Letter To Hikaru
A/N: Just a little letter that I thought Akari would write possibly for Hikaru.
Disclaimer: I don't own Hikaru No Go.
Warnings: A little OOC.
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A few minutes have passed since she first walked into the bedroom. The minutes continue to move forward while she continues to sit in the same spot without budging from her chair. The only part of her that made any movement was her hand fumbling with a pencil. She seemed to be in deep thought about making a heart felt confession.
The times had changed as she saw that the two of them were growing apart. It started out with both of them following different goals to pursue. She witnessed the Hikaru's growth in the game of Go. Along with that she also bared witness to his time of need where he almost completely crumbled.
When he faultered she wasn't the one who saved him, she blamed herself for that. Two years have passed since that time in his life that she could've made a difference. The guilt that she feels makes her want to repent for leaving him to his struggles alone.
She straightened herself into an upright position. She paused for a second, picking up the pencil as she cleared her head of all of the thoughts. The confession started as she placed words into the stationary.
"Dear Hikaru,
I don't know how to explain this to you. I mean it's been two years, you probably won't remember me. I hope you do remember who I am. I'm really no good with words so I guess I'll try to start by saying that I've been thinking. To be exact I've been thinking about you. I haven't been able to understand my feelings until recently. The way I constantly think about you. I'm wondering how you're doing. I'm hoping you're okay. I really want to see you and talk to you.
You'll think I'm crazy or delusional. I don't mind, I just wanted you to know that I care about you. Not like a normal friend, I fear the truth will make you hate me. I think I might've and still love you. Sounds crazy doesn't it? I'm hoping in a silly part of my mind that you'll accept that. But I don't think you could, when you needed someone I couldn't do anything to help you. That time you were hurting I tried with my lame attempt but I failed.
I've started writing these poems, letters and songs for you. I've kept them I wish I could show them to you. I wish I could make you see how I feel for you..."
Akari halted, her finishing touches weren't going to be completed with this letter. The feelings that she held so close to her heart couldn't simply be understood with words. Sometimes actions prove to be more than enough to make it known how one feels. She reread the letter before crumpling the note and throwing it aside with the other sheets of paper that she'd thrashed.
In her heart she hoped that her actions did prove that her feelings for him existed. She believed that he must've had feelings for him also.
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