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Ginny truly felt that her life wouldn't get any better than this. She had everything she could possibly want………love.

Collin said he was happy for her but also said he thought it was risky to harbour so much love and trust for one person, let alone a slytherin. Collin of course had known it was Draco, but hadn't told Ginny, he'd wanted her to find out on her own. Though he still felt guilty about not telling her. Even more so when she'd given him chocolates for being such a good friend.

After Ginny had shared that heavenly kiss with Draco, she'd told dean she wasn't ready for a serious relationship and she'd rather they stayed friends. He'd said he was ok with had but Ginny could tell he wasn't.

At breakfast the next morning Ron would still not shut up about Harry. Ginny decided to focus her attention on something prettier, Draco Malfoy.

They hadn't spoken since the kiss, but Ginny was desperate to.

She spent the next 10 minutes simply appreciating his beauty. How his whole face seemed to light up when he laughed or how his eyes wondered when someone was boring him. Some how his eyes found hers and Ginny smiled, he gave her a cold look and turned away to talk to one of his boring friends. Ginny was hurt and confused had she done something wrong?

If that cold look that been given by anyone else she wouldn't have cared, maybe she'd have hexed them or shouted an insult, but either way it would have been water off a ducks back for her. But when her angel gave her that cold look it was enough to break her heart.

She held back tears and watched him leave the great hall wearing a scowl on his face.

He'd hated that. It had taken all Draco's strength not to grin back at Ginny. He'd had to be strong and ignore it. But it pained him to think he'd almost made her cry and it was agony to think of what he still had to do.

Ginny decided he wasn't being fair and she wanted answers, so quickly before anyone asked questions she followed Draco out of the great hall. She had to jog to catch up to him.

"Hey! Draco wait", she shouted to him.

Ok this is it he said to himself. "What do you want weasley, I'm in a hurry", he growled at her. Ginny was shocked. How could he act like nothing had happened between them? Didn't he have feelings for her? Hadn't he too felt sparks when they'd kissed?

"I was just wondering why your acting like nothings happened". She told him, hurt and angry boiling inside of her.

"Because nothing did happen, it doesn't mean anything, weasley, it was just a snog, it's not like I care about you". He lied.

Ginny stared at him opened mouthed while a single tear feel down her cheek. Draco felt like someone had punched him in the stomach when he saw that tear. But he had to carry on; she mustn't believe he loved her.

"Awww, weasley you thought I did it cause I loved you. Foolish, naïve little girl. Malfoy's don't love". And with that he turned and left.

Ginny felt like her heart had been ripped out of her chest, thrown on the floor and stamped on. She must have been wrong, Draco couldn't be her angel, only the devil could have made a person feel that horrible. She fell to her knees and sobbed freely into her hands that were now covering her face, she was trying desperately to hide herself from the world, in fact she wished she wasn't even part of this world anymore. This feeling was horribly familiar its how she'd felt when Draco had found her that night that seemed years ago. She, once again, needed to find a better place, because this world was far too full of hurt and pain and people who found it necessary to rip her heart into pieces.

She was found 15 minutes later by a helpful group of ravenclaws who had carried her to the hospital.

"Well Ginny dear we seem to be seeing a lot of each other lately don't we, want to talk about it". Madam Pomfray kindly asked her, whilst practically force feeding her a draught of peace potion.

"Not with you, I need Collin", Ginny whispered while rocking back and forward. She hadn't meant to sound rude but she really couldn't be bothered with such things as manners, they seemed insignificant to her at that moment.

Madam Pomfray understood and asked "Collin creevey?", Ginny just nodded. "Ok, dear I'll send for him". She then closed the clean white curtains around Ginny's bed to give her some privacy.

When Collin arrived he looked worried. He thanked madam pomfray and walked over to Ginny, wrapped his arms around her shaking shoulders and let her literally cry on his shoulders.

Once Ginny had calmed down, she began to tell Collin all about it. He looked ready to blow when she'd finished, he also looked ready to knock the living shit out of Malfoy.

"Please sob don't do sob anything stupid Collin sob it wont help matters", she told him. The draught of peace had started to take affect.

She only agreed to let Collin leave later that day after promising he wouldn't kill Malfoy. He gave her his word, along with one last hug then left the hospital wing.

Draco was sure he'd never felt so bad in his entire life, that included when his father had made him kill a muggle child on his 16th birthday.

"God, I am a monster", he told himself.

"Maybe you'd feel better if you went to visit her, she'll be asleep by now, no one will even no your there". Blaise hated seeing his best friend look so troubled.

"I can't risk it, if anyone saw me it would ruin everything……..again".

"Are you a wizard or a muggle, they didn't invent disillusionment spells for the sake of it you know?", he said to Draco.

"Fine but if anything goes wrong I'm blaming you", he snapped at Blaise.

"Naturally", Blaise replied to him, slytherin smirk in place.

Draco placed the spell upon himself and quietly tiptoed out of her common room and up the staircase leading to the hospital wing. Avoiding peeves at all costs. When he arrived at the doors to the hospital wing, he checked first to see if madam pomfray was asleep. The wing was empty except for Ginny and a dark haired 1st year who buy the looks of it needed to regrow the whole left side of his body.

Draco moved over to Ginny's bed and looked at her sleeping. She seemed so peaceful and free. She must have been dreaming of nice things. He had the sudden urge to kiss her pink pouting lips, but didn't, not wanting to risk waking her. Instead he sat in a chair by her bed and watched over her as she slept, just like a true guardian angel would. He spent the night contemplating how unfair life was. Wishing he could have been born into any other wizarding family except his, simply so he could be with this goddess who was sleeping by his side. The golden rays of the sun shone through the small square window and onto Ginny, making her in possible even more beautiful.

Draco sighed and whispered "I'm not the angel Ginny, you are. How on earth am I supposed to leave you alone to live your life when you have this hold on my heart, why must you be so irresistible?" even though he knew she couldn't hear him it felt good to finally have spoken out loud how hard this task he'd given himself was going to be.