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When someone said count your blessings now
'fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
Hermione didn't know how much time had passed. It could have been five minutes, it could have been an hour. She was still on her knees on the cold floor of the dungeon, wishing with all her might she could take back what she had said to Severus. She hadn't meant it. She could never leave him… she loved him too much. She was just angry. And he loved her too… or at least, she thought he did. How could he just walk out on her like that?
She took a deep breath and raised herself slowly from the floor. She had to go back inside and make sure Felicity was okay. As horribly as she was hurting, she knew she had to take care of her daughter. After one last fleeting glance down the dark hallway, she walked back in the door.
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Severus knew he could never leave Hermione. He didn't even leave Hogwarts after he stormed down the hall. He was sitting in the Astronomy tower, where he always went when he needed to be alone. He hadn't meant the terrible things he'd said. He hadn't even meant to lose his temper so badly with his daughter. And his wife was right; he had been testy for the past week. Last week, the Headmistress had offered him a rather large promotion: Deputy Headmaster. Severus had been taken aback by the offer, and he hadn't yet accepted it. He knew he should have told Hermione about it the very first day, but for some reason, he was afraid she would be offended that McGonagall hadn't asked her to fill the position. He knew it was irrational, but he couldn't help it. If he could take it all back now, he would. But would Hermione forgive him for acting the way he did? He didn't know. He sighed and put his face in his hands, as his falling tears soaked his palms.
/\/\/\
Hermione peeked her head into Felicity's room and found her sleeping lightly, her head turned toward the wall. She sighed and sat down next to her daughter, tucking her in, trying her best not to wake her. She didn't want to have to explain what had happened between her and Severus. But to no avail. Felicity stirred.
"Mommy?" she murmured.
"Yes, love?" she asked, pulling the covers up around her chin.
"Is Daddy still mad?" she asked innocently.
"Yes, sweetie, but not at you. Daddy is mad at me," she said, her voice catching in her throat.
"Where is he? Did he go to sleep already? I want to tell him I'm sorry for talking back," Felicity said, sitting up.
Hermione shook her head gently. "Daddy's not here, he had to go help Uncle Remus with something," she lied, hating what she was doing.
"Oh. Well, I will tell him in the morning," she said sleepily, her eyes falling shut. With that, she was asleep.
Hermione took a quivering breath as she stood and walked from her daughter's room.
What in hell am I going to do?
/\/\/\
Severus stood up suddenly. This is ridiculous. I have to go back to her. He started down the stairs, walking at first, then running.
/\/\/\
Hermione stopped short as she walked to the kitchen. What am I still doing here? I have to find him. Not only can I not live without him, but I haven't been totally honest with him. She put her hand on her stomach again, then rushed out the door. As she stepped into the hallway, she began to run.
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Each of them ran in the direction of one another. Hermione knew he'd be in the Astronomy tower, and he knew she'd still be at home. She ran through the castle, her hair flying behind her. He ran from the tower, his robes billowing through the air.
She turned the corner nearing the entrance to Gryffindor Tower, and he turned the opposite corner. At the sight of one another, they stopped short. Hermione stood in place, her chest rising and falling with every breath. Severus walked slowly toward her, sorrow etched in his face.
As he neared her, she couldn't hold it in anymore. She ran to him and wrapped her arms around his neck.
"Oh, Severus, I am so sorry," she breathed into his ear. "I never meant what I said; I could never, ever leave you," she said, a tear falling down to the shoulder of his black robes.
"Love, I am the one who's sorry," he said, lifting her face and wiping the tears from her face. "I have been tense this past week, and I assure you, there is a reason," he said, taking a deep breath.
"There is?" she asked, looking up at him.
"Yes. Last week, Professor McGonagall asked me if I would take on the position of Deputy Headmaster," he revealed, waiting for her reaction.
"She did?! Honey, that's fabulous!" she squealed, hugging him again.
"It is?" he asked, relieved.
"Yes, of course! Why wouldn't it be?" she asked confusedly.
"Well, I guess I had this dumb idea that you would be angry… because you are the head of Gryffindor, and that's who was Deputy last time…" he trailed off.
"Oh, Severus! I would have been angry if she had asked me! You have put in so many years at this school. Darling, you deserve this!" she exclaimed.
"Hermione, I should've known you wouldn't be angry. God, I love you," he said, kissing her deeply.
She kissed him back, then remembered that she too had some news to reveal. She pulled back, her eyes shining.
"Remember what you said to me when you were angry? That I've been acting as if I were pregnant again?" she asked, her eyes not leaving his. His eyes widened and he nodded.
"Well… you were right. Sev, I am pregnant again," she said, not knowing how he'd react.
"YOU ARE!?!?" he screamed happily, picking her up and twirling her around. "That's AMAZING!" he yelled, kissing her over and over.
"I'm so glad you aren't angry; I didn't know if you wanted another baby," she said, "That's the reason I've been so snippy lately… I didn't know how to tell you," she said sheepishly.
He grinned. "You know what this means?" he asked.
"That we always need to be honest with each other no matter what?" she asked, smiling.
He nodded. "And we both need to work on our tempers, eh?" he said, nudging her with his elbow.
"Yes, dear, we do. And that reminds me… you have a ten-year-old daughter lying in her bed who wants to apologize to you for what she did," she said, taking his hand and walking back toward their quarters.
"Merlin, I should be the one apologizing," he said, speeding up.
She nodded. "No arguments here," she said, teasing him.
/\/\/\
They reached their quarters, opened the door and headed straight to Felicity's room. Severus lit the lamp and sat down on the bed next to his sleeping daughter. His weight on her mattress woke her up, and she turned to face him, and she lit up.
"Daddy! I want to say I'm s—" she started, but he cut her off.
"No, baby, I'm the one who is sorry. You didn't deserve my yelling at you, and it will not happen again. I've just been stressed, and that's why I yelled at you. I'm sorry… can you ever forgive me?" he asked, kissing her forehead.
"Of course, Daddy, I love you!" she exclaimed, sitting up and hugging his neck. His face shone with relief, and he hugged her tightly. "And from now on, I will always listen to you!" she said.
"That's wonderful, sweetie. Now, go back to sleep," he said, lying her back down. She nodded.
"Night Daddy, night Mommy," she whispered. Hermione pushed her hair off her forehead and kissed her nose. She fell asleep instantly.
Severus and Hermione snuck out of the room, shut the door, and walked into theirs. Hermione sighed deeply and began to undress.
Severus slid behind her, wrapped his arms around the front of her body. He began to unbutton the buttons on her shirt slowly and deliberately. Her breath caught in her throat. She leaned her head back against his shoulder. He let her shirt drop to the floor as he unhooked her bra. He placed his hands on her breasts and massaged each nipple slowly. She moaned slightly and turned to face him. She lifted his shirt and slowly slipped her hand down his pants. She took his pulsing member in her hands and massaged it slowly. Severus closed his eyes and leaned into her.
"God, Hermione, do you realize we haven't had sex in almost three weeks?" he gasped.
"I know, now shut up and enjoy it," she said playfully, pushing him back on the bed and taking off his robes.
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Afterward, they both lay on their backs, looking up at the ceiling.
"God, make-up sex is amazing," Hermione breathed, looking over at him.
Severus grinned and put his arms behind his head. "Yeah, it is. Maybe we should fight like that more often just so we can have sex that mind-blowing," he said, looking over at her and kissing her neck. She giggled and rolled over on top of him. As she looked down at him, her expression suddenly turned serious.
"Severus, I thought I had lost you…" she said, laying her head on his chest.
"I know, 'Mione, but don't worry. I love you forever and ever, and don't ever forget that," he said, smoothing her hair.
"And I love you forever and ever… I think I might even love you more…" she said, winking.
"Oh no, I am certain that I love you more," he said, laughing.
"What? Is this a fight I am sensing? Which, by the way, makes for amazing make-up sex… or so I hear," she said mischievously.
"That is the rumor… Shall we test it?" he said, rolling over and holding himself up over her. She grinned and kissed him in reply.
I know better
'cause you said forever
tbc
Wow, this one was a little longer than usual! I hope you enjoyed it! Please, PLEASE review! It means so much! Love, love!
-r
