Sleepless Nights
By Jiberty Fan
Chapter 2
Author's Notes: If I owned "Degrassi" I would've let J.T. become a recurring character and the same would've gone for Liberty. I own nothing here. Thank you to those who've read and reviewed this story as well as my other stories. This story takes place during Season 6 after J.T. and Mia start dating. Even though it's never explored in the actual show, I believe that both J.T. and Liberty would have a terrible time sleeping after their break up and that they are the most honest about their real feelings about their lives when they are all alone. This will be a two part story that has nothing to do with my other J.T. and Liberty fics. This chapter is written from Liberty's point-of-view and is the final chapter of this story. As a writer, I am more concerned with the quality of my writing or someone else's than I am with the length or quantity of what's being written and so my hope is that this idea will be taken into consideration when this story is being read. Liberty's thoughts are in Italics. I know that there will be people who will be disappointed with the ending that I've written. My original idea was to simply write a night in the lives of J.T. and Liberty during Season 6 and that it wasn't going to have a happy ending like my other fics in part because, I think that both J.T. and Liberty's real thoughts and inner struggles during this time too often get ignored and that they would both have very similar thoughts and regrets.Thank you and best of luck to you, Ryan Cooley. You are missed. I have started a C2 for J.T. and Liberty fanfics on please feel free to check it out. Please read and review.
Liberty Van Zandt sighs. She can't seem to sleep and this is the fourth time this week.
What happened to you? Aren't you supposed to be the one who has it all figured out? The one who has it all together? So you and J.T. break up and it all falls apart? This is your senior year. It's supposed to be a happy time, right? Yeah, I think that someone forgot to forward me the e-mail about that. You look miserable. Not everyone can just move on the way that J.T. does and then make a big production out of it. Mia's everything that you're not. Yeah, you and J.T. both know that hug he gave Mia was forced and a show for you. He doesn't love her and you know it. Wouldn't a guy that was in love be able to tell their girlfriend anything no matter how bad it was? J.T. didn't tell Mia about our son or his past drug dealing until you forced him to. J.T. never even gave Mia the chance to accept his past or not. It sounds like he couldn't be happier…yeah, who is he kidding?
The clock in Liberty's room was no longer a friend. It was easy for Liberty to keep herself busy and not pay attention to time while she was at school but, it became impossible to ignore when she was alone. Reading at night used to help her escape, but, she knows that books cannot be the thing that she hides behind forever. Liberty moves her pillows around and changes her sleeping position to see if that will make any difference. It doesn't work as it has become too often the case of late and her thoughts still drift back to the one person that she still loved.
J.T. Yorke. You blew it, you really blew it. That's the understatement of the year and now after that scene at the student council meeting everyone there knows that you blew it. We probably remind Toby of his divorced parents. I've never seen him that angry with anyone before. Let's not get too carried away. You're not blameless here. Did you really have to try and control everything? What was the point of that anyway? J.T. did everything you asked without complaint. You had everything that you ever dreamed of and more and you blew it! It scared Liberty to know that she had only herself to blame for her current situation and that she took the t.v. show away from J.T.
You only hurt the ones you love right? Yeah, only it's a little more than that, because J.T. means everything to you and you're not going to be winning an Oscar for hiding that fact. What am I supposed to do now? I can't exactly say, "J.T., I'm really sorry, please take me back." It's way too late for that. It's not like J.T. would want to take me back anyway. I wouldn't take me back if I were him.
Liberty's bed felt so cold to her and she was desperately trying to find a warm spot to no avail. She tried to remember a time when she wasn't suffering from insomnia and when everything around her was warm and seemed to have a special twinkle.
Memories of J.T. came back to her like a loud wind that you could feel but, never see or touch. She remembered their first kiss; the warmth of holding J.T.'s body after making love and how she just wanted to stay lying there next to him. Liberty remembered the tranquility of it all and she wished that she could have a calm night again or at least a night where she didn't lie in bed and toss and turn and wish for a time where things were simpler.
You are a terrible liar. You couldn't wear a Halloween mask if you tried. No wonder you haven't done anything fun all year, Manny's right. I gave up everything for no apparent reason or at least not one that's really worth giving up the most precious thing in my life for. My J.T. It scared Liberty that J.T. might never be hers again, even though Liberty knew that J.T. was "The One."
Liberty always wanted to be with J.T., but, she never thought that he would really feel the same way about her. She couldn't pinpoint when she realized that he was "The One" opposed to a silly, childhood crush. Maybe it was when we told his grandmother about our son and he told his grandmother simply, "We love each other." Or maybe it was when we told my parents about our son and I left my home, my whole life as I knew it after her father didn't want J.T. to be a part of our son's life.
Liberty wasn't a particularly religious person and didn't pray or ask for things often Nonetheless, she still had a prayer.
"If I get a second chance with J.T., I won't blow it, I promise. Just give me, give J.T. and I one more chance to be together.Please." The cold and darkness of her bedroom did nothing but further reinforce the loneliness of her life. Another sleepless night was finally over as the alarm clock that Liberty never really had any need for started to ring.
The End Of Chapter 2. The End.