A/N: update before me and Kags leave on Saturday! Will be unreachable…I think…
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Roger held onto the memories. The pain was hurting him badly. He missed Mimi. She was the only one he ever truly loved…
But now that she was gone, Roger was feeling very much alone. True, he had Mark, Collins, Maureen, and Joanne, but still. With Mimi and Angel gone, was there any reason to live anymore?
He began to contemplate suicide. Could he do it? Roger began to make a list:
Pros: reunited with Mimi. I will be happy again. We can finally be together forever. Not many people would miss me, anyway. It would put me out of my pain. I will also get to see Angel again.
Cons: well, I die!! There are so many things in life that I haven't done yet. I want to get married and spend the rest of my life with someone I love. I had that…but no one can replace Mimi, ever. Mark and Collins and Joanne and Maureen will miss me…but they can get along without me.
Roger placed this list in his jeans pocket. It was so balanced! He had no idea what he should do.
Suicide seemed to be the answer…
But he couldn't bring himself to it. He couldn't die like that. He was only in his 20's! He couldn't put his friends through the pain…
His own pain seemed to be so bad. He couldn't go on like this, without Mimi. His true love, gone forever, never to return! He would never love another person like that.
However, he had said the same thing when April died. He thought he would never love again, and on top of HIV…he had confined himself to the loft. Then, that fateful night had come…the night Mimi came into his life.
God, she had looked so beautiful. Her hair in the moonlight…she looked just like April…
Now, this whole thing was happening all over again. He was in the loft again, and he didn't want to go out.
He made the decision…he would do it.
He would commit suicide, that night.
Roger began to write the note for Mark to find when he got home:
Dear Mark,
I can't live like this anymore. By the time you read this, I will be dead. Life without Mimi is unbearable. Please know that I did not do this to hurt you guys. I just can't go on anymore. I will be reunited with my love in Heaven, where we will be forever. I leave my guitar to you, and Maureen can have my clothes. She might be able to use them in a show. Give Joanne my jewelry to keep, and Collins may have whatever he likes. Tell him that I will send his love to Angel. Goodbye, guys. I love you all.
Roger
8:23 P.M.
Roger left the note on the table, and walked into the bathroom. He had decided to take pills.
He had the bottle in one hand, and a glass of water was in the other.
All of a sudden…
A/N: CLIFFHANGER!!! Plot twist there, huh? So does Roger live? Does he die? REVIEW ME!! Thanks to all who have reviewed me in the past. I won't torture you for long! I will update as soon as I get back from vacation, I promise! Now, you know what to do…Press. The. Button!