Sorry it took so long to update guys. I feel really bad about that. But this time, I had honestly nothing I could do about it. My laptop got a virus on it, and my dad had to fix it. Meanwhile, I couldn't remember where I left off in this story, so I couldn't work on it. Plus, I started summer school on the 2nd of July. I'm taking Biology (eww. I wanted to get it out of the way, since in September, I wouldn't want to be a Junior taking it with a bunch of Freshmen.) By the way, this is totally disregarding the Achey Jakey Heart episodes, even if I used his real name in there.

Jake's THOUGHTS

Miley and I had our date, and there's one thing that I'm sure of now.

There's no connection between us. Back before I left, there was this…I don't know how to describe it…this little voice in my head telling me 'this is the right thing to do. Miley is the right girl for you.' But that little voice doesn't talk to me about Miley anymore. It talks to me about Lilly. And only Lilly.

I see her, and my heart flips. That used to happen with Miley…But then again, this is how I used to feel about Miley, four months ago. I'm not really sure what happened. I mean, I know why I was able to explain it away so easy. I wrote about that last time. But I don't know why it happened. Somewhere in those four months, my feelings for Miley just...faded. (Which makes me wonder how strong they really were in the first place.)

I have to break up with Miley, I know that. It's not fair to her to lead her on. And hopefully, Lilly still wants me. (But who wouldn't? I'm Jake Ryan!) I should break up with Miley soon...but I can't bring myself to do it. Some say that I'm a little, well, self centered (crazy, I know) but I really am human under it all. I wouldn't want to hurt Miley. But I don't feel right about pretending to like her either...

I know what I should do. The problem is doing it. Maybe I could write her a letter or an email?

No. That'd be lame.

Or maybe over the phone...I guess it would probably be easier if I didn't see her while I was talking. That would make everything worse. Especially if she cried. Jake Ryan doesn't flinch at crying girls...Leslie Ryan, on the other hand, doesn't like it. (By the way, the fact that my name is really Leslie never leaves this notebook.)

I wonder if Lilly likes the name Leslie...