Bring Me to Life

Chapter One: Lost

By: KellyCRocker59

Okay, this is when it gets kind of creepy. I know I said this chapter would be long, but it didn't turn out that way. The next chapter, though, should be rather long. Please enjoy and review! Oh, I'd like to thank the many people who put this story on alert, as well.

I could feel the cold wind on my bare thighs as I walked down the alleyway. My lipstick was already smeared after only one 'encounter', as I called them, and my short blue skirt had a stain on it from a man getting too wild. My shirt, a tank top, was black, and cut in the middle to reveal my stomach. I had decided to keep my hair the same way it had always been; the way I liked it.

It had been two years since that devastating day, when I had left Forks for good. I had withdrawn all the money from my savings and had used it to rent an apartment for a month. I searched for weeks for a job, and ended up having to give up my apartment.

I had been sleeping in an alley when I had met Marlina. She saw potential in me, and decided to help me get a job. I was desperate, and when she mentioned prostitution, I was all for it. It was odd the first time; I had wanted to lose my virginity to Edward, but again, I was desperate. Marlina let me live with her if I gave her a fifth of my earnings, so I gladly did.

Marlina was a therapist by day, and a prostitute by night. She didn't think this a job; for her, it was more like a hobby to her.

"Hey, Bell, how much ya earn tonight so far?" She asked.

Marlina was very pretty. With brown hair that fell down to her shoulders and beautiful hazel eyes that accented tan skin and her large breasts, I wondered why any man ever chose me when we were together.

"About five hundred." I said with a smile, pulling out a hundred dollar bill to give to her, but she shook her head.

"I'm making a new rule; you keep all of the money you get on Tuesdays and Thursdays." She said.

I smiled.

"Thanks, Marlina. Are you sure?"

She nodded.

"I'm just glad to have someone to do this with me, now."

I smiled in return. We rounded a corner, and found two men standing there against a wall, both tall and lanky, one tan and the other white. They turned to us and smiled.

"Hey, boys. Want to burrow one of us for a bit?" Marlina asked, walking forward and pressing herself against the white man so that her leg looped around the back of his, her lips against his neck.

The man smiled, leaning down and gripping her chin.

"Sure hotcakes. I'll take you. You want the other one, Jason?" He asked, turning to look at me.

The tan man eyed me hungrily, taking in my body. I stood there as proudly as I could, mentally prepping myself for another round. The man had black hair and blue eyes, his body muscular. He reminded me of Jacob, and I cringed inwardly at the memory of the boy.

Leaving Jake had been the biggest mistake of my life. I had finally confronted my feelings for him, and was actually to the point of wondering whether to stay with Edward or not when he had died. I had been so blinded by it that it never occurred to me how happy I could have been with Jacob. It killed me inside.

"Sure, I'll take her." He said after a long moment, interrupting my reminiscing, turning to his friend.

The other man nodded.

"We'll be doing this in on cars, okay?" He said, though it wasn't really an option.

We both nodded, and the tan man walked over to a minivan, pulling the back up to reveal an open area with a large blanket spread over it, motioning with his head for me to get in. I walked over sliding into the van, the man crawling in and closing the back.

"Okay, I won't be rough. I like it slow." He said, pulling off his shirt.

I nodded absently, pulling off mine. He slowly got on top of me as I pulled off my skirt. He undid his pants, and soon we were both naked. He slid inside of me, and I gripped the blanket, looking over to the side to see semen stains covering the blanket.

"I...want you to look at me!" He panted, building a steady rhythm.

I looked at him reluctantly. I knew it would remind me too much of Jacob. I wanted nothing more then for this to be Jacob with me. I wanted him to hold me, rock me to sleep and tell me I wouldn't need to be in this hell any longer.

I was lost, and I wanted him to find me. I needed him. The man was rocking at faster and faster paces, until he finally cried out in ecstasy as he filled me. I felt my own orgasm, and I couldn't stop myself.

"Jacob!" I cried, gripping the man's shoulders.

I gasped for air as he pulled out, not seeming to care about my outburst. We got dressed and headed outside. Marlina was already done, and the white man headed over to the tan one. They got in their cars and left before I realized that I hadn't been paid.

"Marlina, he didn't pay me!" I cried.

"The other man gave me his money, Bella, chill. We did really good; seven hundred each." She said, handing me the cash with a smile.

It was a long night. I ended up with five other men, earning about two thousand dollars. We finally went to Marlina's apartment at two in the morning, both of us falling asleep as soon as we got into our beds.

My dreams were filled with thoughts of Jacob; his laugh, the way he smiled at me, how many times he had said he loved me, everything. I couldn't stop thinking about him. It was a tough week, just like every other time. And then, I was found.

DUN DUN DUN! Yes, Bella is found! Yay! Please review!