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OH AND...UH...THIS STORY HAS A FEW MORE CHAPTERS BEFORE BEING FINISHED! I'm sad. I want to keep writing chapters for it, but if I do, I'd die of old age, or cancer, or something else, before I got the last chapter up. :(

AND I LIKE HOLDING DOWN THE SHIFT BUTTON!

Story Inspiration: The song Diary of Jane by Breaking Benjamin AND THIS CHAPTER WAS ALSO INSPIRED BY THE SONG Sweet Sacrifice by Evanescence

Disclaimer: Even a god must die.

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Diary of Ray

Page 7

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The ride to Russia was uneventful, nobody said a word, not even Tyson or Daichi, not even the girls! I had sat next to Tala during the flight, and he looked as white as Russia covered in fresh snow, which was the first thing we had seen when we landed. I knew Tala dreaded coming here, I did too, Bryan and Spencer also, and everyone knew we did, even though we would never show it. Tyson would tell us to get over why I hated coming here, and I would always walk away, trying so hard not to break his nose. He would never understand what I and the Blitzkrieg Boys had gone through, unless he built a time machine and traded lives with one of us...which is also on the same level of him not being able to understand us; impossible.

A few people had stayed behind though, since the helicopter had a small amount of space, and there was so much of us. We had a vote of who would come and who would stay, and that didn't really do any help. Everyone had wanted to come, King and Queen not so much, so Tyson suggested he decide who goes, which was turned down immediately. Max then offered I make the decision of who came, and that was agreed with nearly instantly, which made Granger fume. It took me awhile to make my choice, but I finally got it down. Hilary, Kenny, Mariah, Kevin, King, Queen, Eddy, Rick, Mathilda, Miguel and the BEGA League were to stay behind, and everyone else were to go. Mariah started yelling and tried to punch me for not letting her come, but I has grabbed her wrists, trying to settle her down, which was successful after Lee spoke to her. Mystel and Crusher had insisted that they come, but I just shook my head, my decision had been made. I had wanted Tala to stay behind as well, but he seemed to have ignored me, already starting to pack his belongings he decided would be useful. So, with Ivanov on board, I had to have a person from who I decided should go actually stay behind. Emily had volunteered in a heartbeat, which I was greatful for.

My concern for Tala had grown, he hadn't spoke after Bryan talked to him, and even if I asked him if he were okay, he wouldn't response at all. He seems absolutely out of it, his eyes are wide and glazed, I hoped he wasn't reliving the past. Walking alongside Bryan, I could sense the tension and fear wellowing inside him, each step we took, I could feel it increase. We were getting closer to the place we hated, the place we despised, the place we wished we would never have to go back to; the abbey. "Bryan, Spencer," I called, as the building just slightly came into our view,"huddle, now!"

Everyone stopped, although Lee had to grab Tala to stop him, and I walked away, the two I had mentioned following. Once I knew we weren't going to get eavesdropped on, I turned to face them, no emotions entitled, as always. "I can't..." I started, looking down,"I can't let you guys come inside...I...never should have brung you all into this." they didn't say anything, and I took a peek at their faces. Bryan was glaring at me and Spencer...was unreadable,"So, that's why, I'm going by myself..can you--"

"No!" I looked up, startled, at Spencer's remark. He walked over and placed his hands on my shoulders,"Kai, if you hadn't of told us about the diary, and figured out where the picture was placed, we may have never known who Ray's father was! We can get Boris arrested for abuse and, possibly, murder. W--"

"If we can get him arrested for abuse and murder, then why didn't we do it before?! Why didn't we go to somebody and tell them what Boris did to us?! Oh, that's right, we were being selfish and didn't want to receive any more abuse for disobeying him!" I yelled, shoving him away,"And I wasn't the first one to know Boris had gotten Ray, it was Tala! And that picture, it wasn't too hard to figure out it was the abbey, but the thing is, I don't even know if Boris is actually in there! Who knows, he could be in a secret hideout in Hawaii, laughing over his success of killing..or brainwashing Ray Kon!" I glared at him, breathing heavily. Shaking my head I took a step back, my foot sinking in the snow, and I took another step back, something catching the back of my foot, causing me to trip and almost fall, Bryan grabbed my wrist and brought me back on my feet before I could.

"You okay?" he asked, but I ignored him, walking back to where I tripped, moving the snow around with my foot. My eyes widened, yet I didn't say anything. After a few seconds of silence, I looked over my shoulder. Bryan and Spencer staring at me, confusion written on their faces.

"G...Get Tala." I stuttered, and they nodded, rushing over to the red-head, who walked back by himself. The glazed look was still in his eyes, and he walked almost dead-like, but when I stepped sideways to show what I had found, a flame of disbelief washed all around him and his mouth hung open, small, cracks of speech rolled off of his tongue. He dropped to his knees, and I could only look away, unsure as of what to do. An upper half of a body lay in the snow, the upper half of Tala Ivanov. It wasn't a robot, I was sure of that, blood stained the bottom of his shirt, there were no wires buzzing, and his face was distorted in death...but I just had to wonder...how long he had been buried in the snow? A sudden, and unexpected, laugh jolted me from my thoughts,"Tala..?" I asked, and he stared at me, chuckles arising from his mouth.

"He deserved it." he managed to speak, and looked back at the body,"He deserved to die." I looked at him, horrified, had Tala known this...person? I walked over and kneeled next to him, grabbing his shoulders, making him stare at me, a glare figuring my eyes.

"Did you know him?" I demanded, and the sly grin that had been on his face had drowned as he look down, nodding slightly. "Who is he?"

Tala sighed, keeping his head down,"Yuriy..Yuriy Ivanov...my twin...And he deserved to die! Deserved anything he got! He deserved it all!!" he screamed, tears shedding down his eyes. I shook him as hard as I could, which caused him to look at me, suprised.

"Nobody deserves to die, Tala! And even if he did, why did he deserve it? And..when in the hell did you have a twin?!" Tala sighed again, grabbing my arms and taking them off his shoulders. He stared at me, his eyes brimming with grief.

"Well..we weren't exactly born on the same day, on the same year, yet at the same time, we were." he lost me,"You know, that time in the abbey, when they took me away for a month? They were creating him, they were creating Yuriy. They took so much of my blood...no...they killed me just to create him, Kai! Killed me! They killed me just to make exact replica's of my heart, brain, everything so they could create him! They even gave him the same scars after they brought me back to life! They even showed me the tape of them doing everything! Even after he was created, I was still trapped in that room! Yuriy had been sent to my cell, our cell, while I kept getting experimented on! And when he came back with the guards, he would tell Boris of your guys' actions, every detail, every single word!" Tala was sobbing now, crying hysterically on my shoulder,"He...he deserved it!...H..he did!"

"Tala," I whispered, patting his back,"I...I'm sorry...I...I didn't know..."

"Of course you didn't know! Nobody knew except for me, Boris, Voltaire and the workers! Everybody else was oblivious! Nobody knew that it was planned they were going to get the same treatment! Nobody knew! I would've told you, I would've, but I was trapped, in that room! You'd better be thankful I destroyed everything they used to operate!" I nodded into his hair, continuing to stroke his back. Looking at the body out of the corner of my eye, I saw something laying next to it, and I slowly lifted reached over, picking up the object.

Staring at it, I realised it was a tape recorder, and I quickly hid it in my pocket,"Tala, go back to the others and wait for me. I need to check up on something, and I may be gone for awhile. Infact, tell everyone to go to the helicopter and don't even think of following me." I ordered and got up, brushing the snow off my pants. He opened his mouth to object, but decided against it and got up as well, stalking towards the group in the distance. I stared at him, and everyone else as they headed back, Tyson seemed frustrated as hell, but still went along. When they were out of view, I pulled the object out of my pocket and pressed play, my eyes narrowing at the voice it presented. Boris.

"Yuriy Ivanov, served for a purpose, died for nothing, died for no one. Even though I told him his body was to be cut slowly in half, he still screamed, he still tried to resist, but he couldn't escape, Ray Kon...or should I say, Ray Balcov wouldn't allow him to." I glared at the machine so hard as I heard him laugh, nearly crushing the recorder in my hand. Damn him! Forget what I said about nobody deserving to die, this bastard definitely did! "Now, Kai, you're most likely the one listening to this, and if not, then is it Tala? Spencer? Bryan? Tyson? Well, no matter, you're most likely in pursuit of Ray, are you not? What am I saying? Of course you are! Well, I'll give you a hint of his location, check underneath the body of Ivanov there, I'm sure it'll be to your needs." and with a click, it ended. I looked over at the corpse, then at the recorder, a few cracks indicating the pressure I put upon it. I knew it was a trap, but I had no other choice but to go down...unless...he was waiting in the abbey looking at me through a telescope, or binoculars, waiting until I went down and went to attack the helicopter..?!

I smashed the object on the ground in frustration, which caused it to play again, I paid no attention to it. I walked over to the body and rolled it aside with my foot, skeptically lifting up a handle that appeared in sight. Sighing slightly, I thrust the handle which caused a door to swing up, and by the looks of things, that door wasn't going to stay up for long and I quickly jumped down into the black abyss, a giant thump indicating the door had slammed shut.

As soon as I landed, my feet slipped and I fell on my back. Groaning, I got up slowly, rubbing my neck and looked at what I slipped on. Yuriy's lower half. Shuddering, I looked away and walked on ahead, unable to believe my eyes...I stopped completely when I came acrosss Bryan...dead...body ripped in half, eyes wide in shock, mouth closed, yet blood still trickled out. Frantic, I ran. Tala had told me he destroyed everything they used to operate and make..."twins" of the one operated on, so then, how?! Along my run I found either lower halves of bodies, or the haunted faces attatched to their upper half, and I felt tears prickling my eyes, anger and disgust punching my stomach.

I clutched my head within my hands as my legs carried me to wherever, I couldn't believe this, it couldn't be real! I fought the urge to scream and continued to run, my destination most likely filled with that of scewered bodies. Paying no attention as to where I was going, I bumped into something and fell to the floor. Looking up, tears and a newly renowned fear grew huge as I continued to stare, my body aching with shivers at the sight. My breaths came out short and raspy as I found myself looking in the eyes of my...dead self, his neck tied in a noose, and, as all the others, lower half hacked off. I started to crawl backwards, but I stopped when my hand touched something damp. Hesitantly, I looked over and quickly recoiled my hand when I found my hand ontop of my...my..."twins" lower body. Scampering, I started to run again, wishing so much that I hadn't come down here.

Turning a corner, I found a door and I opened it nearly as quick as I saw it, hoping it was a way outside. That hope died so fast, you probably wouldn't even have seen it if you hadn't blinked!

"Hello, Kai." he smirked, amber eyes flickering with amusement,"Did you come to play?" I couldn't even scream when he started his chainsaw.

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Sentimental: DUNDUNDUUUN!...uh...I'm not sure what to say...uh...:D