Chapter four-I need you.
The bathroom door slammed shut I was tugging at her jeans, she was pulling at my shirt; Rachel cornered her self against the glossy counter top as her knees bumped into the curb of it, leaving her falling into a sitting position right on top of it. Her shirt and her jeans were off, so were mine. I trailed wet kisses down from her chest to her navel while she ran her hands through my silky brunette hair. My lips met hers and my tongue explored the map of her mouth. I felt the heat of her body as my hands ran up her inner thighs, then gripping her waist while she pulled me into her with our bodies as close as humanly possible. Our hips grinding perfectly together, in perfect motion with a hand on her neck and my tongue deep down her throat. We were both so wet, grinding faster into each other it seemed like perfect lust. She let a loud moan escape form her mouth wanting more. I pulled away slightly and with out warning I shoved my finger inside of her, she bit into my bottom lip and I bit hers back as I thrust in and out of her causing her to nearly explode. I kissed her softly until her body quit shaking and our heavy breathing ceased.
My veins pulsed with guilt. I still couldn't get a grip around it. The only way I'll understand this is if I talk to Peyton. I find myself knocking on Peyton's door, pounding almost. She opens the door quickly, and by the look on her face she wasn't sure what to expect. She motions me to come in, so I do just that. I take a seat on the couch and contemplate what words would leave my mouth. She just looked at me and waited for a second. "Peyton, how do you feel about me?" I asked her whole heartedly knowing on my bottom lip with anxiety "You're my best friend Brooke, I love you" That wasn't the answer I was looking for and she could see it in my eyes. "Brooke…what's going on? You've been distant lately." I looked down to my shoes. I was caught between Peyton and Rachel, Love and Lust. "Look, you're my best friend, you deserve the truth. Remember when I told you that I was avoiding you because of what happened with Lucas?" she nodded seeming unsure "Well, that wasn't the case. The real reason was because I fell in love with you Peyton. I've always loved you. I just didn't want to scare you away. And now…I need to know if you feel the same way" I watched as her jaw nearly dropped five feet and felt my heart skip a beat, there was never a second in my life where I felt more scared then I am now. "Brooke…I don't know what to say" there it was, the answer that could have pulled my whole world together and just tore it apart. A distraught expression grew on my face as I just sat there for a second. "I'm sorry…I should have never brought it up" I said as I stood up headed for the door, I felt a grip around my wrist as she pulled me back to face her "Brooke, I'm in love with you. Very much so. So much that it hurts me every day. And what hurt the most, was walking by the bathroom the other day and seeing you and another girl through the crack of the door…" My heart froze, had she just said she loved me back? I got so happy within that instant, but the happiness was soon shot down when the finishing words to her sentence leaked through my ears. "You saw us…" It wasn't even a question. It was a statement; because of course she saw it. And that would explain the empty look in her once sparkling eyes. It made me sick to realize that I had made her beautiful hazel orbs lose their glow.
I looked her in the eyes and we sat silenced for a minute. She spoke up, her breath a bitter sweat kind of cold "I want to be with you Brooke, forever." I started to smile faintly with the slightest bit of hope. Then she continues "-But now we can't ever be together. I would never have trust in you." She looked away focusing on something else in the room and I felt my eyes start to tear up. I ran through the door fast enough so she wouldn't see me cry, I side on the pavement and buried my hands into my face as the tears flowed out. How could I have been so careless? If I would have taken the chance I could have had everything I wanted. But I'm a coward and I ignored every chance I got. I hated my self more then anything in the world right then, tucked to myself not wanting to do anything at all, ever.
Authors note: Alright so I know this chapter was really short, but I was just trying to put some kind of update up. I hope I did alright with it. I'm already working on the next chapter so it shouldn't take long to be up. Please leave reviews, If I don't get any then I probably won't continue this story. So post reviews:).