Realizations

As soon as it was light enough to see Sesshomaru woke up Jaken. Picking up Rin in his arms and the group took to the air at top speed. Sesshomaru had a feeling where his brothers group would be. So that was the first place he was headed to. A little later as Inuyasha and the rest of their group was waking up Sango started make something to eat. As they all sit around eating they all felt the same. The group just wasn't the same with Kagome gone. Inuyasha knew it was no good but he still had tried it. In the middle of the night he had gotten up and went to the well and jumped in only to find it was indeed closed.

Just as the group was about to start out of the village they saw Kikyo walking out of the wood and toward them. She walked up to them with a sad look on her face. " Kagome has left hasn't she?" she said. Inuyasha looked at the group almost not wanting to admit it to himself by saying it. "Yes Kikyo she is gone. She left a letter saying that she had already talked to you." Kikyo simply nodded her head yes "I will do as she asked me to. I will help you find the last few shards Inuyasha." Kikyo brought up her hand and placed it on his shoulder and Inuyasha looked at her. "Inuyasha all she ever wanted was you to be happy. Grieve her not being here for to long will not be healthy for any of you. She ask me to tell you all that."

"We still need to find Sesshomaru Inuyasha" Sango said wanted to change the subject hoping it would help lighten the mood from being so sad. "No need Sango he is coming to us , he will be here soon." said Kikyo. They watched as Kikyo pointed in the direction of the Western Lands. As the group stood and waited for them the arrive each of them remember what they had talked about the night before. But Inuyasha took it on himself to remind everyone again. " Remember everyone don't say anything about her being gone till I talk to him alone remember Rin." He said as he was looking at everyone then he looked at Kikyo. "Alright Inuyasha. I understand." she said sadly. In the time that they was waiting for his arrival Sango thought it would be best if she told the others about him and Kagome. They was surprised in this fact Inuyasha most of all. But Kikyo on the other hand seamed to understand allot more than she was letting anyone else know.

After 5 more minutes of waiting Sesshomaru and his group came into sight. Sesshomaru was surprised to see them all standing outside the hut looking in his direction like the where waiting for him to come. He didn't know but they where. As he looked the group over he noticed that Kagome was not with them. This made him worry even more.

As he landed Sango noticed he was holding Rin in his arms. " Sesshomaru? Is Rin hurt or sick?" Sango asked a little concerned. "No she is only sleeping." He answered. Sango called him to follow her to the hut so he could lay her down. She placed Kagomes sleeping bag on the hut floor for him. Kagomes scent filled his scenes as he laid Rin down. It helped to ease his pain and calmed him. He took in her scent one last time then left the hut.

After walking out of the hut Sesshomaru walked over to Inuyasha. " Where is Kagome I don't see her." he asked. Inuyasha was doing all he could not to look his brother in the face. "Walk with me Sesshomaru we need to talk." With that said Inuyasha started walking off. Sesshomaru turned to Jaken. "Jaken watch over Rin." "Yes My Lord" Inuyasha had stopped and was waiting for Sesshomaru when he reached him they walked off into the wood together. Neither said a word till the reached The Tree Of Ages.

"Inuyasha I tire of this waiting. Where is she?" Sesshomaru said with a cold voice. Inuyasha almost jumped when he heard his brother speak. Inuyasha was not shore how his brother was going to act from the way he was acting now.. "She is gone Sesshomaru, she went back to her own time and sealed the well from her side, I can't get to her. She left a letters for you , Rin the Jewel and made a request of us all." He handed Sesshomaru the letter that Kagome had left for him. For the first time in his whole life Inuyasha saw his brothers mask fall that day.

Sesshomaru took the letter and stepped away from Inuyasha opened it up and started to read it.

My Dearest Sesshomaru,

This is the hardest thing I have ever had to do writhing you this. I'm sorry you and I had that fight and I forgive you for what you said. But when you said you wanted me and loved me but would not take me as a mate because I was human because of your honor. I don't think you know how bad you truly hurt me. It broke my heart to hear something like that come from your lips. You wanted me to stop looking for the shards to give up my honor for you but you was not willing to do that same for me. It told me you lied, you did not love me. You betrayed me in that lie and in that lie you brake my heart for the second time.

I had told you that when the Jewel was complete and the wish was made I would haft to leave anyway. The well would pull me away. So I just decided to leave a little sooner and in doing so I am able to keep all my memories. All the good and the bad. I tried to stay and for fill my duties with the Jewel but every time I felt your aura I felt a peace of me die inside. I was always crying inside. It is strange really. Even after all the pain I feel. I still Love You Sesshomaru. I guess I always will. I meant it when I said I will have no other..

Please forgive this lowly human for whatever she has done to bother your life and permit her one request as I have never asked you for anything. I ask not for myself but for Rin. Please be kind in this one thing for her sake. Join Inuyashas group just long enough to help find the rest of the Jewel Shards and the wish to be made. There are only 3 or 4 left and we both know Rin is going to take my leaving very hard. I love her like a daughter. To think of the pain she would haft to feel without someone there like Miroku or Sango would brake my heart again.

Please don't brake my heart for a 3rd time. She is going to have it hard enough as it is. Rin and Shippo can help each other thou this they need each other. Just as you and Inuyasha do. Your more alike then either of you think. You two need to learn about the other. Please tell Jaken good-bye for me I don't know if he ever really like me but I did him. Pet UhUn for me. He is such a kind being and had always been sweet to me.

I would like you to know Sesshomaru. I would have done it if could have been your mate.

Good-Bye Sesshomaru Always Yours Kagome

As Inuyasha watched Sesshomaru read his letter for the first time in his life he was seeing someone different standing in front of him. As Sesshomaru's legs went weak and he fell to his knees. He never noticed that he had fallen as he kept on reading the letter. Soon he could tell his brother was done reading the letter. It dropped from his hand and landed on the ground. Looking down he put his hands on his knees to help hold his self up. "My fault, all my fault.." He whispered saying this more to himself then to Inuyasha but Inuyasha heard him.

Sesshomaru palsied with a sharp pain shooting all thou his body and shook him to his very soul. The realization of what he had done finely hit him hard. Sesshomaru gasp for air as he felt the pain paluse thou him. His head felt as if it was going to explode. His eyes turned red. His beast was trying to take control in a blood rage at it's lost. It was taking all of his control to stop it from happening. After the first paluse the pain slowly started to slipped away. A few deep breaths and he was able to regain his control.

"Sesshomaru what did she say? What happened between you two for it to bother you this much?" Ask Inuyasha. After seeing his brother actions he truly wanted to know what was going on. Even he and Shippo was not this upset over her leaving. "If you really want to know Inuyasha read the letter and know I Love Her." He replied as he stood up and walked a few feet away looking off in the direction of the Bone Eaters Well.

Inuyasha read the letter then looked over at his brother. He was shocked in his brother in many ways. In this time Sesshomaru regained his control back and now had his face back on. He turned and looked at Inuyasha. "Come I must return to Rin She is awake" He turned to walk to the village. Inuyasha soon caught up to his brother. " Sesshomaru would you and your group like to join my group in search for the missing Jewel Shards? It was the only thing she has ever really ask of either of us." After a few minutes of thinking Sesshomaru stopped in his tracks and turned to Inuyasha " Yes Inuyasha we will join your group and I will honor her request as will you." He then turned and left the woods.