which no doubt will be a long boring afternoon for me.

The past month apart from today seeing that blue little line, I have had a good but busy month.

I went round to see Hinata and all the plans for the wedding, which I thoroughly enjoyed, but my God they must have spent an utter fortune on the kimonos alone, I wouldn't like to see the sum of money that Hiashi has paid for this wedding, let alone how charming Naruto must have been for Hiashi to allow Hinata to marry Naruto. But everyone at the Hyuuga mansion seemed rather happy about the wedding, including Neji. Who I haven't seen in a long while, who is also getting married to Tenten. Which I believe he said their ceremony would be in November I believe.

But as for the wedding Hinata's Kimono is stunning, she told me she had chosen 3 and were going to wear all three throughout the day, but she has decided not to now.

Her white kimono for the ceremony itself was so beautiful. It was quite plain on the front, with so tiny butterflies on the front you could hardly see them, and then on the back was a beautiful design of a blossom tree, not pink buds, but blue. And it looked amazing with the tiny butterflies all around the blossom tree as well. Each butterfly and little bits on the tree had sequins on which in the light sparkled and simply looked amazing.

Hinata's uchikake which she will be wearing just after the wedding ceremony and for the first part of the reception, again is simply stunning. Again the uchikake is white, with a silver rose pattern all over, which again in the light everything sparkled and looked so pretty.

With the wedding being in the summer, Hinata has a second Kimono for the evening reception. She will be wearing an ivory Yukata with a very pale blue rose pattern all over, which is a very similar design to her uchikake. But either way, when she has then on, I think Naruto my have heart attack at how beautiful she will look.

I'm getting rather excited about the wedding now, as everything is so well planned out and everything seems stunning.

Hinata showed me around part of the garden where the actual ceremony will be taking place. It was near the back of the 'way to many acres to count sized garden' which Hinata told me there will be a white carpet leading from the back of the main house all down to end of the garden where there will be a large arch which will be decorated in white and red fresh roses. Oh and how could I forget the white carpet will have fresh white and red rose petals spread all over. Either way it all sounds magnificent.

Hinata didn't mention much about the reception, apart from the fact it was an 8 course meal I believe (which has to have been Naruto's idea surely, with Hinata being that petite I don't think she could fit 8 courses into her stomach without exploding)

I am just getting so excited for them both now, every time Hinata mentioned something about the wedding, a light glow seemed to appear around her and when I mentioned Naruto, well she was like a star, she just glowed. Which made me smile so much and is making me smile now thinking about the two of them, how happy and in love they are. I am even more happy to say that Hinata has asked me to be her bridesmaid along with her sister Hanabi. Which I am more than pleased about to be able to play a part in their big day.

All though it's not that traditional to have bridesmaid's and a best man, Hinata and Naruto have picked up on the western tradition. Hinata said she wanted the people most important in her life to have bigger role and Naruto agreed with her.

If I know Naruto, I would think Sasuke will be Best Man, as it seems the most likely choice with Naruto not having his father alive nor having any other siblings.

Talking of Sasuke, in the month and a half I have been back and since that evening when Sasuke seemed to already know about Kakashi and I previously being together, myself, Kakashi nor Naruto have found out how he knew. Naruto used the tactic I like to call "Naruto Tactic One" which is just ask them straight out. Then he went for "Naruto tactic Two" annoy the living crap out of the person by asking to many questions until they give in and finally he did "Naruto tactic Three" which was trying to do the silent treatment (which really, this isn't going to bother Sasuke, the expert at silence) But Naruto being Naruto, this didn't last long.

I had asked around about when Sasuke had come back into the village and everyone had said the same day, I had even asked Tsunade and a few members of ANBU, and they all said the same.

I have no idea who Kakashi had been speaking to but he said that Sasuke had been in Konoha 2 weeks before anyone in the actual village had seen him, including Naruto. The "source" Kakashi had been speaking to said he had been living in a small house just outside Konoha, where he had been living with a blonde woman. Which has puzzled me, as Kakashi's "source" had said that the blonde women never showed her face outside so he wasn't sure who she was.

A blonde women doesn't really narrow the search down though does it, apart from Kakashi's "source" saying the she was thin and around 5ft 6inches. Which basically was every blonde woman in Konaho really.

So Kakashi has taken it on board to keep a close eye on Sasuke, as he believes something just isn't right about the whole situation. Which Naruto and I have had to agree with him, as why did he hide for 2 weeks? But what I want to know more about is this blonde, it's really intrigued me.

Kakashi, Naruto and I have discussed talking to Tsunade about it, but Kakashi and Naruto both agreed that until we find out more we keep it between ourselves. I think getting Tsunade involved would solve the puzzle right away and there would be no need for any of us to be sneaking around trying to find out what really happened. I think Kakashi and Naruto are enjoying playing detective far to much!

On the subject of Tsunade and back onto the topic of babies, I have NO idea how she is going to react when at some point I am going to have to get a check up and a scan, that's if a baby is really what I want. (oh god I can see it being a rather long few weeks with me telling myself one thing and then another)

But either way I will need to get checked out and actually confirm that I am pregnant (the 3 home tests shouldn't be wrong, well if they are they were the biggest waste of money ever)

See now I am in another pickle, do I go to Tsunade and explain to her that I think I might be pregnant and I can have all the tests done, but face an avalanche of questions? Or do I tell Kakashi risking what we have now and then find out I might not be pregnant and cause god knows how many problems? Oh the bloody choices.'

I put my pen inside the diary and sit looking out of the window for a while thinking about what to do.

"Knock, knock"

"Brilliant, someone has to come round, when I just wanted to be on my own and think about things" I thought to myself.

I walked through the hallway to the door and opened the lock. I opened the door slightly to just peer out of the tiny gap I had opened.

"Good morning" I heard him say as a smile crept across my face.

I opened the door so I could see him fully, he was wearing his usual Jounin outfit. I live in hope that one day he will come round when he's not wearing it! But for some reason I felt better now he was here with me.

"Morning, are you coming in?" I asked as he seemed to be just standing there.

"I was admiring the view" He laughed as walked in, pulling me into a hug. "I like your outfit" he laughed as he took of his mask and gave me a kiss.

"I sense the sarcasm Kakashi" I laughed looking down at what I was wearing, which happened to be a pair of white PJ bottoms and one of Kakashi's black T-shirts. "What's wrong with my outfit? I was ready to go out in this as well" I said pouting.

"Well, I can't wait to see what every one thinks of your rather stunning outfit" he laughed, pulling me closer again.

"Do you want a drink" I asked as I started to make my way into the kitchen.

"Coffee please" He replied sitting down in the lounge. "This is pretty Sakura" He shouted so I could hear.

I popped my head around the archway from the kitchen leading into the living room, to see Kakashi about to hold up diary as the pen fell out.

"Yeah it's pretty, but please don't read it" I asked walking back into the kitchen having a mini heart attack.

"Why? What's in it" Kakashi asked, closing my diary and just holding it in his hands. I put his coffee on the table and sat next to him.

"It's something your eye's don't need to see" I laughed, moving closer to him.

"Oh really, well how about I take a look and my eyes can decide for themselves?" He laughed putting his one arm around my back and resting his hand on my hip.

"It's my diary if you must know" I said looking down.

"Oh really, I didn't know you had a diary" He said smiling. "I hope it's all good things in here about me then" he said laughing.

"Lets just say, its got better over the past few months" I said resting my head on his shoulder.

We sat there with the T.V on in the background just sitting there. I was in my head arguing with myself, about whether to tell Kakashi I was pregnant or not. I think after 15 minutes of sitting debating the subject in my own head, I felt like I had to tell him.

"Kakashi?" I said, starting to feel sick as my hands began to shake. "Why am I getting so nervous" I asked myself.

"Yes Sakura" Kakashi said soft, moving his head so he was looking down at me where I was lying on his chest.

"Okay I really don't know how to say it" I went on, as my mouth began to dry out. "I erm...well...The thing is..." I stuttered.

"Sakura, what ever it is, just say it. Your making me worried now" He said moving me up from his chest so I had to look at him face to face.

"Oh not as worried as your gonna be when I tell you" I said to myself

"I...er..." I paused. "I'm..." I paused yet again. "Pregnant" I whispered. I saw his eyes widen as soon as I said pregnant.

"Sorry Sakura, I don't think I heard you correctly" he asked now holding my hand.

"By the look of your face Kakashi, you heard me loud and clear" I said coldly.

He sat there staring for what seemed like eternity, as I sat awaiting some form of reassurance that everything would be okay from him.

"I'm sorry Sakura" He said looking down.

"Oh I fucking knew it. The bastards going to sodding leave me to raise his own son or daughter. Bloody wonderful. Well played me!!" I starting shouting inside my head.

"Sakura you look angry, I meant I'm sorry for going quiet" He said lifting up my chin. "I'm just shocked that's all, it's a bit of a surprise" He said smiling. "It shouldn't be a shock really should it.

Neither of us took any form of action for preventing this" He said softly.

He took my hand and kissed me on the lips. "Sakura, it's maybe not the best situation for either of us right now. But If your worried I am going to walk off and leave you with our child, then you are going to have to think again." He said softly pulling me into a hug.

"I never thought I would ever be a father Sakura and this may be a challenge for me, but I really wouldn't want a child with anyone else." He whispered in my ear, as a tear began to fall from my face. "I love you Sakura, I always have and after all this time, I think I always will" He quietly said as I moved away from the hug to look at him.

His face was beaming, and he was smiling so much that the tiny little dimples on each side of cheek were prominent than normal. He looked like heaven and it was a look of pure joy, which in turn made me smile.

"Kakashi, this isn't what I wanted yet, you understand that right? It's not that I don't love you, I've stopped loving you. But this really isn't what I wanted right now" I said, still trying to remain positive, all though I felt like crying.

"I understand Sakura, that's why we were taking things slowly, I will accept whatever decision you make though Sakura." He softly tried to reassure me.

"I'm not going to have an abortion Kakashi, I have thought about it and I just couldn't do it." I paused. " I just don't know what to do, I've been around children much, we will have to sort out living arrangement, money's going to be an issue as the baby things aren't cheap, then we have to face Tsunade as well as the rest of the village, and then we have to deal with this actual little child that's our responsibility..."

"Sakura Stop" Kakashi interrupted. "These are all things we can arrange, simple things. Money is not an issue for me Sakura, I have enough money to never have to work again, so buying a cot, push chair, toys and a bottles are really not a problem for me. As for living arrangement's, we have 3 options. One we live at our apartments separately like now and just continue to see each other everyday and stay when we feel like. Two, we could move in with each other as in you move into my apartment or I move in here. Or three the completely different option, but it means we are serious about being together. We buy a new house together ." He paused awaiting my answer I believe. But after a moment he continued, "as for you not knowing much about babies, neither do I. We can learn Sakura, they don't come with manuals so you just have to take one day at a time. And I am sure that once you have got used to the idea of a baby and then when the baby is born, you will stop worrying. As for the village, forget them, if they want to talk let them, but as for Tsunade I don't know what the hell she is going to say" He finished.

I looked at him throughout his whole speech to reassure me that we could cope, and he was glowing, it was like he was the one that was pregnant, he seemed so happy to talk about our child. I laughed at this and he noticed.

"What's funny?" he asked.

"You" I smiled. "Just now, when you were telling me about buying things for the baby and living arrangement's. You seem so happy Kakashi." I finished.

"I am Sakura, I'm back spending time with the woman I love and she just so happens to be carrying my child" he beamed, putting his arm around my shoulder.

"I am going to have to go to Tsunade soon you know and tell her I think I might be pregnant, as I need it confirmed and a scan" I said softly, putting my head back onto Kakashi's chest, the area just below his collar bone leading down towards his pecks, that seemed to be my spot.

"Well just go and speak to her, see how she reacts to you being pregnant first, then judge if it's going to be safe to tell her about me" Kakashi said resting his head on my own.

"I am supposed to be meeting her tomorrow, to find out where I will be working next week, but I kind of want to get it out of the way before I can start thinking to much about it and then end up putting off not going and never knowing when the baby would be due" I spurted out without taking a breath.

Kakashi laughed "well if you want to go now, I will happily come with you. Especially if you have a scan, I want to be there"

"You wont see anything now Kakashi, its the size of a seed or something stupid" I laughed.

"That maybe true, but it's our little seed and I want to see it" he smiled putting his arms around.

"Okay well I am going to get dressed and we can go. But Kakashi, I want to speak to Tsunade first before you come in or anything. Is that okay?" I asked making my way towards my bedroom.

"Sakura that's fine as long as I get to see the seed I don't mind" Kakashi laughed.

We left my apartment thirty minutes later and made our way towards the Hokage tower. We held hands when there wasn't many people about and then just walked close when we got to the busier parts of Konoha. And out of everything, I loved this the most. Being out together, like an ordinary couple.

As we got closer to the Hokage's tower, it dawned on me, we were going to be able to see our child, a new little life, a new little life made with the man I couldn't help to seem to fall in love with over and over again one single day.