Before I begin, I would like to wish a HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO MY BEST FRIEND ASHLEY!!!!!!!!!!! I LURVE YOUUUUUUU!

Chapter 12-Goodbye

Alice had made a chocolate cake, and again the Cullen's ate it somewhat grudgingly. Just like Esme's dinner, the cake was absolutely amazing.

"So, France." Charlie started a conversation with Carlisle.

"Yes. We went there on vacation a few years ago. Esme just fell in love."

"Don't you have a problem with the language barrier?" My mom asked.

"No. We both speak fluent French."

"Of course." Charlie mumbled.

"Will you be near Paris?" My mom asked. She always wanted to visit Paris.

"No. Actually, we prefer to stay in a small, quiet town. We will be in Marseille."

"Oh, wow." My mom actually sounded a little disappointed.

"But," Esme interjected. "If you want, you could always visit us there. We could take a train to Paris and make a trip out of it."

"That would me lovely!" Renee's face lit up at the thought.

I couldn't help but wonder what they would do if my mother ever decided to take them up on that offer since they weren't actually moving to France.

"Wow, it's late." Phil said. "Honey, our flight is leaving in eight hours."

"Yes, we have an early morning as well. Leaving at eight in the morning to start our drive." Edward announced, lying with ease.

Everyone stood up and walked toward the door.

"Bella, you know Edwards…uh…brothers packed all your things for you?"

"Yeah, dad. They told me. We were running a little short on time, so they helped me out."

"They were extremely quick. You must have started packing before."

"Uh…yeah. I did." I lied. I was surprised that they didn't take their time in order to keep Charlie from being suspicious.

"Well, kid, be sure to call when you get settled. Drive safe and have fun." Charlie said. He never was much for goodbyes.

I hugged him tight. "I'll call you, I promise. Be safe, dad. I'll miss you." The last words were rushed as I fought back tears.

He hugged back quickly before turning to Alice. "I'll miss you, too. Promise you'll visit when Bella does?"

"Of course, Charlie, I'll visit." She smiled, hugging him.

"And you." He turned toward Edward. He still acted coolly toward Edward. "Take care of yourself and visit when you can."

"I will, Charlie." He replied, shaking his hand. Edward was always too polite to my father for the way he was treated. "Take care."

With one last hug from my father, I watched him walk out of my life forever.

I couldn't think of him returning to an empty house, never being able to see him again.

Instead, I turned to my mother. Her eyes were filled with tears.

"Goodbye sweetheart." She said, pulling me into a motherly hug.

"It's okay, mom." I said, patting her back. "keep me updated on the baby, will you?"

"Of course! I'll email you everyday."

"Well, that's great, but I will be busy with school, so I'll reply when I can, okay? Don't expect one everyday though."

"Oh fine." She pouted. "Call when you're settled. I love you Bella."

"I love you too, mom." I said.

With a hug from Phil and another one from mom, they walked out the door to their car. I stood in the doorway until their taillights were completely out of sight.

Edward swung the door closed and faced me. I buried my head into his shirt, staining it with my tears.

He picked my up and carried me back to our bedroom. He laid me gently on the bed, under the covers. He climbed in next to me, on top of the comforter. I struggled to pull the blanket out from under him, and with a sigh, he complied.

I continued to cry into his chest as he kissed my forehead and occasionally the tears.

After about an hour, I decided to try and speak. "That can't taste very good." I tried.

"What?"

"The tears."

"They taste amazing because they're from you." He smiled, kissing my lips.

"So, how was today for you?" I asked.

"Amazing." He grinned. We lay in silence again for a bit, listening to each others breathing. "What are you thinking about?" He asked, like so many times before.

I blushed scarlet. "I'm thinking about…earlier."

He looked at me with frustrated, confused, golden eyes. "Lots of things happened earlier, Bella. Would you care to be more specific?"

"I blushed deeper and Edward chuckled, running his fingers through my hair. "Before the party…" My voice trailed.

"Bella, you shouldn't be embarrassed to talk about it. Sex is a completely natural part of any normal relationship."

"Who said anything about our relationship being normal? A human and a vampire." I laughed.

Edward looked hurt. I put my hands on either side of his face and held his eyes steady with mine. "We're so much better than normal." I assured him.

I kissed him, expecting him to pull away, but instead, he allowed himself to lose control once again.

Panting for breath, Edward lay perfectly still with my head laying on his naked, cold chest.

I traced my fingers lightly over the contours of his marble skin.

"Sleep, my Bella."

"I don't want to sleep." I pouted.

"But you're tired, and we have a lot of work to do tomorrow."

"Like what?" I said, still pouting.

"Like pack up this house. As soon as its done, we're leaving for Alaska."

"Fine, but I want to talk first."

"About what?"

I had to think about exactly what to say. I wanted to talk about our day, but I didn't want him to shut me out and tell me to sleep. "How…how did you manage to have so much control…you know…when we were…?"

He lay completely silent, not even breathing for a second. "Because the monster in me…well, it's hard to explain. It's kind of like the monster isn't even there. At least not the monster that thirsts for your blood. It's the monster in me, the man, that thirsts for your body." He ran his cold fingers along my back.

"How did it feel for you?" I asked, almost afraid of the answer.

"You have no idea."

I waited for him to continue, but he didn't. "Explain please."

"Well, as you know, I've been a virgin for one hundred and six years. So imagine, waiting that long, wanting it, but then again, not wanting it. I never wanted anything so intimate with anyone, and I know that if I had never met you, I would never have experienced this…" He struggled for what to say. "…This passion, this love. And dare I say, this lust." He added, running his finger tips down my side, slowly inching toward my hips once more.

NEXT CHAPTER WILL BE UP BY MONDAY PEOPLE! its already done (aren't you proud?) but i'd like to finish chapter 14 first hehehe