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(Miley's P.O.V.)
Well, so far today has been uneventful. Lilly went from kissing me last night, to totally frigid today. I'm not sure what happened, but she won't let me get near her, if I sit next to her she gets up, If I accidentally touch her she flinches. I just don't know what went wrong, it hurts to have her push me away.
Right now she's sitting on the couch. I'm standing a couple feet behind her I want to go sit down and talk to her, but I know she'll just get up and leave, like the last ten times I've made an attempt to get near her. Oh what the heck, I'm gonna go sit by her anyway, and this time I'm not going to let her leave.
" Hey Lilly." I just sat down, and as I predicted she's starting to get up. " No Lilly, not this time." I grabbed her arm and pulled her back down. She's glaring at me, but I don't care, I'm gonna get to the bottom of this right now. " Ok Lilly, what's wrong?" " Why do you keep running away from me?" I started out using a demanding tone, but it quickly changed into a hurt tone. She quickly looked down, with a sad expression. After a few minutes she shrugged and started to get up again. " No." I put my hand on her leg preventing her from getting up. The second my hand touched her leg, she took in a sharp breath, and I immediately knew what was wrong. I promptly removed my hand from it's resting place and got up to leave.
" I'm sorry Lilly." I headed out to the newly installed pool. I know it's kinda weird to have a pool, when you have a whole ocean practically in your backyard, but the doctors said that a pool is good therapy for somebody who has trouble walking, it's suppose to strengthen the legs, so that's why we got it. So far Lilly hasn't had a chance to use it. Dad thought maybe she should try it out today, but I doubt that's going to happen considering Lilly doesn't want me near her. I was currently sitting by the pool looking down with my feet in the water. My dad just walked up behind me, I can see his reflection.
" Hey Bud, you alright?" Dad sounded concerned. He was standing beside me looking into the water.
" Yea Dad I'm fine, just a little tired, that's all." I knew he could tell I was lying, I was never a good liar.
" She'll come around Miles, don't worry." Ok now I was confused, how did he know I was upset about Lilly?
" What are you talking about?" I sounded nervous now.
" I know you like her, as more than a friend." Whoa, what did he say?
" Daddy say what?" At this point I looked up at him. He was... smiling?
" I said, I know you like her, and before you deny it, hear me out." " It doesn't bother me that you like Lilly, as long as your happy that's all I care about, and if she makes you happy, I'm all for it." He was squatted down beside me now, smiling from ear to ear.
" Ok I admit it, I do like her, but Lilly obviously doesn't return my feelings." I looked back down at the water feeling more depressed than ever, somehow verbalizing the fact that Lilly didn't like me the same way, upset me more.
" I beg to differ." " From what I can see, Lilly likes you just as much as you like her, but she's been raised against it, so she's confused." " Your just going to have to be patient."
" Thanks dad, maybe your right. He gave me a look that said...Maybe? " Ok your right. thanks I love you."
" Love you to bud." " Now I'm going to go get Lilly, she needs her physical therapy, and I think the pool is just what the doctor ordered." " I'm going to need you to help her with it, make sure she's safe and what not." Dad had mischievous smile on his face. I couldn't help but laugh a little.
" I'd be glad to help her." I gave a goofy grin, and he ruffled my hair in response, as he stood to leave.
About twenty minutes later Lilly came out dressed in black surf shorts with a blue stripe down the side, and a sleeveless blue button up top. Ever since the accident she refuses to show her stomach, she doesn't want me to see her scars. She still looks hot to me.
" Hey Lilly, ready to try walking in the pool?" she nodded and came closer to the water. She was using her crutches . " Ok come over to the steps, and I'll help you in." She did as I ask. As soon as she was close enough I took her hand.
" Ok Lilly, go ahead and drop the crutches, I've got you." As soon as she dropped the crutches, I started walking her towards the pool. I took a step in first, then motioned for her to follow. She shook her head and shivered indicating the water was too cold.
" Yes, I know the water's cold, but it's hot out side, so once you get in, it'll feel good." I got a nod in response, and she took a step in. " That's it, now just three more." She shook her head, so I tried coaxing her again. " Come on Lilly, it's not that bad, just three more steps." Again a shake of the head.
" Truscott, don't make me take matters in to my own hands." Her eyes widened and she started to turn and leave. " Oh no you don't." I pulled her down into my arms, I was behind her and my arms were wrapped around her waist. I decided to take advantage of my position. I leaned down and whispered into her ear. " Now you see, the water isn't so bad, it feels good doesn't it.?" She shuddered while nodding her head. I chuckled a bit.
" Ok let's get started, shall we?" She nodded her head while trying to pull away from me. " Take a step, I'll just hold you up." I released my hold from around her waist, and put my hands gently on her sides, just to keep her balanced. She took one step then two, and pretty soon she was walking with quite a bit of ease.
We'd been in the pool for about an hour, Lilly was doing really good, she was walking all over the place. I was so excited I came up and hugged her from behind again, this time she leaned into me and sighed. " You did it Lilly, I'm so proud of you." I leaned down and kissed her cheek. A blush spread across her face and she ducked her head, clearly embarrassed. She was so cute, I couldn't help it, I went to kiss her cheek one more time, but she turned her head to look at me, so I ended up kissing the side of her mouth.
She smiled a shy smile and the blush got even deeper. I was so tempted to go further but I knew I couldn't , Lilly and I weren't dating and I wasn't sure if she really liked me that way, plus dad was just inside the house, so I reluctantly let go of her. " Let's get out now." Lilly nodded and headed for the stairs. I followed closely behind, to make sure she didn't fall on her way out.
(Lilly's P.O.V.)
I feel so useless. My whole life changed over night. four months ago I was a normal kid. I had a great family, sure we had our ups and downs, Dad suffered from depression and Mom could definitely be uptight, but they loved me and took care of me, and I loved them with all my heart, but that wasn't enough to stop them from dying , it's so unfair. Not only did I loose the two most important people in my life, but I also lost my intelligence, I have a hard time understanding people, I can't write properly, and I can't even read correctly. If I want to know what's in a magazine or the t.v. guide, somebody else has to read it for me. Oh, and it doesn't end there. No, I have trouble with physical things as well, Like gripping, I have a hard time holding a pen or a glass of water, it's ridiculous, then there's my personal favorite, my lack of ability to walk for more than a minute at a time. I have almost, no strength in my legs, and my balance is off, so I have to rely on other people to get me from place to place. Officially ridding me of my independence.
I know they mean well, and don't really have much of a choice, considering I really can't do anything on my own, but it's still hard. I don't like being dependent on other people. I also don't like being a burden, and that's what I am. The Stewart's basically got stuck with me, it's not fair to them. They've been so kind to me, trying to make me feel welcome, but I still feel like an intruder.
I have one more problem...Miley. I'm having a hard time denying that I like her. She's been really helpful and patient. I don't know what I'd do without her, she's always been a great friend, but in the last couple of days things have changed. She's still being helpful, but it doesn't seem just friendly anymore, it's different. Like a minute ago, in the pool she was holding me in what seemed to be a more than a friendly way, she also kissed me on the cheek a couple of times, actually she kissed my cheek once, the other time she accidentally got the side of my mouth. The biggest problem is, I liked it.
It felt so good being wrapped in her arms. Not to mention the fact that she was completely turning me on, at least I ' think ' I was turned on, I've never had a boyfriend, I've always been too busy with skateboarding and other sports, and I wasn't really interested in having one, so I don't know much about these kind of things. I don't really know how to be affectionate either. Oh I'm so confused what am I suppose to do? I shouldn't like girls, I should like boys, but I don't. I've always known that I didn't really want to date guys, but I never considered girls.
I wish I knew what to do. Maybe I should stop fighting it, and tell Miley I like her, but how? I can't speak, every time I try, nothing comes out, it's like there's something actually blocking me from saying anything, so talking's out of the picture, at least for now, and I can't write legibly, so how can I let her know? I could just kiss her again, but if she doesn't like me back that would just be awkward. Not to mention I'm not that comfortable with the Idea of kissing her, a quick peck on the lips is one thing but a real kiss is a whole other story. I've never kissed anybody in a more than friendly way, so I'm not really sure how to go about it.
Well I've got to do something. I like her there's no way I can deny it. Maybe I should flirt with her, no that's no good, I suck at flirting. I'll think of something, but right now I'm going to finish getting dry, and go eat, I'm starving.
(Miley's P.O.V.)
She's seems so distant, I wish I knew what she was thinking about. I decided to bring my friend out of her thoughts, by bringing up her favorite subject. "Hey Lilly, I'm hungry. are you?" oddly, she didn't acknowledge me, instead she just stood where she was, looking thoughtful. " Earth to Lilly." I snapped my fingers in front of her face, in hopes of getting her attention, and It worked. She gave me an odd look, then nodded and a ghost of a smile appeared on her face.
" Good cause I'm starving. Let's go in shall we?" I got a goofy grin in return. " Ok, I'm gonna take that as a yes." The grin stayed firmly in place, so I looped my arm around her waist, and hers around my neck, and we made our way inside.
" Hey dad what's on the menu?" I gave him a toothy smile. Dad chuckled, while Lilly and I sat down beside him on the couch.
" Actually I ordered Chinese. It's on the table, you can eat it over here if you'd like." He was watching t.v. the whole time he talked to me
" Cool, thanks." I got up and dished up two plates of food, and brought them back to the couch.
Dinner went by really quick. Lilly seemed to be in more of a rush than usual, and that's saying allot. The minute we were done, she pointed up to my room. I nodded and we headed up stairs.
When we got in my room, Lilly immediately went over and sat on my bed, pulling her knees up to her chest and hugging them. I watched her from the door for a sec, then I went over and sat beside her. Ever sense we got in here, Lilly's seemed nervous and fidgety, I can't for the life of me figure out what's wrong.
" Lilly, is there something you want to tell me?" She nodded. " Ok, go ahead." She just shook her head and shrugged her shoulders, with a look of defeat. " Hmmm, I've got an idea. Do you know how to play charades?" A confused look crossed her face, then she nodded. " Good, then show me what you want to say, and I'll guess till I get it right." This time she smiled and nodded her head enthusiastically, while clapping her hands, and bouncing up and down. I chuckled at her obvious display of excitement. She looked adorable, like a small child. " Ok go ahead."
She thought for a second, then she pointed to her self. " You? " She shook her head, and pointed again. " I? " She nodded then pointed to her head. I didn't say anything for a second, so she tapped her forehead. " Think? " She gave me a thumbs up, and pointed back at herself. " I? " Again a thumbs up, then she looked around for a sec, before finally pointing to a picture of she and Oliver dressed up as there alter ego's, Lola and Mike, she wasn't pointing directly at the picture, but instead at the name written under Oliver, Mike? Then she pointed at me. " Mike you? " She shook her head, looking completely frustrated, and pointed to the name again, and then back at me.
What in the world could that mean? Let's see what do I have so far? 'I think I mike you.' Oh that makes a whole lot of sense. Wait a minute, could it be? " I think I... Like you? " She nodded her head slowly. " Well duh, I like you too." Now she looked totally exasperated and shook her head furiously. " Do you mean, in more than a friendly way? " She looked down and shyly nodded her head.
I smiled and moved a bit closer to her, I took my first two fingers and lifted her chin up, so her eyes met mine. " I like you too. As more than a friend." I watched as a slow smile spread across her features. She looked, happy, relieved, and a bit surprised.
" Can I kiss you? " She gave me a shy smile and nodded, looking a little nervous. I slowly leaned in and pressed my lips to hers. After a few seconds, I realized she wasn't kissing back, so I pulled away. " What's wrong." She gave me a confused look. " You didn't kiss back." The confused look stayed in place, but was soon replaced with a look of realization, she quickly pointed to herself then shook her head and pointed to her lips.
I was confused at first, but then I remembered she told me she's never kissed anybody before. " You don't know how to kiss? " She blushed and nodded her head. " Hey there's nothing to be embarrassed about. Everybody has to learn sometime, I'll teach you." Again she nodded. " Ok I'm gonna kiss you, just do what I do. Ok? She nodded, as I slowly leaned in and re captured her lips, bringing my right hand to the side of her face and resting my other hand on her knee. She mirrored my actions, and I smiled into the kiss.
It started off slow at first, but quickly heated up. I moved my right hand behind her head pulling her face closer to mine, and pushed her right knee down with my other hand. Taking the hint she brought her other knee down as well. After her legs were completely flat on the bed I straddled her hips, I pulled back a little and brought my left hand up to her shoulder and slowly pushed her down, until she was laying flat on the bed.