Sentimental: I--(falls asleep)

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Story Inspiration: BALD! BALD! BALD! MY EEEEEEYYYYYYEEEEESSSS!...Okay fine. The song Diary of Jane by Breaking Benjamin, and also, for this chapter, the song Behind Closed Doors by Rise Against...and some Naruto episodes. Don't ask why, or how. OH AND From Yesterday by 30 Seconds to Mars.

Disclaimer: CRAAAAWWWWLIIING IIIIIIN MMMMYYYY SKKKKIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!

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Diary of Ray

Page 12

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"M..Mao..?...!! MAO!" I looked over to Kiki, who's arm was being wretched back by Rei, so he wouldn't run over to his friend's ripped body.

"Kiki!" When the green-haired neko-jin didn't answer, Rei's face fell and he started to growl. The image of Ray when my poison had subsided for a bit instantly ran into my head,"Kiki, if you run over there you'll get yourself killed as well!"Kiki just continued to struggle, tears freely spilling from his eyes as he tried to get Rei off him and over to his friend's side. I flinched, bad, when Rei flipped the other one around and hit him square on the face, a bruise already visible nearly the second his fist made contact.

"Kai..." I blinked out of my shocked stupor to see Tala, wide-eyed and shaking,"Kai...Kai look at Ray, look at his eyes." his voice cracked plenty of times, and it scared me. He never got this frightened over something as somebody's eyes! I really didn't want to, but it felt like I had no choice but to look into Kon's eyes. I wish I didn't. It was like a car wreck and I couldn't look away, yet I desperately wanted to.

The moment I looked into his eyes, I saw blood of plenty shades. I saw the lust of wanted his chainsaw to be used some more. I saw the vexation at the sight of Tala and I being alive. I saw the satisfaction at the murder of Mao, and Kiki's struggle to get over to her body. I saw murder. I saw death. I saw a neverending whirlpool of horrendous visions and thoughts that the real Ray Kon would never think of, even if payed one-thousand dollars. What had Boris done to him...?

I felt paralyzed again. It was like his eyes warped me into a new, horrifying dimension and wouldn't allow me to leave. "Sergei, grab Tala. Everyone else, get ready to run like hell. You wouldn't want to end up like Mao and the others, now would you?" I couldn't believe the emotionless tone of Rei's voice, it was like he didn't care that Mao had been cut in two or not. When I finally found it in me to turn my head toward the...'young' neko-jin, I found his eyes glazed over with a misty haze. He was looking into Ray's head, seeing what he was seeing, reading what he was thinking.

Everything else just happened so fast, and before I knew it, I was seperated from the others, already out of the..'hideout' and running for my life. I could hear the echoes of the running chainsaw bounce along the walls, yet I wasn't sure if Ray was following me or not. I rounded a corner and found myself staring at a giant wall. Cursing, I turned to run around again but stopped when I collided with someone's chest..and a horrid, horrid smell. Boris. I knew it was the real one too, no hologram could smell as bad as the real deal.

I backed up and stared at the man head-on, growling. He just smiled. I felt like vomiting. "What did you do to him?" I asked, my whole body shaking with fury,"What did you do to Ray?!" he chuckled, causing me to shake with even more fury.

"Why, Kai, I did nothing to him. You did." my eyes widened. What did he mean? The diary?! Was that it?! "You forced him into this, Kai, you forced him to kill the innocence of everyone around you. Ray's innocence, however, had been washed away even before yours, when your grandfather had his way with him. I just did the experiments and tests on him. But that is not the point. With the training you gave him, with your leaving for Black Dranzer and everything else, it inspired him, it made his true self claw to come back to life. So he phoned me one day, asking for something to get him to Russia without suspicion, so he could come back to me. So, I created the diary, filled with fake, and some corny, entries.You made him do this by your actions, Kai. It was all you."

"..." I couldn't say anything, I felt stuck. My head whirled, was it really true? Did I...was it me? Was it actually me who drove the caring Ray that I loved away? I dropped to my knees for what seemed like the millionth time. It couldn't be true! Suddenly, I saw it. I saw Ray's eyes when we fought on the ice. I saw the same lust and murder in his eyes I'd seen only a few minutes ago, except it was toned down a bit. I felt his eyes on me when I had gotten into the car when we were headed to the airport for South Korea. I felt the same murderous gaze...I felt it...It..it was me..I did it to him...

"Master Kai, don't listen to him!" I ignored the shrieks of my bitbeast, my head cluttered and banging with thoughts as tears, yet again, slowly slid down my face.

"Brother Kai, snap out of it!"...Brother..Kai...?...Driger?! But I thought..then that means...Ray! He's...he's still out there! He's still hanging on! I looked up at Boris, who frowned as he noticed my smirk.

"I'm afraid you're wrong." he stared at me, wide-eyed as I got up and kneed him in the place where it hurt again. I didn't bother placing my foot on his neck, I just jumped over him and ran again. I didn't know how long the Ray I knew would stay, but I knew I had to get to him before something extremely horrid happened...

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Sentimental: Did that ending make sense? I don't think it made sense. o-o

Well, 11 PM, can you blame me?

Gah, I just realized how corny and stupid the first few chapters are. xD

...Nyeah.

I'm tired.

Stupid homework, I hate you.