A/N: Sorry for not updating this story sooner, I was a bit stuck, writing the James/Isabella saga, and studying for finals. Please forgive me...Enjoy
Chapter 13: Dreadful News
After I came back from the fort, I decided to roam about the lavish gardens. My mind was not at ease, I supposed it would be after spending time with James. Something within me was just not right, but yet I had no idea on what it could be. I was so wrapped up in my affair with him, that I forgot about my home and family. Yes, I know I sound a bit sellfish...but love makes you do crazy things. I was in love with him. I was in love with him and he has not told me yet. But I was so naive, I still had faith in him. I always will.
As I walked through the endless fields of wild flowers, I could not help but wonder how long I will be able to stay like this. I have not told James the truth on how I became this. I could not bring myself to tell him, what would he think of me. Would he think that I was insane? Which probably I was, mad for him. I really hated that he could not understand my love for him, why does he still keep thinking of her? Sometimes I notice, I can tell he thinks of her when he kisses me. But sometimes, he is so into me he whispers my name into my ear and that makes me have doubts that he is thinking of her. And that sort of lifts my spirits.
I kept walking along when I stopped when I heard a soft melodic voice echo through the air. I regconized it as Tegan's voice. My heart suddenly dropped, this was it. I knew something was wrong, I was just waitng for it to happen. I quickly dashed to where I heard the voice, I followed it.
Soon enough I arrived to the water's edge of the beach. Tegan's expression was very grim. Something grave happened I knew it. She looked up when she heard me coming.
"Tegan what happened, is everything alright?" I asked my heart beating faster as if it were about to pop right out of my chest.
"Narissa, I have some bad news...I am sorry but-". I could see it in her eyes, she had dread ful news.
"But what!" I demanded
"Your mother has passed away". she replied softly.
It felt like a dagger was plunged deep into my heart. I could not believe it. My mother was gone, the woman who cared for me. I scowled at myself because her last days I never fully understood her pain of losing the man she loves. I didn't help her through her pain.
"How did she?"
"She went out deep into the ocean and she drowned, but we all know why she went out there". replied Tegan. Its as if she was reliving her pain of losing Gracen. "um...how is everything here?"
"Fine, but can you do me a favor?" I had to ask for her to take care of my sisters for now at least, in the meantime I can figure out on how to tell James and see what reaction he might take. But right now, I needed to grieve, I needed to be alone for a while.
"Anything".
"Can you care for my sisters for a while, I have to figure a few things out, I need to be alone with my peace of mind...please".
"Of course, I will take them to my part of the cove. Is there anything you would like me to tell them?" asked Tegan
"That I love them and will try to be home soon". I don't want to leave James, but these are my sisters. They don't have anyone left in the world but me, then again they always depended on me so nothing really changed. But I know they would miss our mother.
After Tegan left I went back into the house. I told the maids I wished that no one would disturb me, and I locked myself in my apartments all afternoon. I just sat by the french silk sofa facing the large windows, deep in thought. Crying most of the time, tears I had not shed in the past few days of bliss I have spent.
A sudden knock at the door disturbed me from my thoughts.
"Come in". I choked out, I quickly grabbed something to wipe my tears away. When I turned to see who it was...James.
"Narissa, are you alright? Rebecca has informed me that you have been locked in your apartments all day". James kneeled before me taking my hands into his. How I melted at the touch, why does he keep teasing me so.
"James...I..my". I couldn't bring myself to say it because I could not believe it.
"My love you can tell me anything, I am here for you". James kissed my hands and looked up into my eyes. He stared intently as if he tried to read them.
"My mother passed away". I said softly looking down at my small feet. Soon enough he scooped me into his arms and just held my like a small child, he held me so warmly that I could not hold my tears back, I began to sob. I felt so safe with him, how was I ever going to have the courage to leave, I cannot leave the love my life and be left into this pit of despair, I wanted to be happy. And I knew I could only be happy with one person...James.