By: Patche
Disclaimer: Umm I do not own/am not in any way affiliated with… Inuyasha, the song "Stay" or any songs I think fit the story perfectly.
Advice
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My mom didn't say one word to me through the whole ride home. I knew what she was thinking. She was right… I got myself into this mess… I should have tried harder to keep Taro by my side. I'm sure letting him rape me to his heart's content would have done the trick.
I couldn't help but be angry. I didn't even know what I was angry about… was it that I was disappointed in Inuyasha?
Or was it that… in the end… he wasn't as good as I thought?
Or… was it that… here I was… still crazy for him… after he nearly killed me and didn't show any signs of caring?
I sighed and brought my hand up to my forehead, hoping to cool it off.
I winced as the car came to a stop in the driveway and my mother turned the ignition off.
The hum of the motor no longer filled the awkward silence between us.
She let out one loud breath before slamming her hands down on the steering wheel, not even bothering to face me.
"Kagome… I thought you had much better taste in people…" She said a little under her breath but still loud enough to be audible.
I ignored her and swung my door open, jumping out of the car and heading down the street.
"Just where do you think you're going, young lady?!" She shouted, opening her door.
I just turned to face her, sneering. "To fix things."
My mom climbed out of the car and slammed the door shut ferociously as she marched her way over to me.
"Kagome, you had best not be going back to that damn half breed!" She shouted, getting closer to me.
I sighed and looked away as she continued.
"He almost killed you last night. Do you not remember? He's a fucking screwball!"
I had heard enough. I gave her one last glare before running off. I had no clue where, but I had to get away.
I figured; once I'd reached the street my old bakery was on, I'd just stop by the coffee shop… maybe get a few words of advice from Sango and Miroku.
As I pushed the door open, I noticed they must have just opened. I'd never been inside, but I seemed to be the only person aside from Sango who was cleaning mugs from behind the counter.
"Hey, Kagome!" She greeted me. "Have a seat." She said gesturing to the bar stools beside the counter.
"Sango…" I started after sitting down. "Can I… ask for some advice?"
She smiled and put the mug she'd just dried off back in the cupboard. "Well, I don't have any degrees in bartending, but I'm sure a barista can help at least a little bit." She said, leaning on the counter.
I chuckled a bit before actually deciding to ask for the advice. Sango had always been like that stepmom who you didn't mind. She wasn't a bad person and I really liked that she and Miroku were together, but I just didn't know her well enough to honestly think she could give me accurate advice on something so crucial as my relationship with Inuyasha.
I sighed and began. "I got into a car accident last night with Inuyasha. It was pretty bad." I crossed my arms over the counter. "We're both physically okay… but just before our little collision… Inuyasha fell asleep. So, while we were at the hospital… I found out he had taken vicoden."
Sango looked at me intently. "Vicoden?" She asked. "Okay…"
I sighed. "I mean, I just thought 'oooh no problem… he just had a little pain and might have taken too much' but his brother freaked out thinking he was addicted to it and that he was over dosing and all this stuff… Inuyasha didn't deny it… but…" I glanced away.
I didn't know what I was confused by. I obviously didn't have the whole story… but if Inuyasha was addicted to pain killers, who's to say he'll tell me the truth when he'd been keeping it from me the whole time we were together?
"I just don't know. I mean, if he is addicted to them then I'd feel really disappointed in him… but I'd want to help him. But I don't know if I'm too late. I mean… if he just doesn't want to give them up. I just…" I grabbed my head before cradling it in my folded arms. "I'm so confused." I mumbled out.
Sango sighed. "That is pretty tricky, Kagome. But why don't you just talk to him?"
I lifted my head up and looked down at the marble counter top through half closed eyes. "I tried… I yelled at him and told him he needed to care about himself… he said he really didn't. So, I brought my own health up and he kinds just snapped at me telling me he did care, but I was okay."
I sighed and slumped down. "I'm worried that… if this is his little vise… then how happy am I making him?"
Sango sighed. "Well, I think he might have just been a little shaken up from all that had just happened. He probably was worried… but couldn't do anything. And I'm sure his brother running in and freaking out on him didn't help the issue. Plus, he might have been a little upset by how you'd react to the whole thing."
She glanced out the window at a customer walking inside.
"I think you should talk this over with him… even if he lies about everything, it's the most truth you'll get out of the situation." Sango whispered to me before walking off to greet the customer.
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I had ended up staying until closing time. For some reason, I just didn't want to leave… I had absolutely nowhere to go. Home? So my mother could berate me on how I'd screwed up this time.
I might have only been seventeen, but I was pretty sure that although my life was in danger last night, Inuyasha wasn't purposefully hurting me… as opposed to Taro.
I hadn't exactly told her anything about that situation, though. I figured it didn't matter to her. Just so long as if in about five months I could fend for myself, she was okay.
"Kagome." I heard Sango pipe up. "I really don't want to sound mean, but I'm closing for the night… do you need somewhere to stay?" She asked.
I shook my head. "Oh… no, thank you though for letting me sit here to scare all your customers away." I said standing up from my barstool.
"You didn't scare anyone away. I'm sure once you start next week, they'll all know what you were doing here, right?"
I smiled and walked outside the door with her.
"You sure you'll be alright? It really isn't a problem… I've got an extra bedroom!" Sango shouted as she made her way over to her car.
I shook my head. "Don't worry about it. I should probably run home anyway… my mom must be worried…"
Sango nodded and climbed inside, started her car, and drove off.
I sighed and sat down on the sidewalk, looking up at the huge white orb that hung brilliantly in the sky.
Bringing my knees up and resting my chin on them, I let out a sigh. I really did need to talk to Inuyasha… but what would I say? All I could ask for would be the truth…
How worth it all was this stupid relationship, anyway? We'd been together a month and I was acting like I found some horrible secret out about my husband of fifty years.
I mean, it would obviously aggravate anyone… but it was just some stupid high school romance. So, why did I care so much?
I knew what it had to be… it obviously was that I…
…I couldn't be in love with him… but I was.
Everything about him just mesmerized me. It was almost like this little incident could be overlooked because of my desperation to save our pathetic relationship that might not even work out…
Besides… he had 'mystery girl'. I might not have been completely right about Kikyou… but I knew it wasn't really me. He never acted like he had these feelings he just couldn't hide from me. We acted just like friends… who kissed and cared a lot about each other… which I guess, is what the next step above friends is anyway.
"Kagome…"
I whirled my head around in the direction I heard my name.
My heart fluttered as I saw it was Inuyasha looking down at me.
"I need to talk to you."
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A/N: Ahh… okay. I'm done updating every five hours. I have this weird headache that just keeps telling me to write write write. But, now I've hit my little wall… this was about all I'd planned up to. Now I have a week to figure out where to go from here. Also, a little Happy Birthday wish to BoredGirl17 who inspired me to update tonight instead of tomorrow.
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