"Oh my god Bella I'm so sorry ." Rosalie said. hiding her face in Emmet's chest and starting to cry.
"It was almost 100 years ago, but I've never really gotten over it. I had been saving myself for... I mean I was still a virgin when he took advantage of me." I said the last part quietly.
"I'm so sorry Izzy , it's all my fault if I hadn't slipped up then this never would have never happened." Kris said starting cry.
"Honey it's not your fault, everybody makes mistakes. You could've never known what he was like. You know I may be immune to blood now, but I slipped up twice before I got that power." I told her.
"Izzy, what happened exactly?" Alice asked.
"HE RAPED ME! WHAT THE HELL DO YOU WANT ME TO SAY?!" I screamed.
Alice looked hurt and tears were welling up in her eyes again.
"Alice I'm sorry. I didn't mean to yell. This is just so fucking hard! Every time I think of it, I can feel him and I feel gross, violated, disgusted with myself for not being strong enough to fight him off." I apologized, starting to cry even harder.
"It wasn't your fault hon. He's just a sick, perverted asshole." Stacy said.
"It was about a month after Kris was changed. She was hunting and smelt him. She drank from him and now I kinda wish I hadn't stopped her. He had been living with us for about four months and he was still the same old Mike only now he was stronger and more persistent. One day, on the anniversery of the day you left," I said looking up at Edward. "I was sitting in the meadow, crying, when I heard someone behind me. My family knew that unless I invited them here, they weren't allowed to come, even though I love them, I just couldn't share it. It was one of the personal things I had left of us. I turned and saw Mike with a smirk upon his face. He walked up to me and threw me against a tree. I kicked and screamed, but my family was too far away to hear me. I was so upset that I guess I just couldn't fight him. I begged him to stop, but he wouldn't and then he... well you know what happened." I replied crying harder.
"Whatever. If you ask me you got what was coming to you." Lauren scoffed. The next thing I knew Lauren was thrown across the room and hit the wall, leaving a huge. Esme had punched her. We all looked at her in amazement.
"How dare you talk to Bella that way. I've never met you before this, but now I can see why everyone hates you." Esme screamed, running back into Carlisle's waiting arms in tears.
"How could anyone want to that to you Bella? You're such a sweet girl. You were always nice to everyone." She said sobbing.
I ran over to her and took her from Carlisle. I held her and cried with her and before long, Rosalie, Alice, Kris, Angel, Stacy, and Annabell all ran over and hugged us. All the guys could do is sit there and wait. After about five minutes, we all walked back to our spots.
"Bella?" Edward said wrapping his arms around me once again.
"It's Izzy." I said softly.
"Izzy, can I talk to you upstairs. Alone." He said looking at me with hope in his eyes.
"Yeah. Okay." I replied getting up and leading up to my room.
" So you really are living in my room." He said looking around.
"How come you never changed anything. The only thing you did was trade the couch for a bed, but everything else is the same." He said curious.
"I tried to change it, but it just didn't feel right. " I replied looking down.
"Izzy, I know I messed up. I messed up bad and I'll do anything to get you to give me another chance. I'm so sorry and I know that I can never make up for how much I hurt you, but I will spend the rest of my existence trying to make it right if you'll give me chance. I never meant what I said that day. I really do love you, always have, always will." He said.
"Edward I love you too, but I'm scared. I was torn to pieces and I don't wanna fell like that again. Just please give me some time to think about it okay. "I replied tears welling up in my eye again. I turned, fled downstairs and ran striaght into Jeffree's waiting arms.
"Come on luv let's go for a walk." He said sadly, leading me outside.
As we exited the house, I looked back just in time to see Alice trying to comfort Edward and hear him say
"Alice I've hurt her too much. There's no way she's gonna forgive me."
The sadness in his voice nearly tore me apart again.
"Izzy honey, let's go into the woods so that no one will hear us talking okay?" Jeffree said with concern written all over his face.
I just nodded my head and followed him into the woods.
Suddenly, he stopped and turned to face me.
"Sweetie, you've got to forgive him." He said.
"Jeff...? You of all people should know why I'm having a hard time doing that." I said shocked.
"Hon, Alice told me something that I think you should know. Edward was going to come back that same year that he left, but when Alice called to see if you still lived there, the police to her that you and Charlie had both died. Edward became even more depressed. He was already in pieces when he left, just like you, he didn't mean anything he said. He thought that if he said those things, then maybe you would move on and live like a normal human. He wanted you to have a normal life. He didn't want you to have to go through the constant pain that the rest of us go through. The blood lust is unbearable at times. Imagine how bad it had to have been for him when the person's blood that he wanted to taste the most, was the blood of the one he loved. Think about it." He said walking back through the trees and towards the house.
You know now that I think about it, if he hadn't left, I never would have met my new family. I guess I should thank him. Damn, but I'm still so freaking mad at him.
I was deep in thought when all of a sudden my mind went black, I was having a vision.( She has Annabell's power. ) I came out the vision and roared. I turned and ran as fast as I could towards the house.