Too Young?

Chapter 7: Giving Up

My mouth dropped open. I could believe it, I had a tumor?

"Is it operable?" Jake managed.

My heart stopped as I waited for the answer.

"Right now…no"

I let out a squeak… I saw every dream I ever had go away in a puff of smoke.

"Right now?" Jake asked, at least one of us could find words.

"What we can do is give her chemo therapy for about four months, and then we can see." Alexander replied.

I didn't want Chemo! I saw the shows, your hair fell out and you were sick all the time, all for a gamble, you could still lose your life.

Jake grabbed my hand. "Okay, when does she start?"

"We can check her in right now, and get her ready. First treatment could probably be tomorrow." My doctor explained.

"Ho-How long will I-I-I have to do C-Chemo?" I stuttered, I felt Jake's grip tighten.

"I'm not going to lie or sugar coat anything, if you do not do the chemo, I would give you about six months."

I thought about what I would miss: Lilly and Jackson's wedding, the birth of the baby, my high school graduation, college, I would never grow old with Jake, have a baby, be able to sing again, the list went on and on.

Then I thought about my mom. She died of cancer. Fought to the very end and still lost, I would never be able to get all my hopes up for maybe nothing. I couldn't do it.

"I'm sorry, I can't do this, let's go Jake." I stool and fled the hospital.

We drove home in silence. Every time Jake tried to hold my hand I would wrench away. I could he was dying to talk but was waiting on me.

When got to my…our…house I just got out, ran to my room and locked myself in. Through the day, I heard people trying to coax me out. Lilly, Jackson, Jake, and Daddy all had their chance, but I blocked it all out. My day was spent depressed, and writing a list of everything I was going to miss. A part of me wanted chemo, but the other part didn't want the gamble, of course, all of me didn't want to die. About 10PM my father tried again. This time something made me listen.

"My Mile" he began, "I remember the day your momma told me about her cancer. She said she went to the doctor while you and Jackson were at school and I was at work, I believe you were about 7 and Jackson was 9, oh she tried to hide it for months. But I saw her bruising really easy and the other symptoms. My heart broke when she told me. She knew she had to fight, Bud, her fight lasted three years before she had to give up, she told me she wanted to see you guys grow up, but she just couldn't do it."

I felt tears fall down my cheeks. I had spent a long time believing my mother had just abandoned me and my family.

"But you know she loved you so much and she would never want to you to give up. I don't either baby doll, my heart tells me your goin' to beat this if you try." He finished.

I heard the sound of my father getting up and going down the stairs. Part of me wanted to follow, the rest wanted to suffer alone.

That night I let no one into my locked room, not even Jake. I suppose he just slept on the couch. I awoke the next morning at 5:30, my head was pounding but I ignored it and set off to take my shower. When I opened the door I was greeted with a surprise. My family, daddy, Lilly, Jake and Jackson were all sprawled out in the hall in front of my room, all on sleeping bags. Lilly and Jackson were cuddled close then my dad and Jake were a few feet apart. My heart swelled they did this for me? I got my pillow off my bed and settled between my dad and Jake.

-Robbie Ray's POV The Night Before-

When Miley and Jake got home from the doctor Miley looked angry and Jake looked like he would cry. I watched my daughter bound up the stairs and heard her door slam. I was getting worried, they had been at the hospital all day. I wanted to call but both of them left their cells here.

"Jake what did the doctor say?" Lilly asked, she had been home about ten minutes, Jackson was home already too.

"You may all want to sit down" Jake began We did as we were asked "The doctor thought she was pregnant at first."

"She better not be!" I yelled.

"At first?" Lilly asked, fear filling her voice.

"He took a bunch of tests after he figured out she wasn't, then sent her to wait with me."

"Just tell us what's wrong!" Jackson interrupted.

"Doctor Alexander found a tumor in Miley's head" Jake confessed.

I sat in shock thinking of my Lyn, Miley and Jackson's mom, she died of cancer when the kids were ten and twelve, she fought so hard.

"Is it operable?" I asked, trying to stead my voice.

Jake shook his head. "It's too big right now. They want to give here chemo for about four or five months. Then see."

"Seems simple, well not simple but she just needs to start her chemo, right?" Jackson asked as he tried to comfort sobbing Lilly.

Again Jake shook his head. "She doesn't want the chemo, but without it, the doc giver her six months."

My heart skipped a few beats, there was a possibility for her to live and she wasn't taking it? That was crazy! We spent part of the day waiting for her to come out of her room, then each of us tried to talk through the door to her. When it was my turn, I told her how her momma and I both wanted her to fight. But even that didn't work. By 11 she still hadn't come out I went up stairs and saw Jake sleeping in a sleeping bag, also Lilly and Jackson. I decided to grab my own. Before I fell asleep I prayed.

"Please don't take my baby, I still need her here."

-End of Chapter 7!-

So that was a big twist, everyone was thinking pregnancy! Lol anyway. I will try and update soon. In the meantime R&R and I cant make any promises that she is going to live…What would you like Lilly and Jackson's baby to be named? I was thinking something in memory of Miley…give me ideas!!!

Loves,

Raindrops!