Song ( The Rose By Conway Twitty )
The Truth Of Her
Sesshomaru hid his aura and mask his sent as he was leaving the camp sight. He flew off in search of Kagome after about 5 minutes he finely felt an aura when he flew to it he hid in the trees and watched. He saw a female demon cutting out a heat of a demon she had killed when he looked closer. He noticed on her back was a pack like the one Kagome carried. She had also killed a small boar that she was dressing out as soon as she had done what was needed. She stood and cleaned up the mess and went to the river to clean up.
Sesshomaru now knew Kagomes secret. Now he understood why he was so attacked to this person. He decided it would be best if she didn't know he was there so he left the area far enough he couldn't feel her aura any long, unmasked himself then headed back. When he reached the area that he knew Kagome was in her aura had changed back to her normal aura so he knew it was safe to go to her. He let himself be known.
Kagome turned and looked at him. "Lord Sesshomaru is something wrong? What are you doing here?" she ask.
" I came to make sure everything was alright. You have been gone for a long while." Sesshomaru was a person with great honor and to lie was dishonorable so no matter if he wanted to lie he could not do so.
"I am able to take care of myself Lord Sesshomaru-" Before she could finish what she was saying he interrupted her "You Lady Kagome may just call me Sesshomaru" Kagome knew for him to allow someone to call him by his given name was indeed a honor and a sign of respect on his side. So she decided the least she could do was to return the same. "In that case you may call me Kagome from now on." she replied. He lightly nodded his head in appreciation "Shall we return?" He ask as they started walking back to camp in silence both deep in thought.
Sesshomaru had something on his mind so he ask it. " Kagome are you able to cast spells on people?" As he ask his question he could see a look of hurt in her face but it quickly vanished. But he could still see it in her eyes. After seeing this he was sorry he had ask.
Kagome looked at him How could he ask me such a thing? I may be alot of things but I am not into the dark magic or miko things like that." No I do not cast spells on people. That is something that someone of the dark arts does or a witch and I am neither." Kagome felt a tear run down her cheek. Not wanting him to see her weakness she turned away from him.
Sesshomaru let out a breath he didn't even know he had been holding. After seeing the tear and then her turning aways. He felt an uncontrollable urge to stop her from crying. He placed his hand on her shoulder and turned her around. As he raised his hand and wiped away her tears. While raising his hand he also noticed Kagome wince as if he was going to hit her. This bother him greatly. Does she think I would strick her?"I'm sorry Kagome it was just something I have been wondering. It was not meant to make you cry. Forgive me for causing you pain."
She was a little taken back and shocked by his words. Never had she known of Sesshomaru telling anyone he was sorry for anything before. As she looked into his eyes she could see pain and regret in them but there was something else hiding behind it but she couldn't tell what it was. For some strange reason his simple act had made her feel better.
Kagome smiles weaky then turned away walking to the camp. When Kagome walked into camp Shippo was the first to see her. "Momma your back. I was starting to worry you was gone so long." said Shippo " Is there anything I can help you with?" ask Rin
"Well Rin if you wouldn't mind getting the rods for me to cook with that would be a big help. Shippo we need to water to drink. Could you get it for me please? I see you have already gotten the fire going. How did you light it?" Kagome asked hoping that nether one of the children had started it. "Jake started it for you." Said Rin with a smile that light up her whole face. This made Kagome smile lighty. Kagome turn to Jaken. "Thank you very much Jaken that was nice of you." Jaken just snarled but said nothing else in return.
Kagome was hoping he would have said something to her thanking him but of course his actions didn't surprise her to much. But it made her rather sad with his reaction. This made her smile vanish. After the water was brought to camp Kagome thanked the children for there help and told them to play but not to go to far off. Sesshomaru had taken a seat under a tree and was watching everything that had happened. For some strange reason it made him upset the fact that Jaken had acted the way he did when Kagome was trying to be nice to him.
Kagome sat by the fire looking at the sky while the meal cooked. While looking at the sky she became lost in her thoughts. She starting thinking of all the things that had happened , it made her want to cry all over again. She forced herself to stop thinking about it but, the thought lingered in her mind. She felt a firm hand on her shoulder this brought her out of her thoughts.
When she looked up she saw Sesshomaru. "Kagome why do you want to cry?" He asked "It's nothing. I just got some smoke in my eyes thats all. Pardon me the meal is ready." Kagome stood and walked to her pack to get the items needed for the meal. She layed out a cloth for everyone to sit on to eat. Made there plates and called everyone to eat.
Kagome walked over to Sesshoumaru with a plate and cup " Would you like something to eat?" He took the cup from her hand letting his fingers lightly rub against hers as he took it and watched as she lightly blushed. Kagome looked away and started to get up. "Sesshomaru? Does Jaken eat this type of thing or not?"
"Yes he does" he replied.
" Alright I'll see if he is hungry then. Thank you."
"Kagome? What is in the drink?" he ask.
Kagome bent down and took the cup. To Sesshomaru's surprise she took a drink and handed it back to him. " It is only a mixer of blood and water and honey. I thought you might like it if not, you do not need to drink it." Kagome walked away.
"Jaken are you hungry?" She bent down and offered him the plate. Jaken for once had nothing mean or rude to say.
" Thanks" He said as he took the plate from her. She could plainly see the confused look on his face. Kagome smiled at him then stood and walked away.
Kagome walked back over to the cloth she laid out and joined the children. Rin and Shippo sit and talked the whole time. Each telling stories of things they did. With each story that Shippo told he would talk about Inuyasha. Kagome had to walk away to keep from cracking her face with tears. "Well kids I'm full ,there is a hot spring close so I am going to take a bath before we start off again. Would you too mind doing the dishes or you can come join me when your done?"
Kagome stood gathered her bathing supplies from her pack walked to Sesshomaru. "Sesshomaru there is a hot spring close by I am going to go there and bath before we leave. Do I have time to do that?"
"Yes"
"Thank You. I will return soon." She said and walked away. She soon found the hot spring and undressed and slipped in as she seat in the warmth of the water it soothed her. As she sit thinking of all the things she started singing a song she had heard. That was pulling at her heart.
Some say love, it is a river and that it drowns, the tender reeds.
and some say love.. It's, like a razor and it leaves, your soul to bleed
Some say Love, it is a hunger, an endless acking need,
I say Love, it is a flower,and you, it's only seed,
It's the heart, afraid of breaking,that never learns to dance
It's the dream,afraid of waken,That never, takes the chance
It's the one, who won't be taken, Who can not seam to give,
And the soul,afraid of dieing,that never learns to live,
When the night,has been to lonely,and the road,has been to long
And you think, that love is only,for the lucky,and the strong,
Just remember, in the winter,far beneath,the bitter snow,
Lies the seed,that with the suns, love, in the spring, becomes, the rose,
Sesshomaru could hear Kagome's signing at the spring. Her voice was very sad as she sung. He could almost feel her pain in each word. Kagome why do you cry? He isn't worth your tears. Why do you keep hurting yourself over him?
Kagome's head shot up. She felt 2 Jewel Shards coming . She cringed , she knew who it was. Kagome jumped out of the spring and dressed as fast as she could and ran back to the camp sight. Kagome didn't want to be alone with him. Kagome looked over to Sesshomaru who was looking at her. "I know the one who is coming" Sesshomaru could see how Kagome cringed at the thought of whatever it was that was coming.
In less than a minute a whirl wind of a twister came right into the camp stopping right in front of Kagome.
"Kagome how are you? Are you ready to come be my mate yet?" said Kouga as he grabed her hand and steped closer to her.
"Sorry Kouga but like I tell you every time you ask. I'm still collecting the shards and Naraku is still alive sorry." Kagome tried to put on a smile but she just couldn't manage it. She wasn't really in any mood for Kouga and all of his claims.
After seeing this and the way Kagome had acted Sesshomaru walked over not liking the idea of him touching Kagome.
"Kagome where is mut face? I don't smell his stench around away where." said Kouga
" Well he isn't here and I don't want to talk about it." She said as she was pulling her hand back from him.
"Have you finely come to your senses and left the moron?" He stated.
"I said I didn't want to talk about it." She replied.
Kouga grabbed Kagome's wrist. "Well if your not with him anymore than it is time for you to come with me."
"No Kouga I don't want to go with you. I have told you this before. I have a mission I haft to do." Kagome tried to pull her arm back but Kouga didn't want to let go. "Kouga your my friend so please let go."
Until now Sesshomaru had stayed back and out of Kagome's business until he saw that Kouga didn't want to comply with Kagome's wishes. This is when he decided it was time to step forward and make his presents known.
Sesshomaru stepped forward next to Kagome. "Kagome is everything alright here?" He asked never removing his gaze from Kouga.
"Pretty much" She replyed as she looked at him. But he could see different in her eyes.
"Lord Sesshomaru we meet again." said Kouga
"Prince Kouga." he pulsed " I do believe that Lady Kagome asked you to remove your hands from her person. You should show her more respect than you are as I believe you are causing her pain." Kouga let her wrist go. Kagome pulled it back and started rubbing her wrist as it was red.
Kagome heard Rin and Shippo coming so she looked over Rin was laughing till she looked up and saw Kouga. The look on her face change from one extreme to the other. She had the look of pure terror as if she was seeing her worst enemy and she had no way to to defend herself. This struck Kagome very hard to see the pain and terror in Rins eyes.
Kagome new right away it had something to do with Kouga being there. She turned her eyes back to Kouga. " Kouga perhaps you should go now we are packing up to leave this area." Hoping he would really go.
"Yes your right. I need to get back to my pack. I will see you soon My Kagome." Kouga turned and he was off again in a flash in his twister. Kagome cringed at the idea of him coming back.
Kagome walked over to Rin and kneeled down by her pulled her into her arms. "Rin hunny are you alright your shaking?" Rin didn't answer. Kagome looked at Sesshomaru with a question look on her face. Kagome could see the pain and the pity in his eyes as he looked at Rin while she was crying in Kagome's arms.
"Rin hunny you don't need to be scared of him. He is gone now okay please calm down. Tell you what make you a deal. If you will calm down. Shippo if Kouga shows up again go to Rin and place a barrier around her . That way Rin he can't see you. Ok? Will that make you feel better? Sides I will hurt anyone who tried to hurt you. Ok? You have my word on that." She said the last parts with a funny look on her face as she touched the tip of Rins nose with her own nose.
Kagome lifter Rin's chin and wiped away her tears with her fingers. "Now what did I tell you yesterday about a smile?" Kagome smiled at Rin hoping to make she feel better.
"You told Rin that A smile on a little girl makes them even more beautiful than they already are and I should always smile and be happy."
"That's right Rin so how about a smile no more tears okay." It was then that Rin but on a big smile all signs of her fear was gone and Kagome felt relieved to see it.
Kagome sent the children off to the camp to play. She wanted to know the story of why Rin was so scared. Kagome stood and watched as they left for the camp area. She turned to Sesshomaru. "Sesshomaru? Why was Rin so afraid of Kouga? She had a look of terror in her eyes."
Sesshomaru turned his gaze back toward the camp. Kagome could feel the sadness in him. She waited for him to answer her. After a bit he finely did.
" Kouga and his pack attacked the village she was living in. She was very young and had already lost her parents and brother to bandits. When they attacked the village Rin saw Kouga give the order for his wolves to kill everyone. She ran, his wolves chased her down and killed her. By this time I had meet her it was just after Inuyasha had cut off my arm.
She was kind to me even though I was mean and tried to scare her off she wouldn't leave. She brought me food and water. When I smelt her blood in the air I went and found her. I used my sword to bring her back and she had traveled with me every since. I do not like Kouga for that reason as he gave her alot of pain. She still dreams of it at times."
Sesshomaru turned his gaze around and saw tears running down Kagome cheek even though her bangs where covering her eyes. "Kagome why do you cry?" he ask.
"I cry for both of you. Her for what she had to go though and you for the pain you feel because of it as you will not cry." Kagome turned and walked away leaving him standing there. Sesshomaru walked after her to the camp."We will stay here for the night no need to pack up." He told Kagome.
Sesshomaru went back and sit under the tree leaning against it, as he watched everyone in his camp. He became lost in thought.. She cried tears for me? How could she feel my pain? Why must she cry so much? Why can't see let go and heal?
The more Sesshomaru set thinking about why Kagome had not started healing the more he realized something. Not once had he seen her crying for herself. Each time she had cryed it was for someone else. Sesshomaru stood "Jaken" he called out. "Yes My Lord you called?" "Jaken watch the camp keep the children safe." "Yes My Lord."
Sesshomaru steps over to Kagome. "Kagome walk with me." She nodded and walked with him. He lead her to a clearing near the waters edge. As they stood there looking out over the water. Kagome wondered why he had brought her here. She hoped she hadn't done anything that had upset him. She knew he would tell her why they left camp when he was ready too. She didn't haft to wait long for the answer.
"Kagome whenever I have seen you cry it has always been for others and never yourself. Why is that?" Do you fear your own pain so much?"
"Why do you are say such things Sesshomaru?" she replied
"One can not heal if they hide from themselves. To do such a thing one can lose themselves in that darkness. I do not wish for you to be lost."
"Why do you care if I am lost? If you are worried you would be left with my kit. I can leave the group if that is your wish." She replied.
" It is not my wish for you to depart this group. I see many things within you. Kagome if I might request a favore of you. Close your eyes and sign the song you sang at the spring to me."
Kagome looked at Sesshomaru. Why would he want me to sing it to him? Sesshomaru looked at Kagome "Please Kagome sign it to me. You have a beautiful voice and I wish to hear all the words." Kagome sighed looked straight ahead and closed her eyes. "If it will make you happy."
Some say love, it is a river and that it drowns, the tender reeds.
and some say love.. It's, like a razor and it leaves, your soul to bleed
Some say Love, it is a hunger, an endless acking need,
I say Love, it is a flower,and you, it's only seed,
It the heart, afraid of breaking,that never learns to dance
It's the dream,afraid of waken,That never, takes the chance
It's the one, who won't be taken, Who can not seam to give,
And the soul,afraid of dieing,that never learns to live,
When the night,has been to lonely,and the road,has been to long
And you think, that love is only,for the lucky,and the strong,
Just remember, in the winter,far beneath,the bitter snow,
Lies the seed,that with the suns, love, in the spring, becomes, the rose,
"Tell me Kagome what does this song mean to you? Is it hope or pain?" he asked " It means both to me." she replied after giving it some thought.
Some say love, it is a river and that it drowns, the tender reeds. "Me" because it seams I am drowning.
and some say love.. It's, like a razor and it leaves, your soul to bleed :Me" I always feel beaten and bloody.
Some say Love, it is a hunger, an endless acking need, "Me" all of it.
I say Love, it is a flower,and you, it's only seed, "Rin and Shippo They are the seeds of the next generation
It the heart, afraid of breaking,that never learns to dance "You" Your always so closed off to the world.
It's the dream,afraid of waken,That never, takes the chance "You' you don't take chances.
It's the one, who won't be taken, Who can not seam to give, "You' you never show any real emotion.
And the soul,afraid of dieing,that never learns to live, "Kikyo and Inuyasha her will to live and him wanting to be happy
When the night,has been to loney,and the road,has been to long "Me" I always feel alone even when I'm not
And you think, that love is only,for the lucky,and the strong, "me" curse unlucky and weak
Just remember, in the winter,far beneath,the bitter snow, "Rin and Shippo" hope for their futures
Lies the seed,that with the suns, love, in the spring, becomes, the rose, "Rin and Shippo" knowing they will both bloom when they are ready.
Sesshomaru stood and listen to Kagome sing for each she thought them for. He watched as the tears fell down the face. He felt her pain and he wanted to cry as well. He wanted to comfort her to make all her pain go away. To make her not cry again. As she opened her eyes he softy wiped her tears away gently. "Kagome I wished I could make your pain leave you but I can not only you can make this happen. Why do you always want to cry?"
Kagome stood quit for a bit thinking. She looked at the ground not wanting to see his face. " I just... I don't understand how he could tell me he loved me then start seeing her behind my back. How he could say all the crewl things he did and me always forgive him. I come back a day early and find them together. I truly am cursed. In more ways than one. How could he pick her over me? Not worth it is what he said. I see what he meant now. Even with all I gave up and did. It wasn't good enough. I gave up my whole life in my mothers time to be here to do what I must do. Nothing I ever do is good enough. It isn't that he don't love me. It's the lies the words and who it was for." She was surprised when she felt Sesshomarus arms surround her and hold her as she cried. It was surprising to her how good it felt in his arms.
Sesshomaru stood and listened to Kagome and saw her crying for herself for the first time He wrapped his arm around her and pulled her close to his chest and let her cry. Now she can heal. He bent down and whispered in her ear softy. "I hate to hear you cry and for you to have pain but it pleases me that you are finely crying Kagome." Sesshomaru closed his eyes. I care deepy for her but could I ,Do I. .Love her? She draws me like a moth to a flame. Do I really want to take this that far? Her touch feels like fire to my soul.
Sesshomaru thinks back to when he was young and remembers the way he felt then. No this is different. This is much deeper than then. He reaches down and softy lifts her chin and looks at her beautiful face softy wipes her tears. Yes I do.. I do Love her. He pulled her into him more and before he could stop himself he leaned down and softy kissed her. He felt her stiffen then she relaxed and melted into his kiss.
When he realized what he was doing he broke their kiss but didn't release her. Looking into her eyes "I'm sorry.