This was all too much. How could she do this to herself? I mean I know she doesn't think highly of herself but is there something else?

"Uh, what do we need to talk about?" The nervousness was evident in her voice.

"You know what Ashley. About you cutting." She looked down at her hands. "Take your jacket off." She looked up at me confused but did it anyways. That's when I saw them. She cuts everywhere. Some looked recent, while others were faded scars. I took her left arm and ran my fingers over the cuts. She winced and I looked at her. She looked so sad and in pain.

"Spence…..what wrong with me?" How could I answer that?

"Ash…..what are you so upset about that makes you do this?"

"I….I don't know. I just haven't been happy in a long time. And what scares me is………I don't know why."

"In your diary you said…….your mom is disgusted with you. Does she treat you badly?" She snorted. Well I got my answer.

"Yeah, you have no idea. She runs off with her boyfriends and comes home drunk every night. Every morning when I wake up I find her passed out on the floor with a bottle of Vodka in her hand. But that's just the times she's there. She's gone a lot. To Cabo, to the Bahamas, to……….anywhere. Just anywhere but here……………"

"Does that make you mad?" Jeez I sound like a frickin psychiatrist. Hate them. I hate that they always think they know what your thinking based on research or a statistic. Every person is different and you can't tell someone how they feel.

"Yeah…..it does. It makes me mad because everyone else seems to have a mom that loves them and takes care of them. How come I don't?"

"I donno Ash. I donno."

I held her for awhile until we got up to watch movies.

"Okay so I was thinking Texas Chainsaw Massacre?"

"Uh how about no. You know I hate scary movies Ash."

"Come on Spence please! I'll make it worth your while." She wiggled her eyebrows. I snorted. That was funny.

"Fine but what happens if I freak out and have another "incident" like last time?"

"Don't worry we have some rubber sheets." She said smirking.

A/N- hey guys sorry that it's so short but I will most more tomorrow or the next day