Hey!!

Sorry I haven't written in a long time!!... ive been dying too!!

But I got grounded and they took my comp. away… ugh!! It sucked ass!!!! Hahahahah

But I am going to start updateing again

Oh and if you guys have something you want in the story tell me an ill try to fit it in…

Kk heres ch. 4

BE MY HEROIN, BE MY DRUG

CHAPTER 4

"Here is some brochure's of some rehab centers. In addition, he is going to need someone there to help him through the withdrawals, lots of water and support." The doctor looked down once more at Roxas who was sitting in a wheelchair then back at axel who was gripping tightly on the handles.

The doctor smiled sympathetically and then nodded before he turned to leave. Axel pushed Roxas down the white hallway followed by Sora, and Riku. Riku was walking calmly with a few gifts gently resting in his arms, and Sora tagged along with difficulty as he was carrying gifts that were just too much for him to carry. They were silent as they walked down the long hallways. Making turns here and turns there. Axel sighed as he let his mind wander through the memories of the past few weeks.

Nurses were struggling to get the straps his legs and arms, they were yelling at a me. I could not do anything. They were yelling but I couldn't understand anything they were saying. I was useless. Roxas was twisting and turning, his forehead was covered in sweat, and his face was contorted in pain and torture. Suddenly I rushed forward and grabbed a hold of his hand. They were small, but they had a strong grip. He was trembling and crying. I whispered to him that it would be all right, telling my self that more than him. I just wanted him to calm down… more than anything I wanted to make the pain to stop. It hurt bad to see my best friend in such bad shape. Why couldn't I do anything! His arms and legs were strapped down, and only one nurse stayed in the room with us. Roxas was pleading to me, moaning in pain. It was only a second, he leaned his head to one side, and then he vomited. He vomited on the bed and on the floor. He coughed violently and then more bile rose from his throat. The nurse had already grabbed a bucket and was cleaning the bed and floor. Soon the attack had stopped and Roxas fell into a restless sleep. Another nurse came in with new sheets and began to release my friend. The two nurses picked him up and lay him on the couch while they changed the sheets. They flattened the bed and then lay Roxas back on it on his side. They nodded to me before they left and I sat next to my friend on the bed. He was trembling still, and his breathing was staggered. God I wanted so bad to help him! Why couldn't I be there for him?! I stroked his hand as I watched him sleep. There were so many of these attacks, I wish they would just stop.

"Hey Roxas!" Namine's voice cut through Axel's thoughts.

"Hey, what's up?" Roxas's gentle voice made axel smile.

"Alright you're not dying, get out of that wheel chair and get in the car dummy!" Sora said as Kairi opened the back of her SUV. Roxas laughed as Riku, Sora loaded the gifts in the trunk, and Namine climbed in the front passenger seat. Axel helped Roxas out of the wheelchair but when axel tried to help him, further Roxas just put a hand up and said that he could do it. Roxas was full of energy and he didn't really need Axel to help him up but he wanted that small gesture, that simple touch from his best friend. Roxas climbed into a seat followed by axel and as soon as they were buckled, they were on the way home.

The car ride was full of excitement. Lots of laughs, smiles, and jokes. There was lots of catching up to do! They soon came back to their hometown. They all went to Axel's dorm to make sure that Roxas was settled in okay. Axel's dorm was small, like any other college dorm. There were three rooms, a bathroom, a bedroom and a kitchen/living room. The place had clothes everywhere and dishes piled to the ceiling. There were flies zooming around the trash, and in the bathroom. The TV was on but muted. Books and papers lay carelessly about. Games and movies had been messed up and towels had been lying uselessly over a torn couch.

Everyone gaped when they stepped inside the small home, even Axel. "Axel! How disgusting! This is absolutely gross!" Kairi exclaimed and the others agreed. Axel rubbed the back of his head sheepishly as he opened a window and grinned ashamedly at his friends.

"Roxas cannot stay in living conditions such as this," Namine said in a calm but firm voice. The others began scolding and offering that Roxas could stay with them and other things of the sort. Axel put his hand on his hip and sighed. How annoying, he thought.

"Dude guys look I'm gonna clean it up! If you really want to make sure its safe, you can help me," Axel said with a smirk on his face.

Kairi and Namine looked at each other as if he just spoke another language, and Sora of course being the good boy he was, just simply agreed and walked over to begin with the dishes.

Finally, Axel, Kairi, and Namine joined in and helped cleaning around the house. Riku simply stated firmly," I am NOT cleaning," and sat on the couch.

Roxas knelt down and began reorganizing the movies and games and such before, Axel yelled," Roxas, get up and sit your ass on the couch, you are not cleaning."

Before Roxas could argue Riku got up and pulled Roxas's arm to make him sit on the couch next to him.

A few hours went by, they half cleaned and half threw stuff around at each other, before the house was actually clean. Axel and Roxas said goodbye to everyone and when the door closed there was finally peace. Axel sighed and then gave Roxas a weary smile. Roxas smiled back unsurely, before looking around at the newly cleaned apartment.

"It looks really clean, compared to what it did look like," Roxas said.

"Damn it really was a mess wasn't it?" Axel agreed.

Roxas raised an eyebrow as he put his hands on his hips," a mess? Well that's definitely an understatement."

"Shut up!" Axle laughed half heartedly as he punched Roxas's arm.

Roxas punched him back lightly as he massaged his shoulder. Damn Axel hit hard!

"Shit! It's already seven!" Axel exclaimed after looking at his watch.

Roxas stared at the tall red head as he Axel moved around a half wall into the kitchen. The form fitting black shirt that clung to his torso, and the slightly baggy blue jeans that hugged his hips, were flattering on Axel's figure. Roxas looked down at the grungy t-shirt and ripped blue jeans suddenly feeling very insecure about his appearance.

Axel turned around with a pizza box and two beers. Axel pulled a plate out, put the pizza on it and put it in the microwave, then headed for the couch.

"Dude come on sit down," the redhead commanded as his green eyes met ice blue, and silently Roxas sat down next to his best friend.

"Here," axel handed a miller lite bottle to his blond friend as he turned on the TV.

"Dude, I can't drink," Roxas stated.

Axel turned to his friend in surprise and confusion, and then it dawned on him. "Oh shit sorry man!" Axel smacked his forehead," damn I'm already fuckin' up!"

Roxas lay a gentle hand on Axel's back in a gesture of comfort, only to be interrupted by the microwave beeping. Reluctantly Axel got up slowly and walked toward the microwave. He grabbed the steaming plate and walked back over to the couch. He sat down and set the plate between the two of them on the coffee table before them. axel stared at the pizza blankly before turning to his younger friend. "Well it ain't a feast but it'll have to do its all I got."

Before axel could grab a slice, Roxas had wolfed down half of a piece. Axel stared in astonishment as Roxas shoveled down slice after slice. Before Roxas could grab another slice axel grabbed the small tan wrist. Roxas turned to him as if he had just been smacked.

"Slow down man! That is your fourth piece! Leftover pizza isn't that good!" Axel exclaimed as he released his firm grip on the smaller boy's arm.

Roxas giggled,"sorry I just really hated hospital food and I guess I was kind of hungry."

"Yea I can tell," Axel mumbled under his breath.

They sat together for a while watching movies; laughing at the funny things, laughing at the sad things, gasping and then laughing at the disturbing things.

It was near eleven when the last movie finished. Roxas had been yawning for quite sometime now and Axel decided it was time for bed.

"Come on your exhausted let's go to bed." axel said.

Axel stood, grabbed an extra pillow and blanket, and then laid them on the couch. Roxas was standing unsurely, and axel noticed this. "Oh right, you need pajamas."

Axel grabbed some of his pajamas bottoms and a t-shirt out of his drawer and handed them to Roxas. Roxas gave small thanks then followed axle into the bathroom where he explained the shower and showed Roxas where everything was. Roxas was quiet through the little tour and when he closed the door, he finally gave a sigh of relief, and then turned on the shower to the right temperature. Roxas looked into the mirror and then around the small bathroom. He pulled the roughed up shirt over his spiky honey colored hair and then stepped out of his bottoms.

The hot water felt good on his stressed body. He reached up to wet his hair and ran his fingers over his scalp. He sighed again as he relaxed then reached for the washcloth and cleaned himself up. He washed his hair and then just let the water run over his body a little bit after before turning the water off. Roxas pushed the curtain back and a rush of cold air hit his lithe frame. He grabbed a soft fresh white towel and wrapped himself in it as a small child would. A few minutes passed as he dried off and tied the towel around his waist. He combed his hair and brushed his teeth, and then moved to dress. He put on a pair of clean plaid boxers, and then moved for the shirt. The shirt was big, but he liked it that way, sometimes he liked to feel like a child. A child wanting to be like his father so he sneaks into the parent's room and put on an over sized shirt then snuggling up close to there dad. Roxas always wanted that feeling. Roxas stepped into the pajama bottoms axel gave him. There were a little too big around the hip, which was something that could be fixed if Roxas just pulled the drawstring tight. Axel and Roxas were about the same size at the hips. Axel was bigger but not by much. The legs would have fit if they were not so long. One of the major factors was that Axel was extremely tall. Roxas laughed at himself. He looked like Dopey from Snow White, except in the legs not arms. They were so long that they covered his feet, and still dragged the floor.

Roxas opened the bathroom door and walked out to see axel laying a blanket over a pillow on the couch. Axel smiled when he looked up before he erupted into laughter.

"Man those are so big on you!" Axel laughed more, "dude we're going shopping tomorrow!" axel finished as he doubled over in laughter.

Roxas scowled as he looked for something to throw at the bastard. Axel was already in his PJ's: pajama bottoms. No shirt and his bottoms were lower than his boxers showing off the green silk. Roxas studied the pale skin that covered his tight abs and broad muscles. Axel was built. Roxas turned away as a blush sweeped across his face.

Axel walked passed Roxas into the bathroom. Roxas stood for a second and then moved over to the couch and lay on it. Soon he heard rushing water. Roxas closed his eyes for a brief second, and then he heard axel yell form the bathroom,"Yo! I got class in the morning" there was spitting noise and then axel continued," So well go after lunch, you can just chill here or call someone or something it don't really matter."

More spitting and gurgling sounds and then the water stopped and axel appeared at the couch. "Dude your not sleepin' there, you can have the bed." Axel stated.

"But that's your bed, I'm fine right here."

"No you are not, get up I already changed the sheets you're sleeping in my bed. Go ahead." Roxas tried to object but axel had moved swiftly around the back of the couch to the front and grabbed Roxas by the wrists.

"now lets go you're not sleepin' out here!" axel said with a crooked grin.

"Roxas pulled his wrists back once more and then axel had enough. The redheads swooped down, picked the smaller boy up by the waist, and laid him over his shoulder. Axel gave a laugh, when Roxas squeaked and then walked into his bedroom. Roxas punched and pounded against Axel's back as a child would in a temper tantrum, Roxas screamed, hollered, and demanded to be put down, as laughs came out in the midst.

"You really want to be out down?!" axel yelled, as he stopped abruptly.

"Yes!" Roxas hollered.

Before Roxas could say anything else, he heard Axel yell fine and then felt his body being thrown toward the ground. Roxas grabbed onto Axel's neck as he continued to fall, bringing Axel down with him. Roxas soon fell onto a soft bed. Axel yelled as he lost balanced and ended up onto of Roxas. Both hands on either side of Roxas's ribs, as Roxas's face was lying on his side, scrunched up as he held tight to Axel's neck. Roxas slowly untwisted his face and let his arms down as he turned to see axel laughing above him. Roxas laughed also. This was pretty funny.

The laughter subsided, and soon ice blue eyes were staring into a brilliant green. Axel coughed, as he turned his face away with a blush and stood up. He murmured a goodnight and Roxas returned it as he crawled underneath the warm blankets.

For once in a long time, Roxas slept soundly, no dreams, no nightmares, just sleep.

Axel stayed up a while thinking. Damn what the hell? Why the fuck was I blushing? He's my best friend! But I'm so happy he's home… I missed him so much. He really shouldn't blame himself for what happened with the party and his father. His dad deserved it. Evil bastard. Man it's almost midnight I have class in the morning… a fucking year! Damn I fucking missed you Roxas! Why did you have to run away! gone a whole fucking year after that damn party… damn drugs Roxas?what were you thinking Roxas?i missed you so much! We all did! Couldn't you just see that… man Roxas I really fucking missed you…

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Sooo how bout it???? Better? I cant wait till they fuck!! Ahahahaha if they do…dun dun dun!!

Hahaha okay read and review and I will love you!!!!! Ahaha that rhymed!! Kk

Bedtime!!!

Peace

-Hizeme-