By: Patche
Disclaimer: Umm I do not own/am not in any way affiliated with… Inuyasha, the song "Stay" or any songs I think fit the story perfectly.
Love
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Alone… again. I sat at the top of my hill on Sunday evening, waiting for the sun to disappear beyond the horizon. It was mid fall, so with the colder weather, the sky was getting prettier and prettier each night.
My week of tutoring Inuyasha had been pretty bittersweet. We had plenty of fights over very stupid things. For one, every time he called me a geek or a nerd, I had to retaliate. It could just be in my blood… or maybe it's my hard head but I just can't stand around and let some one insult me like that. That was not how I was raised.
Another thing was his ridiculous lack of any appreciation for anything. It was like, no matter how great of a job I did at helping him with Algebra or Chemistry or any class he was taking, he couldn't even thank me. I mean, I had things to be doing other than helping a spoiled, rich, and arrogant brat.
Of course, he didn't see this.
However, today was a bit odd. We had spent the entire day together and not opened one book. We just talked about life and our past relationships. Astonishingly enough, we both had only been in one semi-serious relationship in our entire lives.
Mine was with Taro… but Inuyasha's… was an interesting story.
He said her name was Aya. She was about my height and had brown hair. He said she didn't talk much, and they were only together a few months. But he had sworn he was in love…
But then he said he met some one else, and even though they never got together or anything, he just couldn't be with Aya when he had such strong feelings for someone else. Though, he wouldn't tell me who this someone else was… the whole story intrigued me, and I wondered if that was why Taro left me.
Maybe Taro just had feelings for someone else and couldn't think to be with me when he had such feelings.
I sighed and watched as the sky faded from blue, to purple, to pink, to orange, and then to black. I decided to go inside after this.
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At work, I tried my best to explain the whole situation to Miroku. He was a smart guy, he'd understand and help me find my answers.
"I thought you were over Taro…" was the only thing he could offer to me.
I sighed and slumped my shoulders. "I… I was… but I mean, I still… I don't know." I made a weird face before submitting to the truth. I did still love Taro.
It had only been a week… how could I not still love Taro?
"Well, do you want him back?" Miroku asked me. I nodded. This was the first time admitting to anyone I even still liked him. What was I getting myself into?
"But I know I won't get him back… because he doesn't love me anymore, anyway… so what's the point, Miroku?" I asked shrugging.
"Well… I might have an idea…" He smiled.
I perked up to listen.
"You said you're tutoring his best friend, right?"
I nodded.
"So… why don't you talk to his best friend about it? I'm sure that he could help you to worm your way back into his heart!"
That was a great idea… except for the fact that Inuyasha hates me.
"Well, his best friend isn't all too fond of me." I muttered, looking away.
"Then why are you tutoring someone who hates you?" Miroku asked, raising an eyebrow.
I pondered this for a moment… "Well… he asked me."
"Are you that much of a pushover, Kagome? Have you no self respect?" Miroku asked, acting overly dramatic as he usually did.
"No… it's just that Inuyasha was in dire need of help… so I figured I could help him. Is that a problem?" I asked. "I mean, I'm working on a friendship with him. And once we get there, I'm sure he'd be happy to tell me how to get Taro back!" I said more to myself than Miroku. "What a good idea!" I shouted.
Miroku just sighed and shook his head.
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That next day, I had to tutor Inuyasha. But no matte how hard I tried to get him to focus on the topic… he kept drifting off.
"Inuyasha!" I shouted to grab his attention. I was half expecting him to lash out on me… but instead he just turned and looked at me with sad eyes.
"What…?" He asked. He looked horrible.
"…are you okay?" I asked, holding a hand to his head. He closed his eyes as my hand touched him. He felt kind of warm. But he was a half demon, they don't ever get sick.
"You're a little warm…" I said softly. "I'll go get a wet rag." I said running into the hallway to find a washcloth… or anything.
"Kagome…" I heard him call my name.
"Just a second!" I shouted back just as I found where the washcloths were stored. I got it wet with cold water, then headed back into the room.
Inuyasha stared at me from on the bed.
"Here…" I said softly. "Lay down and I'll set this on your head… it should make you feel a little better. He rolled his eyes and lay down.
"I'm not a baby… you know…" He mumbled. I just laughed and set the washcloth on his head.
"I know, but you need to feel better…" I said, pulling my hair out of its high ponytail and glancing out the window.
I could feel his eyes staring at me again. It was a weird feeling. I usually hate being stared at… but for some reason, when he did… it was okay.
"Kagome…"
I turned around and faced him. "Hmm?" I asked, looking him over. His two dog-ears were pointed downward.
"Do you still love Taro?" He asked me quite bluntly. I was taken aback for a moment.
"What kind of question is that?" I asked. "Why?"
He shrugged. "I was just wondering… I mean, you said you were over him, but the other day you just couldn't stop talking about him." He said slowly. It was weird to hear him straining to talk.
I sighed and slouched over. "I… I don't know. I mean, I do… I think." I looked over at him. "Yea… why?"
He still just shook his head. "He's my friend. I can wonder, can't I?" I shrugged and nodded in response.
"Do you still love the girl you broke up with Aya for?" I asked. He nodded.
"Yea…" He smiled. "A lot…"
This made me feel a little odd. He was acting so weird. The other day when we were talking about Aya and Taro… he wasn't so open. I had to pry to get my answers.
But picturing Inuyasha in love with someone… it was a little weird.
"Soo… who is she?" I asked, thinking I could get it out of him now.
"Keh! I'm still not telling you." He said sharply but softly at the same time.
I just shook me head.
Maybe that was a little too hopeful. I grabbed my backpack assuming he was feeling better and headed for the door.
"Oh, and Inuyasha… please don't tell Taro about what I said…" I requested, squirming a little as I spoke. I trusted him not to, but still…
"He won't ask about it…" Inuyasha said softly. "Not to burst your bubble, but he really doesn't care how you feel…" Inuyasha let out a cough. I gave him a curious look and set my bag down, heading over to the bed.
"What do you mean he doesn't care?" I asked.
Inuyasha tried to sit up to talk to me, but couldn't and just lay back down.
"Well… I mean, out of all the girls he's dumped, he's never cared if one of his past ones had any feelings for him."
"…But who's to say I'm not different? He was with me for a year…" I rebutted. But Inuyasha just looked at me.
"Not exactly…" He mumbled, looking away.
"What?!" I asked him to repeat.
Inuyasha just shook his head. "Maybe one day, you'll stop holding Taro up in this angelic light you've got him in now. He's not a perfect and sweet as you think."
"I don't hold him up in any light, Inuyasha. I think of him as you do… he's a jerk, right?" I said shrugging. "But I want him… and that isn't really any of your concern, is it?" I asked.
"You don't know the first thing about Taro… you weren't his girlfriend like you think you two were." I blinked, shocked by what Inuyasha was telling me. What did that mean? I wasn't his girlfriend?
Then it all came back to me… all the times he wouldn't talk to me in school or kiss me in front of anyone…
We could only hang out Sundays…
I felt my lip start to tremble, and I ran away from him, from Taro… from Inuyasha… from the whole situation leaving only my book bag behind.
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A/N: Sorry for all the short chapters… I noticed, after some one left a review about it, that my chapters are pretty short. I'll try to write more to my chapters. I'm sorry. Ooh, but as far as the chapter goes, isn't it so sad? I've been crying a lot today haha. I felt like adding some Kagome-angst. Gosh… I feel so bad. Anyway, thanks for the reviews again.
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