"Ashleyyyyyyy. I don't wanna!"
"Spencer stop acting like a five year old and come on."
Ashley and I are at an amusement park. I hate them. All the rides that make you throw up, I mean what's so fun about seeing what you already ate? Ew.
"Ash you know I hate roller coasters!"
"Why? What's so bad about them?"
"I'm worried I'll like fall off or something."
"Don't worry" she said taking my hand and pulling me to her. "I'll protect you." And I'm sold.
So we get on and it starts. 3 words. Oh my gosh.
"Ready Spence?!" She was screaming over the noise.
"Uh huh" I say nervously.
"Here we go!" And there's a hill. Crap.
"AHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHH!"
"Spence calm down! What's your problem?" What? I'm scared alright. I mean I know we've been off of the ride for about 5 minutes know but the thrill of it is still there.
"AHHH!"
"Spence it's over! The ride is over!"
"Sorry, sorry." I say winded. Screaming for 5 minutes straight really takes a lot out of you.
"Umm do you want to get a drink or something? To calm you down?"
"Yea sure"
"Okay I'll be right back"
So I'm sitting here waiting for Ashley looking at some poor guy get thrown up on by his girlfriend. It's actually kind of funny. That's when I see Madison and her crew. I'm screwed.
"Hey dyke." She sneered.
"Back off Madison" I say standing up. "I'm not even bothering you so Fuck off!"
"Whoo girls got a temper! Where's your girlfriend?"
"She's not my girlfriend alright!"
"Tell that to her" She says pointing behind me. I turn around to see a sad looking Ashley. I turn back and look at Madison.
"Can you just go away?"
"Why? You and your girl going to have a fight?"
"You heard her, she's not my girlfriend." Ashley chimes in.
"Fine. Come on girls, let's leave the dykes alone." That's it.
"Bitch!" I said slapping Madison hard.
"Oh no she didn't!" I hear Sherry say.
"Dyke!" Madison says slapping me back.
"Alright Alright!" Ashley says grabbing me by the waist while Sherry grabs Madison.
"Come on Madison lets go" sherry says
"This isn't finished Spencer!" Madison yells
"Spence lets go" I hear Ashley whisper in my ear.
As we walk to the car I reach out and grab Ashley's hand. She pulls hers back and I don't know why. Oh wait yes I do. I said she wasn't my girlfriend. But that's true she's not so why is she so mad?
"Hows your cheek?" she asks still looking at the road.
"It's fine. Just stings a little."
"Well I'll look at it when we get back to my house."
There was an awkward silence. Finally I broke it.
"Ash how come in the parking lot when I took your hand you pulled away?" She didn't say anything for awhile so I figured she wasn't going to answer me. I looked out the window.
"Because you said I'm not your girlfriend."
I turned to look at her. "But I'm not so why are you mad?"
"I'm not mad. Hurt is more like it"
"Well why Ash? I'm not your girlfriend so why are you hurt?"
"Because...…you know I don't even know why! It just hurt to hear you say that. It was like the thought of being with me disgusted you."
"What! Ash no. It's not like that."
"Then what is it like Spencer! Are you gay, bi, straight? What?"
"I……I'm pretty sure I'm gay."
"Pretty sure or absolutely sure?"
"Absolutely sure"
"Okay"
And that was all she said. When we got to her house we went up to her room. Neither one of us has spoken a word.
"Ash?" She didn't look at me, just went and sat on the bed. "Ash." I said again and this time she looked up. "What is it?" I asked when she didn't respond.
"Do you ever think about being with me? At all?"
I sighed. Do I? Yes. Should I tell her? "Yea, I do actually. A lot." She nodded and then looked at the bedspread. I went over to her and kneeled down in front of her. She gave me a confused look. She looked down at her hands. I brought my finger up to lift her chin up. I looked from her eyes to her lips and then back down. I have been waiting for this a long time. I paused just waiting for someone to barge in here and ruin the moment. But no one came. So I brought her lips to mine for a long and slow kiss. I pulled back and looked at her. She smiled and kissed me again.