disclaimer: i don't own the characters or the places. they all belong to J.K.Rowling.

Ginny stopped dead in her tracks when she saw who was sitting by the lake. She started to feel angry. It was completely his fault why she was feeling so sad all the time. She really had tried to be strong, to be a new person and to not let anything upset her how her angel had. But she'd known deep down it wouldn't work, she wasn't that strong however much she wished she was. She simply couldn't deal with it. She wanted nothing more than for him to wrap her in his protective arms and tell her he hadn't really meant anything he'd said the other day and that he loved her and wanted to spend the rest of his life with her. She knew it was all just make believe and she also knew she couldn't keep wishing for a fairytale to happen, this was real life and real life was anything but kind.

She could have turned around and crawled back into bed. But she didn't, she wasn't quite ready to let her fairytale slip away just yet.

She carried on walking to the tree by the lake, where he sat. As she drew nearer she heard muffled sobs. When she released they were coming from Draco she let whatever anger she felt for him slip away.

Ginny settled herself on the grass beside Draco and waited until he was ready to acknowledge she was there, it didn't take long.

He didn't bother to say hello or even shout at her like she had expected instead he said.

"My father told me that only weak men wear their hearts on their sleeves, they are fools who call themselves lovers".

Ginny didn't no what to say to that. She was confused. What had he meant by that? And why wasn't he shouting at her telling her she was stupid to think he'd changed his mind.

"I love you Ginny. Does that make me a weak fool? I love you and I'm sorry, I'm sorry for trying to hide it from you, I'm sorry for hurting your feelings and I'm terribly sorry for endangering your life like I am. I wouldn't be doing it if I had any other choice but I really don't. I've tried my best to stay away from you and let you live your life happily, but I'm not that strong Ginny. I can't live with out you! I can't! Please don't make me!".

Ginny stayed where she was letting the information sink in properly before she said anything. Dare she believe what he'd told her? Or would he just love her and leave her like he had before. she didn't want to believe what he'd told her because should he leave her again, she'd be left to pick up the pieces of her life and heart that was still repairable.

"For the love of god Ginny say something". He whined at her.

"No, I don't want to believe what your telling me is true. Its not fair Draco your not being fair to me. I don't know what to believe or who to trust any more. I'm so confused. I'd loved you Draco, can you understand that, I'd loved you more then anything in the whole world, but you'd ruined it". She started crying again and was angry at herself for wasting tears on someone who was probably messing about with her. 'No!' She told herself 'I'm shedding no more tears for you Draco malfoy'.

Draco was still crying but he was doing it silently now.

"Could you ever forgive me? Maybe if you understood properly why I'd hurt your feelings you'd understand"

"Did you mean it at the time Draco was it really just a snog to you?". She wasn't sure she wanted to know the answer but she needed to. She was so fragile at that moment, she hoped he understood that. Because a single wrong word spoken would knock her deeply into the pits of depression and she wasn't sure even an angel could save her should it happen again.

"Of course I didn't mean it Ginny. For gods sake I love you damn it! I was hoping if you thought I didn't love you, you'd move on and be happier without me. I overestimated my self control, you're like a drug that I'm addicted to and I can't stay away from you. Do you understand now why I had to let you think I didn't love you? Please say you do?"

"I do understand", she whispered. "but I'm so scared you'll go off me and leave, I'm really not that interesting".

"If you think I could ever leave you then your wrong. The gods couldn't keep me away from you, I need you. I don't function probably when I'm not with you, its you who occupies my mind every second of every day even when your not with me, I know I'm being a sap and I'm not acting at all like a malfoy, but I so wish I wasn't. If I'd been born into any other wizarding family I'd be the happiest man in the world because we could be together".

Ginny thought about it for a while, she really did love this man though it would take a lot for him to earn her trust back, if he was willing to try then she was happy to let him. She was looking deeply into his amazing silver blue eyes while he was talking and could see no evidence that he was lying. She decided she was unable to live without him anyway. So there really was no point in her being awkward. It would, after all, be wasting time that could be better spent.

"I forgive you Draco and I love you too", she then smiled at him.

He sighed in relief then pulled her closer to him in a rib crushing hug. they were both so happy sitting their looking out to the lake, just happy to be breathing the same air as each other and to share each others body heat and most of all just happy to be together.

"I never did thank you for saving me twice from Harry, it was very heroic of you and I'm grateful".

He lightly kissed her forehead that was resting against his chest and told her she was welcome but that he wasn't used to being called a hero.

"I'm still confused as to why you did it in the first place, we were sworn enemies yet you saved me from myself, you gave me the strength to carry on with my life, but why?"

"I'm not really sure, I was drawn to you, I couldn't bear to see you cry it physically hurt me, I barely knew you but it felt like hell to see you like that. I wanted to hurt, no kill, the person who'd broken you like that. I wanted to make you happy again. I wanted to protect you from the world, but most of all I wanted to see you smile".

It felt so strange to hear himself pouring his heart and soul out and he was putting himself in a vulnerable position, he knew it. This wasn't how he'd been brought up. His Father had told him how to hide his emotions, he'd have been punished badly if he'd ever cried even has a small child.

"That's so sweet". She looked up at him with teary eyes but they weren't sad any more. Instead they were shining with happiness. Draco felt his heart melt under her gaze, she really was amazing. He found himself wanting to tell her more.

"After that first night, I promised myself I'd look after you and keep you safe. even though that would mean I could never tell you it was me, like I said Malfoy's aren't supposed to love, I'd have been disowned by my family and friends, but that hardly mattered to me. What did was the fact that your life would have been in danger. and no way in hell was I doing that to you and I'm sorry that I'm doing that to you right now, like I said my self control is almost nonexistent with it comes to you". He finished with a sigh.

Ginny spun around and took his hand, making him look into her eyes. "Look at me Draco", she said fiercely "I'm not afraid Draco, of anyone. As long as you love me, they can do what they like", she told him truthfully.

"I'm glad you feel like that, even if it is unbelievably stupid of you. I can't help but feel happy to hear you say it". He said with a grin on his face "maybe we should go back in the castle now, look you're shivering".

"No, no, I just want to stay out here with you for ever", she said to him clinging on to his shirt. "Don't, ever leave me Draco, promise you won't".

"I promise, Ginny, I love you", he whispered. But she was already asleep on his chest.

That night Draco felt like the luckiest man in the world. Here he was, sitting with the most beautiful girl in the universe asleep against him and she was willing to die for him even though he'd broken her heart once before. She really was amazing and she was all his.

should i end it here or carry on? i do have a few more chapters planned out but i'm not sure if i should post any more, i'm worried it might ruin the story so far, as the ending i did have planned out is quite dark. so please please please drop me a review and tell me what you would do if you were me. thanks. x