Vieraslayer

Alvyne wonders what is different between her and the other Reena, but we all know what is.

The Diary of Alvyne Vierahealer

Perhaps it should be Vieraslayer after all. I have done something horrible. I'm sure several poor innocent Viera have died because of me.

I told Jote what I did, but she doesn't see me as evil. Maybe she should. Because of me, more Viera are dead. I shouldn't have howled. I should've ran and got the wood-warders. I could've tracked Carraka and Atlas and had them destroyed!

But I couldn't, because they are correct.

I am weak.

If I was strong, I could've taken them on. I could've fought my own battle, or thought ahead and brought the wood-warders along.

What's worse, I indirectly harmed a Viera. Fran says I should just relax. It isn't my fault. Anybody would've made the same mistake. Well, it was a mistake that cost Viera their lives! And Viera are already endangered. The Wood is in even more pain now.

I disobeyed a Hume. Maybe the Wood would be better off if I left. I could resume my pointless wandering. Surely the Viera can eventually take care of two adult Reena. Sure, a lot of them will die, but eventually Carraka and Atlas will fall. No more Reena. And after me, never again will there be a Reena. I think we are the only three survivors. I was wrong before.

Then again, I can't leave. I have my little sister to watch out for. I can't leave Myko all alone again. It will probably be a long time before Fran has another child, and even then she says she won't leave another kit with her sisters. Neither Mjrn nor Jote had kits when Myko was born, but now they both have two kits each. I still feel so bad for Mjrn. She was so excited that she was going to have a kit that was definitely Janzyn's. Janzyn and she want a daughter of their own. I thought Slya was, but it turns out that awful Rush is Slya's father.

Not even Fran's news could make me feel better. It is nice to hear some good news at least, even though I am so upset. Apparently, Dalmasca has twin princes now. Fran and Balthier know the queen rather well. Myko says if it wasn't for her parents, Ashe probably would've never become queen!

I love my little sister, praise the mother. She cannot know what I did. It would break her heart. She lives a hard enough life. Fran and Balthier left her when she was only a few months old and she rarely sees them. My parents were already dead when I was Myko's age, so she should be glad she still has her's. Her mother will probably outlive her father too. Poor Fran. She is nothing without Balthier. I may have a crush on him, but I know that he and Fran are two halves of a whole. They should get married already. Atlas can be tamed, unlike filthy Carraka, and when he's harmless to Viera, maybe I can have him… NO! I can't be thinking of this. I have to think of what in the world I'm gonna do!

Yeah. I really should've waited to tell Jote the problem. Fran told me not to bother her, and sure enough, I went right to her. She was nursing Vale, and that was the last thing I wanted to see. But it was an emergency, so Jote isn't angry about my intrusion. She doesn't think I did the wrong thing. She said Viera need to kill those Reena, and they may just succeed. Viera could hold their own against most Reena. I don't know. Carraka on her own is a nightmare. Atlas is twice her weight and can rip a Viera's limbs off with his bare hands.

--Alvyne Vierahealer