He doesn't like me socializing with anyone but him. He says it's better for both of us. I sometimes question that logic to see who he really is trying to help. He says he doesn't know where the club is. I know he knows and I think he knows I know too. He's been keeping their locations secret for a long time now. I sometimes wish I had the audacity to look in his phone book and find out their addresses. The old Karou would have done that just to piss him off, but now I'm different. I'm not as cunning and mischievous as I was. I'm not as devilish or chaotic either. Hikaru has molded me to his liking while putting me in a state of fear. It scares me sometimes. It's like I don't have a mind of my own anymore.
"Karou?"
His voice echoes through the room as the only sound that occupies it besides the ticking lock. "Y-yes?"
"You want some breakfast?"
I do but I don't want to be with him right now. I rather wait for him to finish eating so I can be alone. "I'm not hungry."
"Karou, you're just saying that."
"No I'm not." I tried to make my voice sound sincere, "I'm still full from dinner last night."
Hikaru groaned loudly and left me alone once more. He knew I was lying because we didn't eat last night, at least I didn't. I was too busy having one of my giggle fits. I think I was at least.
I guess I should feel bad about making Hikaru upset. He's always upset with me lately over the things I do. I don't mean to do them. I just have urges and desires even my addiction can't control. I just want to see my friends again. I just want to see my family. I just want to see just about anyone I knew before graduation. I have to. I need to.
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My hands hurt from knocking so hard that even my knuckles are beginning to bleed. I should have put on that lotion Hikaru bought to avoid this problem. It would have protected my malnourished skin to some degree. Or maybe the weather is just sucking ass today. My hands are freezing so maybe it is the weather.
I knocked again, only harder this time until I heard a familiar voice. She was home. My friend was home.
"Hai?"
"Haruhi!"
"Karou?"
"HI HARUHI!"
Jingles and sounds of metal releasing the wooden door sounded behind the barrier as the form of my familiar friend came into view. She wore a pink and blue sweater with some simple jeans. Her hair was in its usual style the way in was back in high school but the only thing she added to accent it was a butterfly clip. She smiled warmly as she extended her arms out, insisting on a hug.
"Hey Haruhi" I smiled and gently hugged the brunette girl, "How are you…?"
A/N: Sorry it's short and took so long. I have classes and midterms are a killer. I would write chap 5 if needed invaderdibby. If you want, to make up for this chap. Again, sorry for the length