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Chapter two
Faith
I have no idea what I want to tell Noah. I am confused and I cant figure out what I want. I never have been so depressed and so happy at the same time. I know one thing though ,I have to tell someone and really soon or I will explode. I have been keeping this from the ones I love for two long. I know that by telling Noah ,will be the biggest step. I know he will be understanding and help me though getting enough courage in telling everyone. But I have to first bring up enough courage to tell him. I really don't think that I could tell him. But I thought that two weeks ago too and I just told Luke I wanted to talk to Noah. So I guess that by this afternoon I will be able to tell him.
I slowly walk down the narrow driveway. I know that I have no reason to be scared. But I am. I am scared and I cant help it. As soon as I get calmed down and stop being scared something makes me get scared again. I know that a lot of people don't like who I am .I wish that people could accept this. Accept me...Accept others like me.. That is mainly why I don't want to tell anyone, those kinds of people. All I want to tell is my family. That would make sense right? No..No one other than them needs to know. Well not until I am ready to tell them. I got to my car and as I went to open the driver side door my phone in my right pocket vibrated. I reached into my pocket and got it. I flipped open the flap and answered it as I got into my car.
"Hello?" I said waiting for an answer.
"Hey." Said the voice on the other end.
"How are you?" I asked.
"Well I could ask you the same thing."
I fell silent.
"Ok. You're not going to say anything. Luke told me that you wanted to talk. I was wandering if it was possible if we could do it before you go to school. I mean you have about an hour and just so happens I just found out that I am free all day." Noah informed me.
"Uh. I was actually meeting someone. But I could call and..."
"Don't do that just for me. You had plans and I am sure with whatever you have to tell me could wait. Right? " He said interrupting me.
Could it wait?Could it? I don't think that I can go another minute. I think that this has to get off of my mind. I cant stand this.
"Uh..Can we??" I took a deep breath.
"Can we?" Noah asked .
"I want to talk to you. I have been wanting to talk to you for awhile now."
"If you wanted to talk to me then you didn't you?You know that you can tell me anything Faith."
"I know that I can tell you anything. It's just.." I pause.
"So. Do you want to meet now?"
I think for a minute. Then I take another breath and held it this time.
"Faith?You there? "
I exhale.
"Yeah. I'm here."
"SO did you want to meet?"
"Y--yeah.. Sure." "Are you sure. If you have other plans then we could surely talk some other time. I will always be able to talk no matter what."
"NO I can call and tell them that I have to talk to you.
"Ok. um . Do you want to meet at the school so you wont be late for your first class? " "Yeah that wouldn't be such a bad idea."
"Ok. Uh..See you there in about 2 minutes?"
"ok. See you then."
"OK."
"Bye"
"Bye"
I hung the phone up. I pull out of the drive way and then was on my way to the school.
Noah calling is a relief. I thought that I would have to wait and tell him.
I come to a red light.My phone rings again. I pick it up and answer it.
"Hello."
"Hey."
"How are you this bright morning?"
"Well not to bad. But I was wondering if we could call off todays meet. I know that you wanted some "us" time but I have something to do before school."
"You know what?" I asked.
"What?"
"I was just going to call you and tell you the same thing."
"Oh..Wow we really do think a like." A laugh came from the other end of the phone.
"I think that we should change it for tonight." I said.
"OK."
"So. I will pick you up at 7:00?"
"That's sound great to me."
"OK. I have to go. Light has changed. I don't want to get in any accidents."
"ok. See ya later."
"Ok. Bye."
"Bye"
The other end discounted and a tone remained. I shut the phone once again and placed it in the seat next to me. I then started to drive again.