Bite the Bullet!

Elliot came quickly awake at the sound of Olivia distress.
"Liv honey you ok?" he asked with she continued to empty the contents of her stomach on the floor.
"I'm just peachy!" she yelled while trying to hold it down to get to the bathroom but that was no use.
"Why are you drinking anyway?" he asked disgusted that the woman he loved would stoop to such low levels of dealing with problem especially with her family history.
"I feel better when i am knocked out!" she replied grabbing the sheet to clean her face.
Getting out of the bed Elliot made his way to the storage closet for the mop, a air freshener.
Elliot said not another word to her as she lay on the bed he cleaned the room and cleaned the dump she occupied as a home.
"You know you don't have to do that I can do it my self" she said irritated that he was cleaning her apartment. But before she could voice her disgust he started yelling at her.
"Liv now why the hell are you drinking?" he demanded standing over her with an angry look on his face.
"I just told!"
"You just told me? Do you want to be like…" he trailed off

"I can't do this Elliot my life isn't the same, I lost my baby your family hates me everything is ruined!" she knew she sounded like a spoiled brat but that didn't stop her, she had had enough and drinking helped at least that's what she thought.
"You life is ruined? How come so, you have a great job and people who love you what more do you need?" he asked he wanted to say those three little words to her but they just wouldn't come out they seemed to be stuck on lips tongue and feared leaving his lips.

"Yea and you think that is enough? I was pregnant Elliot and you haven't said two words to me more than blame me for the lost of the baby, so excuse me if I don't feel all warm and fuzzy inside!' she spat at him and got up to leave the room.
"Talk to you, blame you! You have been a closed book with security codes ever since we got married I want my partner back!" he was yelling at her even more she left like crying, it was true since their marriage nothing was the same they weren't friends they were just sex partner and that was what was killing her slowly but surely.
"Where the hell were you when I wanted to talk? Tthe answer out at a bar with Fin, so don't try turning this around you neglected me after the incident with Maureen, since then Elliot nothing has been the same between us" she felt her throat constrict and the building and turning of tears behind her eyes, but she wouldn't let them fall.

He felt guilty! It was true he thought that Olivia should have saved her and she didn't he knew it was wrong, and then when she started to help Maureen it was too late to reach out to her.
"Liv I am sorry for what happened, I didn't mean to lash out at you when Maureen was you know..., I am sorry, please forgive" he asked as the tears filled his eyes he quickly wiped it away.
"That's just the problem Elliot you always lash out at me, when things weren't right with Kathy I was the one who felt it, when you were having trouble with a case that would be me again I have been you punching bag for too many years, I'm sorry I can't do this any more marrying you was a mistake I am sorry I know it wasn't easy for you either so there her is your freedom, goodbye Elliot" she said as she signed the divorce papers took up her purse and headed for the door with tears streaming down her face.
Elliot watched her back as she was walking out the door he knew he was losing her, but he couldn't not again if he lost her now he would lose himself, he didn't care if she thought that marrying was a mistake it was no mistake for him he did cause he was madly in love with her and even more so now so what was he going to do?
"Olivia I don't want you to go, cause I-I-I"
"You what Elliot?" she asked.
"Olivia I don't care if you thought it was a mistake to have married me, but it was the best one and a half year of my life, Liv I love you" he said as his weak knees caused him to sit on the floor and the tears flowing freely down his face.
Olivia's heart was beating so fast she couldn't breathe, he loved her, her heart sang and she turned around to see him sitting on the floor with the tears streaming down his face.
"Oh Elliot" she sobbed as she stooped down beside him brushing away the tears, lifting his face she brought his lips to hers and kissed him with all the love she left for him "I love you so very much" she said, he smiled with her, his eyes lit up as he kissed her again.
"So does that mean you won't leave me, Liv I honestly can't live without, I love you too much"
Smiling she allowed him to wipe away the never ending stream of tears that seemed to leave her eyes. "So I realize, Stabler you cried for me how could I ever leave you?"
Smiling and a little embarrassed that she caught him crying but what the heck he loved her! "Want me to make you cry in a happy way" he said as he pushed her on the ground he went on top capturing and placing little kisses along her neckline, for the first time he was going to make love to her.