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Chapter 6: Breathe Me
Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
- "Breathe Me"- By; Sia ( A/N: I recommend you listen to the song...it makes me cry everytime, but then again thats just me...lol)
We spent the entire afternoon in eachothers company. I felt so free, so at peace, when I was with him. I wish that the afternoon doesn't end. He told me everything, it was amazing how much detail he used. James told me about the imortal crew of the Black Pearl, how he almost hung the infamous Capitan Jack Sparrow. The hurricane he had encountered going after Sparrow and that was when his life fell to pieces. Thats when his story continued on to how he got to Tortuga and how he retrieved the heart of Davy Jones. And that was how James became Admiral of the East India Trading Company. I was pretty shocked, but after all that he had been through made me sympathize.
He also mentioned something I feared. James told me about her...Elizabeth Swann. He told me how he had proposed and the events it led up to...to his destruction and ruin. I never felt so much hatred and jealousy towards another woman in my entire life. She ruined James, she broke his heart...and yet I can sense he still loves her.
Suddenly I remembered something...about the hurricane.
"James"! I interrupted him from a story he was telling me.
"Is something wrong"? he asked concerned.
"What coast were you sailing when you encountered the hurricane"?
"I believe it was off the coast of Tripoli". replied James looking at me confused.
"Oh my...my...my father was trying to save your ship, but he dies in the process." I gasped in realization and began to sob.
"Narissa I am so sorry, I didn't know." James put his hand on my bare shoulder, making me tingle with his soft touch.
"Don't worry, it just brought back awful memories that I wish not to recall anymore". I managed to control myself.
"Are you alright then"?
"Yes, yes I am fine".
"Very well, again I apologize for making you recall bad memories".
"Like I said, don't worry about it". I reassured him. "May I ask you something"?
"Anything". James replied.
"Do you still love her"? I had to ask, if I didn't...I would have gone mad with insecurity.
James turned away from me for a mere second. And that confirmed my answer. He still has feelings for her. I tried to hold back my tears. James turned back to me, looking into my eyes.
"Narissa, I will be honest. Yes...well at least a part of me still does. But the other part is..well-".
"I am sorry but I have to go. Forgive me, good night James". I left with tears streaming down my rosy cheeks. I couldn't take it...I just couldn't! I felt my heart sink, a horrible feeling it was. Its like I felt my heart fall to pieces. I love him...
I made it back to the cove, I was happy that my mother or sisters were not around to see me crying. I was free to cry all the tears I could manage. I knew it, I should have guarded my heart. I lost myself completely to a man I have not even known for that long, yet and I was already in love with James. How could this happen...was it fate? Were our destinies meant to intertwine? But I have yet to know. All I feel at this very moment is hatred for Elizabeth Swann, love for James...and also emptiness.
I cried for god knows how long, it was dawn already. I sighed as swam over to the mirror, what I saw was not very pleasing. A young woman, who was in love with someone who loves another. How was I ever going to live with the thought of that. Hopefully within time, he will forget her. James also mentioned what he did to help the man she loves, by the name of William Turner. He did it for the love he had for Elizabeth. Yet she had the audacity to humilate him by chosing that simple blacksmith. Ha! Please he could never live up to the standards of James, that is what I believed even though I never encountered this Turner man. I decided to think no more about it and wait to see what happens.
I was broken away from my thoughts when Tegan arrived.
"How was your meeting with that lover of yours"? Tegan asked smirking.
"He is not my lover". I snapped
"It seems that this James Norrington loved or loves another". Tegan realized what I was trying to say.
"It seems he still loves her". I replied with no emotion in my voice, because I had none.
"You got in to deep, but I do not blame you. That was what happened to me with my undying love for Gracen".
"How did you cope with it"? I asked, I needed some answer to soothe my heart.
"Time and time only Narissa". Tegan simply replied.
"Will you help me through it...please"?
"Of course I will, Narissa you are my best friend. I will do anything to save you, especially from yourself". Tegan smiled and embraced me.
I need someone to help me cope with the pain and emptiness I felt inside myself. But I only longed to be with one person...James.