Mimi

Dead. My best friend is dead. The worst thing about though, is that she's never coming back. I know, I know, it's stupid to eve think she could come back; life isn't some sort of fairy tale. Even though…sometimes, I secretly wish it could be. Why does it always have to be the good that die first? Angel was one of the only good souls left on this earth, but that stupid disease…It kills. It kills the people who are supposed to live! Angel was supposed to live; she's not supposed to be gone. She can't be…this is all a dream, that's the only logical reason.

Shit, but what is logic anyway? How is it logical that a beautiful person like her without a bad bone in her body could one day just up and die? How is it logical that while Collins is over there suffering the loss of someone he truly loves, I'm still over here alive? I should be the one in that box. I cheated, I shot up drugs, I left the one I loved…and yet, Angel's in that box, not me.

Angel girl, where are you when I need you the most? Why did you have to leave me so soon? I don't want to be selfish, and I'm glad you don't have to suffer anymore…but I miss you girl. I miss you so much. Do you remember? We used to have the best times together. You were the only one I could ever get real with. I was more real with you than I was with myself sometimes chica…I'm gonna miss that. I'm gonna miss you.

"So did you talk to him yet?" Angel asked Mimi. The two sat together in Mimi's apartment eating Chinese food and gossiping.

"No Angel, I did not talk to him yet…we all can't be as forward as you are, okay?"

Angel smiled, "Hey, no need to take offense. It's just that if I see a man I want, the only thing stopping me is…well nothing! That's why Collins and I are perfect together. Ain't nothing gonna stop us!"

Mimi shook her head, "honestly, how can you tell after one or two days?"

"Chica, some things you just know, you know?"

"I wish," Mimi replied while taking a bite out of Angel's chicken lo mien, "If I did, then maybe I'd get up the nerve to talk to him…"

"Aww sugar, you've got the nerve. It's all in here." Angel pointed to Mimi's chest and accidentally poked her boob.

"Eww! Boob grab!" Mimi exclaimed. Angel then commenced to tickle her making the pair laugh together. "Angel, stop! I'm trying to be serious here!"

Angel quickly put on her "serious" face, "So what are you gonna do about it then chica?"

"I really don't know! Say we end up talking and we decide to date…then what? I can't fall in love with him Angel, it'd be pointless!"

"Mimi Marquez! Love is never pointless! To fall in love is the most magical thing that can happen to a person!"

"Yeah, but Ang, we've only got so long to live…I couldn't put him through the pain of not knowing if we'd be together forever…" Mimi looked down at her food frowning. Why did this have to be so hard?

Angel picked up Mimi's chin, "Meems, life isn't guaranteed to anyone. We could all be in some freak accident tomorrow and pass away. God forbid something like that happen, but who knows? AIDS may not necessarily be our demise!"

"Yeah, I guess your right; but Angel…I'm scared."

"I know sweetie because well, I'm scared too. I'm scared too…Neither Collins nor I are sure how long we've got left…but when you fall in love you cannot escape it no matter how hard you try.

"How do I know Roger and I will just instantly fall in love like you and Collins?"

"Chica," Angel replied smiling, "You'll never know unless you talk to him! And plus what happened to 'No day but today' huh? Now no more serious stuff, pass me an egg roll!" Mimi laughed and passed her friend some food. The two spent the rest of the night giggling together and enjoying each other's company. That night, Mimi could imagine a life without her best friend; a life without Angel.

But now I am without Angel. And I'm with Benny to top it off…what the fuck happened to me? What happened to "No day but today"? I don't know for sure but I do know that something's go to change and soon. I've got to talk to Roger...everything needs to be alright again. I couldn't live with myself if I let him leave without at least trying to get him to stay…

But first I've got to pay my respects to my girl. She'd want me to be brave for her and remember the good times…She'd want this to be a celebration of her life…not a mourning service. She's in heaven now, singing with the angels. I bet she's the brightest one up there too…my best friend Angel.

"It's right that today's Halloween. It was Angel's favorite holiday. I knew we'd hit it off the moment we met. There was this skinhead that was harassing her and she just walked right up to him and said, 'I'm more of a man than you'll ever be and more of a woman than you'll ever get'"

Mimi sat down and looked over at Collins who expressed his gratitude by forcing a smile on his face. She sat back against Benny and the tears for her lost loved one finally released themselves. They were tears if sorrow but also tears of joy because now, Angel was finally free.

A/N: I'm so sorry. Like SO sorry. It's been way too long since I updated it...and then I give you a short cahpter...its been rough this new year, but it's getting better so hopefully I'll be able to update more often. I'm so sorry for letting down my fans...review though, please?