Howdy! So here's chapter six! Hope you like it!
Author: Mel
Copyright: 2007
Title: Stay Illogical
Rating: PG-13
DISCLAIMER: This is a relationship between two girls if you don't like that sort of thing then please discontinue reading. This chapter deals with a death in the family and how they cope so it's not going to be all sunshine and buttercups.
Chapter Six
I opened my eyes slowly and noticed the bright light shining into my room. I shook my head and looked down to see that I was partially naked and my towel was only covering the bottom portion of my body.
I wiped the sleep from my eyes and looked around my room. The room was quiet and nothing seemed to feel any different than the day before. I stood up and wrapped the towel firmly around my body and headed into my bathroom.
When my eyes saw the ripped and lightly blood stained dress I remembered that everything was different now. I looked into the mirror and could barely recognize the person looking back at me.
"Spencer…" I whispered to my reflection. "Oh god…"
I ran out of the bathroom and frantically grabbed the clothes I had laid out when I got home. I slid the clothes on and threw my hair up into a ponytail. I reached for my cell phone and purse before I ran out of my room.
I was halfway down the stairs when I heard muffled voices coming from the living room. I stopped in my tracks when I heard Aiden cough and swore under my breath. What was he doing here?
I took a deep breath and quietly made my way down the stairs hoping that they wouldn't hear me. I had my hand on the door when suddenly the talking stopped.
"Ashley…" I heard Aiden's voice say.
"Not now Aiden…" I said starting to open the door.
He grabbed for my shoulder and I stepped back as if his touch burned me. His face was filled with shock by the way I reacted and he backed up with his hands in the air.
I glared at him trying to convey all the anger I had inside of me towards him with that one look.
"Look…Ash…"
"Don't call me that…not anymore…" I said bitterly.
"I'm sorry about last night…I didn't want it to turn out that way…"
"What way were you hoping it would turn out? I am not your girlfriend anymore Aiden…"
"I know that…I just needed to tell you how I was feeling because it's been so hard lately…"
"Hard? For you? How many girls have you hooked up with Aiden in the last few months? Sure seems so hard for you…"
"None of those girls meant anything to me…" He said quickly. I looked over at Kyla and saw tears forming in her eyes.
"You are such a bastard…" I said shaking my head at him. "You were there for me through all the times I was having problems with Spencer giving me someone to talk to…and through it all you were just trying to get back with me…"
Kyla let out a sob as she watched Aiden and I argue. Aiden turned his head and saw the tears flowing down her face and tried to reach out for her.
"Don't…Don't touch me…" She said backing up.
"Look I'm sorry Kyla…I really tried to give you everything I had but…"
"But you were still in love with my sister…I can't believe I didn't believe Ashley when she told me about how wrong I was about you…"
"Just get out…" I said opening the door wide. "I think you have done enough damage."
Aiden looked at me with frustrated eyes and slowly made his way out of the house. I slammed the door shut and walked over to Kyla. She looked up at me with tear-filled eyes and I hugged her close.
"I'm sorry Ashley…I should have believed you…" She said crying into my shoulder.
"Look Kyla…guys suck…and that's just how it is…I'm so sorry you had to hear him say that…"
She nodded her head into my shoulder and held onto me tightly. I broke the hug and stroked her face softly.
"I have to head back to the hospital to see Spencer…are you going to be ok here?"
"Can I come with you?" She said through some sniffles.
I wasn't sure about bringing Kyla along but she looked so distraught that I felt I had to.
"Come on…" I said grabbing her arm and leading her out of the house.
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I opened my eyes and felt the immediate pain hit me and I gasped. I looked around the room and noticed that Glen was sleeping in a chair in the far corner of my room. I couldn't see anyone else and I sighed.
I picked up my cup and hurled it at Glen to get his attention but it just bounced off his body and fell to the floor. I needed to use the restroom and wasn't sure if I could make it over on my own power.
I lowered the railing to my right and pushed up on my elbows to sit up. I cried out slightly as I felt the pain hit but continued to move. I took a few deep breaths as I sat up and moved my legs to the side.
They dangled there for a few moments while I took another deep breath and pushed up off the bed. My feet hit the cold floor and I clutched for the bed to keep my balance.
As I pulled my body up to a standing position I saw the door open slowly. I held my breath as I saw Ashley's head peek through. She saw the position I was in and quickly ran inside.
She wrapped her arms around my body and held me up. I closed my eyes and yelped in pain from the sudden movement.
"Oh my god…Spencer…I'm sorry…shit…tell me what to do…" She said stilling our bodies.
"Just…take a little pressure…off…my back…" I managed to say as the pain continued to go through my body.
She let her arms loosen around my body and I held onto her shoulders. Her face was right next to mine and even through all the pain I just wanted to kiss her. To feel her lips on mine would numb the pain I kept telling myself.
"Is this better?" She asked worry clearly evident in her voice.
I nodded and bit my lip trying to get the pain to subside. I lowered my head into her shoulder and calmed my breathing.
"What were you trying to do getting out of bed like that? You should be resting."
"I had…I had to use the bathroom." I whispered to her.
"Here…let me walk you over there…" She said turning her body pulling one of my arms over her shoulder as she slid her arm around my waist.
"This is so embarrassing." I said slowly making our way to the restroom.
"Don't worry about it Spence…I'm here to help you through this…" She said leading me over to the sink.
I saw the reflection of us in the bathroom mirror and noticed the scratches that were on my face. I reached out and traced my reflection and then traced my own face.
"I look horrible…"
"No…you look beautiful…" She said stroking my hair.
"Well I certainly don't feel beautiful…" I said taking a deep sigh.
"Do you want me to wait in here for you or outside?" She asked looking at me with concerned eyes in the mirror.
I turned around and smiled softly. "I think I can manage on my own in here…"
She nodded her head and stepped out closing the door behind her. I turned around and smiled briefly knowing that Ashley was here with me now. The smile quickly left though when Clay's bloody image reappeared in my mind.
I bent over the toilet and felt my stomach lurch. I gagged and coughed over and over but nothing came out. The door swung open again and Ashley's soft hands were on my back and pulling back my hair.
"It's ok Spence…just breathe." She said over and over.
"He's really gone Ashley…" I said lowering my head to my forearm which was resting on the seat.
"I know sweetie…I know…"
I picked up my head and turned my body to wrap my arms around Ashley's body. Feeling her arms around me always made me feel so safe like the whole outside world just disappeared and it was just me and her.
She wrapped her arms around my waist trying to avoid my back and we sat there on the floor of the bathroom just holding one another while tears ran down my face. I felt her fidget slightly and I pulled back to look into her eyes.
"So…you done in here?" She asked me softly.
"No…but just give me a minute…" I said as I attempted to stand. She held tightly onto my waist as she lifted us off the floor.
"Well I'm going to be right outside the door…" She said kissing my forehead softly.
I nodded and she stepped out once more. I finished up in the bathroom and splashed cold water on my face to try to keep the tears away. I took a deep breath and walked back out into my room to find Ashley lying on my bed stroking my pillow.
"I can see you and my pillow are becoming close friends…" I said lightly trying to break the dark mood that had come over everything.
"The best…" She said standing up and heading towards me. She wrapped her arm around my waist and I held onto her shoulder and made our way to my bed.
She helped me hop on my bed and lifted my legs slowly so that I could lie back down. She covered my legs with my blanket and sat in the chair next to my bed.
"Spence…I need to tell you something…" She started softly.
Glen cleared his throat and rubbed his eyes when he woke to find Ashley sitting next to me. We looked over at him and he stood slowly.
"I'm going to go…check on Mom and Dad…" He said through a cracked voice. His eyes were bloodshot and his face was covered in sadness. He walked out of the room and the door shut behind him.
"I guess I'm not the only one that looks awful…" I said lightheartedly.
"You're family is going through a really hard time right now…so it's understandable…believe me I know…" She said lowering her head probably remembering all the pain she felt when her father was taken so suddenly.
I reached out and stroked her face and she looked up at me with sad eyes. She grabbed my hand and kissed it before laying it down on my bed stroking my fingers with her own.
"I needed to tell you something that I should have said long before any of this happened…"
I listened as Ashley took a deep breath and squeezed my hand.
She looked into my eyes deeply and smiled softly. "I love you Spencer…I am in love with YOU…I always have been and that's why I was so afraid when you started to really like me back…I really wasn't expecting to find someone that I could feel this deeply for this soon…actually I honestly never thought I would…"
She took a deep breath and continued. "Then you came along and everything changed…you gave me a reason to stop being so bitter in the world and to enjoy life as it comes…you even dragged my sorry ass to Prom now that is a feat in itself though I am never going back to a school dance ever again…" She said shaking her head.
"Last night should never have happened the way it did…it was supposed to be our night…I wanted it to be our night…to make it special for you…for us…"
I pulled her out of her chair and scooted over slightly so that she could lie beside me on my bed. She slid herself next to me and rested her head on my shoulder. I picked up her hand and laid it across my stomach entwining our fingers.
"I never thought I would have to choose between my best friend…and the love of my life…I guess I was naïve in thinking that I could still be friends with Aiden after all that we had been through…I swear I never knew how he still felt about me…I guess I refused to see it…"
I stroked her hair not wanting to interrupt her while she spoke. She was telling me everything that I needed to hear and I knew it wasn't easy for her. It never was easy for her to express how she was feeling underneath the rough exterior she put up to fend off feeling any pain.
"I should never have hesitated to say that I loved you Spence…just thinking about how I could have lost you and you not knowing that you were the one…that you were always the one…" She buried her head into my shoulder and sobbed.
I felt tears form in my eye as she cried into my body. The door to my room slightly opened and Kyla started to walk inside when she stopped suddenly. She saw Ashley crying and looked up at me with concerned eyes.
I mouthed for her to come back in awhile and she nodded softly before leaving the room.
I wrapped my arms tighter around Ashley's body and kissed her forehead. I could hear her sobs subsiding and squeezed her hand. She pulled back and looked up into my eyes and I smiled down at her.
"Ashley…I love you…" I said softly before kissing her lightly on her lips. I pulled back and saw her eyes still closed and I kissed her forehead.
"Spence…you have no idea how much hearing you say those three words means to me…"
"Probably just as much as my hearing you say those three words means to me…"
"No…much more…much more…" She said before closing her eyes and falling asleep in my arms. I held onto her for a few more moments until I felt my eyes get heavy and I fell asleep as well.