Chapter 2- Getting Ready
By- Eruva
A/N: So… I don't know the time line for Gilmore Girls all that well, but, I think between the time that Jess goes back for the car and they day he left, is about a year? Yes? No? Someone tell me.
Umm this one is only of Jess; the next one will be of Rory.
Hope you enjoy this one….
When his mother called to let him know that Luke had his car, Jess knew he was screwed. It was that simple. After a few weeks of wallowing in his guilt, he had come to the conclusion that he loved Rory. Yes, he did, and it was a scary thought. He knew he was screwed because there were two options and neither of them were pretty.
Option A involved going back to Stars Hallow and reclaiming what was his. He could waltz right into town and take his car back. That, however, would not guarantee him safe passage out, even if he sneaky and didn't waltz into town. The biggest problem, though, was the fact that going back to Stars Hallow would probably mean running into her even if he didn't want to. It's not that he didn't want to see her again, but he doubted that she wanted to see him at all. He could only imagine the extent of the damage he caused there, hoping, that it was repairable. Yet, there was a thought running through the back of his mind that it probably wouldn't be mend-able.
Option B involved sitting around knowing his car was lounging in Luke's garage waiting for someone to come get it. He had spent a pretty penny getting that car and he wasn't really willing to let it go to waste. After all the extra shifts he pulled at work and everything that came with, he knew he really couldn't just let the car sit there. Sighing, he made up his mind. He told himself that it was time to face his fears and deal with the situation at hand, and made up his mind to go after the car. After, deciding to avoid Rory at all costs and stay out of sight. If the car needed repairs, he would make them, all the while not seeing the Gilmore's, mother or daughter.
Thinking those thoughts brought many more into his head. What was she like now? Had she changed at all? Gotten a haircut? Changed her coffee habits? Gotten a new boyfriend? Gotten back together with Dean? The options and 'what if's were endless and unwelcoming.
He closed the abandoned book in front of him, knowing it was useless to even try to read anymore. Currently he was sitting in a motel room deciding what the next move was. His father had kicked him out after roughly a month and he was still moving around trying to figure out life. Going back to school was not an option, at least not at this moment, but a GED was defiantly something he needed to complete to be able to live well later on.
He had held a few small jobs, scrapping up money and living how he wanted to. True, he always had to follow what his boss told him, but at least it beat being in school. The location would change every month or so, he just found it hard to settle down, there was always something missing. The feeling of home was always missing. In the year that he had been gone, he had always had her at the back of his mind, not matter how hard he tried. Everything reminded him of her. Some of his favorite books were now cast aside because of the countless hours they had spent arguing over them. Certain songs had to be skipped when listening to CDs. Coffee was now something only taken on need base. Life had changed, and he missed her everyday.
Sick of thinking about what the future had in store and what he'd left behind, Jess lay back down on the bed and stared at the ceiling. Hopefully, he thought, everything would be fine and he wouldn't have to see Rory, but if not, he was going to need to be able to live through the next day. He decided to leave the next morning.