I woke sensing someone standing by my bunk. I opened my eyes and peered at the person who was reaching over to shake me awake.

"Kristin?"

"You awake?" she asked.

"Why else would I be talking unless I talk in my sleep," I said looking up at her. I screwed up my face and added, "I had a weird dream though. Radar and I were dancing then all of a sudden he was dieing right in front of me on the dusty ground. The funny thing is that dreaming of someone dieing means ill luck to me and to my friends. But that can't be it. Radar's here isn't he?"

Kristin looked at the other nurses in the tent. She sat on the edge of my bed and I sat up. It looked like she had something she didn't want to say to me. "That's the thing Bridgette. He's been gone since dinner yesterday. Everyone thinks he took a jeep and went down the road. He could be anywhere right now."

I sat with my mouth hanging open and Kristin put her arm around me. Then I jumped up and yelled, "What the hell got into him? Just leaving like that. If ever I find him I'll…I'll…" I sat back down and started crying. Kristin put her arm back around me.

"I'm sure he's okay. He's fine. He's fine Bridgette. Don't worry. He'll show up soon enough. Radar can find his way back from anywhere. He's Radar remember?" She looked up at the other nurses and quietly bade them to leave. They left us after some words of encouragement and left me to my crying and Kristin to her consoling.

"I don't even like him," I sniffed.

"Now, that's not true. I know you liked him," she said softly.

"Stop talking about him as a pretense. I don't just like him I might love him. The little boggart. He's so innocent and I like that in a person because I'm like that. I don't hang out with guys because they have sex appeal. I do because I feel more comfortable with them. That's all and Radar… Radar just reminded me of my childhood friends before they… they started imposing on the local girls. They never did act like I was a girl just one of the guys. Well here Radar he acts like them a bit but he recognizes me as a female at least. Oh, sure Hawkeye sees me but as a woman not someone to really talk to as a friend. Now Charles he's different. He's very courteous but he's just too stingy for my taste. You should have seen the look he gave Hawkeye last night. It probably could have curdled even The Swamp's miracle milk." I gave a laugh and sighed after my little speech.

"Well then you should go talk to Colonel Potter. Forget about your shift I'll handle it for you."

I gave a harsh laugh. "I know I haven't been here too long but I know Major Houlihan will never allow it."

Now she gave a sigh. "You're right. Let me talk to her for you. You just go around your business and get ready for your shift and I'll talk to her for you."

I gave a smile and hugged her. "Thank you Kristin! Thank you!"

"Don't thank me yet I haven't talked to her!"

"It's for your caring nature. Thank you."

I got up and got dressed. I made my way to the mess tent and sat with B.J., Hawkeye, Charles, Margaret, and Colonel Potter. I said good morning to everyone and sat down next to Hawkeye. I picked at my food and noticed that no one was talking. I looked around and saw that they were all looking glum even Margaret who seemed to me just like a rock solid human with no emotions except angry. Then she got up and left.

When she left she looked at me down her nose and said, "I would like to talk to you before you head to your shift." I nodded my head saying I understood and she left.

I sighed and got up without even tasting my food. I just couldn't stomach anything knowing Radar could be out there lying in a ditch… that he could be out there without food and I know he likes to eat a lot. I went back to my tent and got ready for my shift.

I walked to Margaret's tent and stood in front of her door breathing heavily. She scared me and I didn't know what she would do. Kristin must have talked to her because I didn't know why else she would want to talk to me. I gulped some air, straightened my clothes and nervously knocked on her door.

She bid me enter and I came in closing the door. The shades were all up to take advantage of the sun's light and she was at her desk filling out some papers. I stood at attention waiting for her to finish and when she did she had me sit in another chair and studied me for a while.

"I've heard you want to skip your next shift," she said stiffly.

"It wasn't really my idea," I said nervously. "Kristin offered to do it for me so I could possibly go…"

"Looking for Radar?" she finished. She sighed and looked up at me. She actually looked like she cared. "Colonel Potter wouldn't allow someone to go looking for someone else. I remember when Hawkeye and I where lost once." She gave a smile from a distant memory but brought herself back to the moment at hand. "B.J. and one of the chopper pilots almost got their butts in a sling for looking for us. But of course we were in enemy territory…" She faded of as if in thought. "Maybe I can persuade the old war horse to let you go looking for him."

I looked at her amazed. "Major?" She looked at me again. "Why?"

"I've heard you possibly love the young Corporal. No Kristin didn't tell me, well not directly anyway. I pieced together what she said and B.J. has said some things that have helped me a bit with my detective work too. Okay just go to your shift I'll let you know if you can go looking for him." She patted my leg and dismissed me. When I stood outside her door I looked at it amazed. Margaret just all of a sudden had changed. When I first met her she seemed angry at everyone now she was helping me to be able to go looking for Radar. I shook my head and headed for post-op. Everyone keeps surprising me.

When I had been in my shift for two hours I was called to Potter's office. I was worrying that maybe Margaret wasn't going to ask him. It must have taken some time for him to make up his mind. When I left B.J. looked at me quizzingly but I just gave him a smile and a wave.

Klinger met me in Radar's office and ushered me into Potter's office. Margaret sat in one of the chairs in front of Potter's desk and Potter was sitting behind it.

"Have a seat Bridgette. Have a seat." I sat down in the chair he indicated and waited his verdict. He shook his head and started, "I hear you would like to go looking for Radar. I already have I-Corp looking for him. Why do you think you should go looking for him?"

I blushed and answered, "Sir, I think I may be the cause why he left."

"Oh, and why's that?" he asked with raised eyebrows.

"Well the night before he left we kissed then B.J. and Hawkeye came by and started laughing. I'm sure he was feeling embarrassed about it all. Well, I was too but my anger soon replaced it. He was drunk when we kissed but I believe he might have some real feelings for me Sir. So I would like permission to look for him."

Potter considered this a minute then called Klinger. He asked him to get B.J., Charles and Hawkeye. "Would you ladies care for a drink?" he asked as he made his way to his liquor cabinet. We said no thanks and waited for the doctors to appear.

B.J. came in with a set expression on his kindly face with Hawkeye and Charles in tow. "Potter don't let her. Don't let her go looking for him. I'm sure he's okay and on his way back."

"And how do you know what I was calling you for?" Potter looked out through the doors and saw Klinger's big nose disappear from the little window and could hear some papers being shuffled.

Hawkeye stepped up to the desk and placed his hands on the desk. "Don't let her Colonel. She wouldn't know what to do if she was attacked. She's still new to Korea let someone else go or have someone go with her at least."

"Now just wait one minute! I can handle myself Pierce. I'm a big girl. I can hold my own," I said furiously.

"Just hold you horses everyone. I haven't made up my mind yet," said Potter.

Everyone took a seat somewhere in his office and quieted down. "Now, I was thinking of letting her go to go looking for him from her story." He raised his hand to silence the surgeons' protests. "But Pierce brings up a good point." He raised his hand again but this time to quiet down Margaret's and my protests. "That's why one of you fine excellent surgeons will accompany her. Any volunteers?"

All three of them looked at each other nervously. They all knew what it was like out there and they didn't want to go out there again as soon as possible.

Then Hawkeye and B.J. both stood up at the same time and volunteered. I smiled at them in thanks and looked at Charles puzzlingly. Charles avoided my eyes and pretended to examine his nails. I looked back at the surgeons who had volunteered and smiled again.

"Welcome aboard B.J.," I smiled at him gratefully. I didn't really want to go out there by myself but I didn't like it that Hawkeye said I wouldn't know what to do out there.

"Hey, what about me?" asked Hawkeye slightly offended.

I gave him a bemused look and answered, "I don't trust you if we were alone together."

"But I've been here the longest and would know what to do," he protested. I could feel Margaret brisling because Hawkeye was making a big deal to go out there with me and he hadn't said he was trustworthy to go out with me alone.

I turned to B.J. "Would you know what to do if we were attacked?"

"Sure." He gave a shrug.

"Fine. B.J.'s going with me Colonel."

Colonel gave a nod and dismissed us so B.J. and I could pack some things, figure out where we're going and to set off to look for Radar. When we left I saw that Hawkeye looked a bit dejected at not being picked. I shook my head. I didn't really trust him if we are alone together. I packed a small bag with some food and water and met B.J. outside by a jeep with a map so we could figure out where to go. We argued a bit which road to take and we ended up going down B.J.'s road. We threw our bags into the back of the jeep and hit the road.

That night when we hadn't seen any sign of Radar we stopped at the side of the road and drove behind some bushes. "Incase some North Koreans are prowling around." I shivered. I didn't want to think about what any North Koreans might do to a woman they captured.

We didn't risk a fire but ate our dinner silently. Then we laid down to sleep in the jeep so if we were ambushed who ever sat in front could quickly drive away. B.J. sat in the front so he could stretch out his long legs better and he would probably be better to respond if we were attacked. We whispered a bit to pass the time until we drifted off.

B.J. was the first to drift off and left me to think about our predicament. After being out here at night I was starting to regret my decision of coming out here. Every time I heard a bush rustle in the breeze I jumped thinking it was a North Korean or Chinese soldier creeping up on us. But then I thought of Radar being out here by himself and I put my fears aside. I was out here to find him. I'm not out there for a lovely picnic. I was out here to find my possible love. But when I thought about that, my 'possible love' I would start thinking, Do I really love him? Sure he's nice and innocent and all that but do I really love this little man? But then after a moment searching my heart I came up with the conclusion. Yes. I do love the sensitive little man that he is. With that thought I drifted off to sleep with a smile playing at my lips.