Illusion…..the illusion of a bride….a virgin bride… bride….the wedding…oh God, they'll never have the cufflinks engraved in time…going to be late…late for an important date…late for the wedding….
As she tossed restlessly during her drug induced sleep, Malinowski's mind filled with a fleeting array of images and voices. First, was in McCoy's tender embrace. They were laughing as his warm, loving hands began to unfasten the bra she had just put on for the third time in less than a half an hour. She was pushing his hand away, reminding him she had a dress to buy and two anxious young women to shop for …
Next, her eyes were focused on the same bra and matching panties that lay at her feet as she tried to push away another set of hands. Hands that were rough and demanding, unyielding and cold. Suddenly she was lifted off the ground and she could hear the sound of her own voice screaming futilely ….
Stop it….she mind shouted with equal furor. Stop screaming, stop screaming, stop screaming and get a hold of yourself !... He can see you… They're taping this for Jack… Can't let him see me like this…Can't let him… Oh God, not again…
As the steamy water of the shower hit her body, images of the shower on the sailboat she had rented for McCoy filled her mind. When the slick, soapy hands of her attacker roamed possessively over her body, she closed her eyes and tried to remember the touch of her lovers hands as they made love in that tiny space….
As her mind garbbed hold of those reassuring thoughts, she finally grew silent. If she could just hold on…just block it out…she might get through it. She might be able to …then the sound of a foreign voice, coarsely describing what he planned to do to her next, shattered the illusion.
Just lay back and enjoy it…. Before I'm finished, you'll be begging for it…You'll be begging…Beg, bitch, beg…
Images of her former brother in law…bits and pieces of another time…another unwanted pair of hands abruptly replaced her comforting thoughts.
No….not again… Dear God, not again!
Without warning, her hands swung out erratically. Her efforts were met smug laughter at first, soon afterwards with a brutal punch in the stomach, as her attacker threw her up against one of the shower walls. Pinning her down, 'Spider Man' forced her legs open as he pressed himself inside her.
Feeling her legs grow weak as her stomach began to lurch, Malinowski reflectively did what some of the more creative rape victims she'd interviewed had done. As she lost consciousness, she could hear her attacker swear before instinctively pulling away, as the bile rose up from her throat and her body began to purge itself.